Amon's Sigil on my momma. And apologies.

[Satanic Path]

It happened so fast.
Like we have not had the time to even understand.
My grandmom died three hours ago, at home, she was recovering from a surgery for a tumor.
She suffered, I'm sure, she might have had a seizure or an ictus.
She just wanted to wash herself and my mom was helping her as she was weak.
She started falling, but in the first moments she could still talk. The twice time she has fallen she stopped talking and started wheezing very bad, she also peed on the floor.
My mom went on the street to wait for the ambulance. I stayed inside to be with her.
She stopped breathing a minute before the ambulance was here, right in front of me.
I cried like a baby, but who wouldn't? I'm not Putin, I am human.
Why in movies rianimation is so fast? It took them more than three minutes to ask my mother if they could reanimate her.
But I'm good. I really healed from depression, as my mind was clear and lucid.
Yes, I've never stopped crying. And my head is aching so bad.
I opened myself to Satan, when I was left alone and my family was out.
I almost vomited when the undertakers brought crosees and jesus's portraits inside our home, my momma has never been into those things.
But their foolness made me act.
Why a stupid cross, and not a Demon's Sigil?
I drew Amon's Sigil on a piece of thick paper with a black pen, I kissed it with my lips and blessed Amon, then I put it under her shirt.
I also drew the infinity simble behind the sigil, on the other face of the paper.
This made me feel like a Satanist, like you, and also human.
It's a little thing, but it was intense.
I also wanna apologise to all my brothers in Satan and The Gods themselves.
I have no way to do the rituals, even If I want to with all my soul, or my mother would think I'm a piece of ice. Or a monster. She can't already stand me and what I do, she wouldn't undestand my abnegation either.
She also told me she'll make me work twelve hours a day not to let me do the things I like.
Then his mate is gonna come this evening, and even his brother, add it my granddad.
They would be mad at me and think I'm a beast.
Of course I'm a beast, but a fair one.
I really hope Satan can feel me, and even if I'm not able to fight for Him in the next days, I hope my momma is safe.
Thinking she is dissolved in the UNO is frightening. But Cobra answered my question as always, in a recent post where he talked about Demons helping deceased even when the deads thank jehova for that.
This place is my bible, totally. Like is Cobra's words were a sign. I remeber when reading it I was amazed.
I hope I don't seem to much confused to you, but I'm still processing everything.
Satan, to you, I may not be able to perform the War for the most important days, and this is poison to me. But my heart dwells in Yours, and in All Your Demons, and I swear when I am on my own nothing and nobody will stop me.
My altar is going to be really big.
And I bless Amon countless times, as he exists and that's the biggest gift a Demon can do to his people.
Because They exist, my illness was banished and existence became sweet to me.
Hail Satan!
Hail Amon!
Hail Zepar!
Hail Inanna!
Hail Lilith!
Hail All The Greatest Beings that will ever exist!
Last but not least, Hail to all us and The Clergy.

 

[darkmonkey666]

Smart people can always figure out a way to do stuff. Almost every home has some place where you can quietly vibrate runes and not be heard by others. If your interrupted just stop and start again when they leave. Same with the rtr/tetragrammaton thing. While it may be less effective that way its better than nothing and my advice with this when your interrupted hold your focus on the energy as it is while whatever is going on is. Then start up where you left off focusing on same energy. Everyone almost has a TV or radio or cd player or something they can play it. It won't effect it unless you are focusing on it instead of the ritual and may even enhance it if whatever your playing gets you more focused or in the mood. So if you can play something louder than your vibration and you can vibrate things quietly. Also if you have a car or place outside you sometimes go to or even go for walks alone sometimes. That's your time to do this. Most people if there are any around won't even hear you if your quiet and use the same rules if someone is really near I said above. I vibrated an enochian key looking at my phone in 2012 in the middle of the train station in Chicago once right near a Jew lmao like I posted awhile back when I saw one (that was the reason I did that) when I went on a vacation. No one could hear me cause the volume was high enough. You will find ways to do this stuff if you really think. Maybe often.

