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Hello, I've got a serious problem I think that i'm being watched and attacked by a grey, last night I actually began trying a meditation to program my aura to protect me while I sleep. During the meditation a got a ringing in my ear 'deathbell' or whatever its called, that startled me badly. I completed the meditation and went to sleep. while I was sleeping I had a dream, and in my dream I was a child and was in an old house I used to live in. I was lying in bed in my dream and I saw a round greyish circle 'blob' on the wallthen it seemed like it started to take the shape of a head(a greys head) with two huge black eyes. I screamed for Father Satan's help then I woke up. I realized what I saw when I woke up because its all too damn suspicious compared to other things that's been happening to me lately Earlier that night before I had went to bed I joined the Hells Army groupand a few days earlier I tried my first RTR, the 72 name RTR. right after I began vibrating the names, I was attacked by my mother. (my mother is a major druggie bitch, that lives with me, and usually keeps drugs on a nightstand beside her bed when she sleeps) She came pounding on my door to the point where I thought it was about to break in half and swore I stole her drugs, even though I stopped doing drugs a long time ago. I'm not going to mention what type of drug, but still keep in mind: this was at 3:30AM so SOMTHING had to wake her up out of a dead sleep and make her want to do drugs, just to make her come and interrupt my RTR. I tried my best to power through the RTR, she made me lose track and I messed up on it a lot, but I still did my best and eventually completed it. I walked into my mothers room, she was on the bed crying, I looked around the room and I found her drugs lying on the other side of the room like they had been thrown there. I have no clue whats going on but here lately I seem to have VERY disturbing, negative, and completely offensive thoughts about Father Satan, Lilith, and a demon who I believe is my guarding. and sometimes, just sometimes I get an image of a greys face that pops in my head and is looking right at me. I have always had a gift of strong visualizations and when I do protection work on my aura, I always use whitegold and when I visualize my aura it fills the entire room, and is so bright I can barely see myself in the center, like the sun is literally in my bedroom. I remember reading on the JoS website where the High Priestess wrote "you will begin to stand out on the astral" and another topic where she wrote that the enemy comes for the ones who are the most of a threat to them. Is it possible that my powerful visualizations have attracted a grey? I probably do have a very powerful aura, but im still at a beginner - medium level and I'm no where near an adepts level and I don't know how the hell to deal with a grey considering all the nasty things ive read about them. Can anyone give advice or help me with dealing with this damn thing, please?
