satanic666666
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I been trying to figure this stuff out, there are many gods out there and I cant know who to trust, but based on my research which was minimal the origins of the earth was not by Nordics.
I don't know what I've done in past lives but I am very psychically open and have always been so-called "Satanic" but I've seen Satan on multiple occasions and for me has has blond hair, blue eyes, white robe, very slightly tanned skin, by that I mean not pale LOL.
I know that I didn't originate at earth, some different planet, star or something along the lines of that.
Every time I practiced Satanism, I felt sick all the time, enemy attacks I couldn't stop, constantly tired, constantly sad.
I've messed up a lot of times and blasphemed Satan but he seems to not really care, never hurt me for it and still let me "be with him" following that. I dont do unjust things, I don't know why he cares about me.
I have power and I can manifest things in this world but not with the satanic magick, the only thing that has worked for me is 1. chaos magick works a tiny bit, 2. energy ripping and death energy works somewhat but the energy kept going in the wrong place and made the wrong people harmed, 3. affirmations and numerology works extremely well for me and my neighbors moved out due to my working two days ago hehe [long story].. I can't find much truth and all I know right now is that I love Satan unconditionally and stand for the same things he supposedly does, I feel he is my father and loves me greatly, I love freemasonry, I can do weird metaphysical stuff, I dont like Hitler as a authoritarian because I naturally oppose it though I hate the so-called jews.. I dislike all forms of authority even Satan's authority but I dont dislike him or what hes doing, I just have these fundamental things in my blood that I feel are required for justice to prevail and the elite and those causing harm to humanity to fall.
I'm a teen.
I hate angels even know people see me as angelic and such, I dont hate daemons but I'm weary of them because I dont know the truth.
I've looked at the entire JoS website. a lot of others and I been in pursuit of knowledge regarding this for 2 years.
I feel demonic presence but in a good way, I feel Satan's energy as I write this.. I think I know where maybe I'm supposed to be which is with Satan.
I don't know why I loose power when in Satanism.
The energies on here seem to have calmed down a little bit.
I hate the Vatican.
I love the people of JoyofSatan for all their good actions towards fighting these evil people.
I have mental hang-ups and mental instability due to a ton of problems regarding my family and mental abuse [its abuse when repeated for so many years].
I supposedly have a higher IQ than 90% of the population according to my psychologist which I use to see yet I'm foolish as you can see above.
This is me asking for help that I really need not me trying to debate others or put them under me, I'm far from jewish and have not reason to dislike you guys/girls, I have much love for you.
I'm not a so-called lightworker, I just love some people.
I got an angelic attack today and someone sent me a bunch of filthy love because I fixed her computer.. What an awful thing to do, they think it helps people when its really spells.
Hope that's good enough for info so I can figure out this kind of stuff.. It's really toying with my head and its been for a long time.. I just want to do and know whats right.
I'm not too attracted to the material yet I want some physical things and I dont understand why, I dont know weather or not its bad.
I dont have anyone else to talk to.
Sorry for being a little bit pathetic here and having terrible grammar.
I have a ton of other questions that I dont expect to be answered.
I've been through nearly all religions and they are bullshit, Satanism isnt exactly though but I wont be a so-called Satanist because it involves dogma, I'll just be what I am and its hard for me to explain.
I'm not trying to show off or anything, I just really want help.
There's some questions in here too.
Hail Satan.
I don't know what I've done in past lives but I am very psychically open and have always been so-called "Satanic" but I've seen Satan on multiple occasions and for me has has blond hair, blue eyes, white robe, very slightly tanned skin, by that I mean not pale LOL.
I know that I didn't originate at earth, some different planet, star or something along the lines of that.
Every time I practiced Satanism, I felt sick all the time, enemy attacks I couldn't stop, constantly tired, constantly sad.
I've messed up a lot of times and blasphemed Satan but he seems to not really care, never hurt me for it and still let me "be with him" following that. I dont do unjust things, I don't know why he cares about me.
I have power and I can manifest things in this world but not with the satanic magick, the only thing that has worked for me is 1. chaos magick works a tiny bit, 2. energy ripping and death energy works somewhat but the energy kept going in the wrong place and made the wrong people harmed, 3. affirmations and numerology works extremely well for me and my neighbors moved out due to my working two days ago hehe [long story].. I can't find much truth and all I know right now is that I love Satan unconditionally and stand for the same things he supposedly does, I feel he is my father and loves me greatly, I love freemasonry, I can do weird metaphysical stuff, I dont like Hitler as a authoritarian because I naturally oppose it though I hate the so-called jews.. I dislike all forms of authority even Satan's authority but I dont dislike him or what hes doing, I just have these fundamental things in my blood that I feel are required for justice to prevail and the elite and those causing harm to humanity to fall.
I'm a teen.
I hate angels even know people see me as angelic and such, I dont hate daemons but I'm weary of them because I dont know the truth.
I've looked at the entire JoS website. a lot of others and I been in pursuit of knowledge regarding this for 2 years.
I feel demonic presence but in a good way, I feel Satan's energy as I write this.. I think I know where maybe I'm supposed to be which is with Satan.
I don't know why I loose power when in Satanism.
The energies on here seem to have calmed down a little bit.
I hate the Vatican.
I love the people of JoyofSatan for all their good actions towards fighting these evil people.
I have mental hang-ups and mental instability due to a ton of problems regarding my family and mental abuse [its abuse when repeated for so many years].
I supposedly have a higher IQ than 90% of the population according to my psychologist which I use to see yet I'm foolish as you can see above.
This is me asking for help that I really need not me trying to debate others or put them under me, I'm far from jewish and have not reason to dislike you guys/girls, I have much love for you.
I'm not a so-called lightworker, I just love some people.
I got an angelic attack today and someone sent me a bunch of filthy love because I fixed her computer.. What an awful thing to do, they think it helps people when its really spells.
Hope that's good enough for info so I can figure out this kind of stuff.. It's really toying with my head and its been for a long time.. I just want to do and know whats right.
I'm not too attracted to the material yet I want some physical things and I dont understand why, I dont know weather or not its bad.
I dont have anyone else to talk to.
Sorry for being a little bit pathetic here and having terrible grammar.
I have a ton of other questions that I dont expect to be answered.
I've been through nearly all religions and they are bullshit, Satanism isnt exactly though but I wont be a so-called Satanist because it involves dogma, I'll just be what I am and its hard for me to explain.
I'm not trying to show off or anything, I just really want help.
There's some questions in here too.
Hail Satan.