Anyways sorry about your loss if I understand this right. The Gods do take care of loved ones but it really depends how deep in the person is. If they are an xtian pastor type deep in it or someone who is beyond the point of no return they probably won't help. But if they really are a good person the Gods will help and most likely just quickly reincarnate them from everything I read and what Maxine says.

You can also do meditations that are just visualization anytime no one would know.

 

[Sundara]

It happened so fast.
Like we have not had the time to even understand.
My grandmom died three hours ago, at home, she was recovering from a surgery for a tumor.
She suffered, I'm sure, she might have had a seizure or an ictus.
She just wanted to wash herself and my mom was helping her as she was weak.
She started falling, but in the first moments she could still talk. The twice time she has fallen she stopped talking and started wheezing very bad, she also peed on the floor.
My mom went on the street to wait for the ambulance. I stayed inside to be with her.
She stopped breathing a minute before the ambulance was here, right in front of me.
I cried like a baby, but who wouldn't? I'm not Putin, I am human.
Why in movies rianimation is so fast? It took them more than three minutes to ask my mother if they could reanimate her.
But I'm good. I really healed from depression, as my mind was clear and lucid.
Yes, I've never stopped crying. And my head is aching so bad.
I opened myself to Satan, when I was left alone and my family was out.
I almost vomited when the undertakers brought crosees and jesus's portraits inside our home, my momma has never been into those things.
But their foolness made me act.
Why a stupid cross, and not a Demon's Sigil?
I drew Amon's Sigil on a piece of thick paper with a black pen, I kissed it with my lips and blessed Amon, then I put it under her shirt.
I also drew the infinity simble behind the sigil, on the other face of the paper.
This made me feel like a Satanist, like you, and also human.
It's a little thing, but it was intense.
I also wanna apologise to all my brothers in Satan and The Gods themselves.
I have no way to do the rituals, even If I want to with all my soul, or my mother would think I'm a piece of ice. Or a monster. She can't already stand me and what I do, she wouldn't undestand my abnegation either.
She also told me she'll make me work twelve hours a day not to let me do the things I like.
Then his mate is gonna come this evening, and even his brother, add it my granddad.
They would be mad at me and think I'm a beast.
Of course I'm a beast, but a fair one.
I really hope Satan can feel me, and even if I'm not able to fight for Him in the next days, I hope my momma is safe.
Thinking she is dissolved in the UNO is frightening. But Cobra answered my question as always, in a recent post where he talked about Demons helping deceased even when the deads thank jehova for that.
This place is my bible, totally. Like is Cobra's words were a sign. I remeber when reading it I was amazed.
I hope I don't seem to much confused to you, but I'm still processing everything.
Satan, to you, I may not be able to perform the War for the most important days, and this is poison to me. But my heart dwells in Yours, and in All Your Demons, and I swear when I am on my own nothing and nobody will stop me.
My altar is going to be really big.
And I bless Amon countless times, as he exists and that's the biggest gift a Demon can do to his people.
Because They exist, my illness was banished and existence became sweet to me.
Hail Satan!
Hail Amon!
Hail Zepar!
Hail Inanna!
Hail Lilith!
Hail All The Greatest Beings that will ever exist!
Last but not least, Hail to all us and The Clergy.

Sorry to hear about your grandma. Let yourself feel whatever you need to and try to relax with some void and breathing exercises. She is definitely with the Gods, know that!

 

[Satanic Path]

Smart people can always figure out a way to do stuff. Almost every home has some place where you can quietly vibrate runes and not be heard by others. If your interrupted just stop and start again when they leave. Same with the rtr/tetragrammaton thing. While it may be less effective that way its better than nothing and my advice with this when your interrupted hold your focus on the energy as it is while whatever is going on is. Then start up where you left off focusing on same energy. Everyone almost has a TV or radio or cd player or something they can play it. It won't effect it unless you are focusing on it instead of the ritual and may even enhance it if whatever your playing gets you more focused or in the mood. So if you can play something louder than your vibration and you can vibrate things quietly. Also if you have a car or place outside you sometimes go to or even go for walks alone sometimes. That's your time to do this. Most people if there are any around won't even hear you if your quiet and use the same rules if someone is really near I said above. I vibrated an enochian key looking at my phone in 2012 in the middle of the train station in Chicago once right near a Jew lmao like I posted awhile back when I saw one (that was the reason I did that) when I went on a vacation. No one could hear me cause the volume was high enough. You will find ways to do this stuff if you really think. Maybe often.

Anyways sorry about your loss if I understand this right. The Gods do take care of loved ones but it really depends how deep in the person is. If they are an xtian pastor type deep in it or someone who is beyond the point of no return they probably won't help. But if they really are a good person the Gods will help and most likely just quickly reincarnate them from everything I read and what Maxine says.

You can also do meditations that are just visualization anytime no one would know.

Thanks for your compassion. I used to do everything in the shower of the outside toilet, but as there are many people in this very small house now every room is continuosly occupied.
It's not the case to do that in a bathromm when my uncle is peeing next to me.
Yes, the RTR would work, but calling upon a Demon to make him come there is just wrong.
After every prayer, I apologised with my whole heart.
If I go outside, my mom would understand as well. I hate this. It takes me more than two hours to do everything, add it the other two or three RTR's I do in the evening.
I am feeling very bad for all the help I may not give: I was very active, it was as natural as eating to me, and this is poisoning me.

 

[Aquarius]

Not trying to be emotionless or anything, but your excuses are lame, I'm pretty sure your mother doesn't spy you while you're in the bathroom, where you can whisper the rituals in a fast way while you're doing your things/shower ecc.

 

[darkmonkey666]

Smart people can always figure out a way to do stuff. Almost every home has some place where you can quietly vibrate runes and not be heard by others. If your interrupted just stop and start again when they leave. Same with the rtr/tetragrammaton thing. While it may be less effective that way its better than nothing and my advice with this when your interrupted hold your focus on the energy as it is while whatever is going on is. Then start up where you left off focusing on same energy. Everyone almost has a TV or radio or cd player or something they can play it. It won't effect it unless you are focusing on it instead of the ritual and may even enhance it if whatever your playing gets you more focused or in the mood. So if you can play something louder than your vibration and you can vibrate things quietly. Also if you have a car or place outside you sometimes go to or even go for walks alone sometimes. That's your time to do this. Most people if there are any around won't even hear you if your quiet and use the same rules if someone is really near I said above. I vibrated an enochian key looking at my phone in 2012 in the middle of the train station in Chicago once right near a Jew lmao like I posted awhile back when I saw one (that was the reason I did that) when I went on a vacation. No one could hear me cause the volume was high enough. You will find ways to do this stuff if you really think. Maybe often.

Anyways sorry about your loss if I understand this right. The Gods do take care of loved ones but it really depends how deep in the person is. If they are an xtian pastor type deep in it or someone who is beyond the point of no return they probably won't help. But if they really are a good person the Gods will help and most likely just quickly reincarnate them from everything I read and what Maxine says.

You can also do meditations that are just visualization anytime no one would know.

Thanks for your compassion. I used to do everything in the shower of the outside toilet, but as there are many people in this very small house now every room is continuosly occupied.
It's not the case to do that in a bathromm when my uncle is peeing next to me.
Yes, the RTR would work, but calling upon a Demon to make him come there is just wrong.
After every prayer, I apologised with my whole heart.
If I go outside, my mom would understand as well. I hate this. It takes me more than two hours to do everything, add it the other two or three RTR's I do in the evening.
I am feeling very bad for all the help I may not give: I was very active, it was as natural as eating to me, and this is poisoning me.

Just do one at a time. It shouldn't take that long. I mean if you do one or two things better than nothing. Try for rtr+Tetragrammaton each day and race awakening maybe right to rule nations one this takes 40 minutes at most not 2 hours unless your doing something wrong like drawn out vibration of each letter or something. Say it regular or vibrate it doesn't take long. Those are the important ones. The wealth do it if you have time or do only one if thats all you can. Better than nothing. If there is a will there is a way. I gaurentee you in the same situation I would have figured out how to do all this each day.

Not trying to be emotionless or anything, but your excuses are lame, I'm pretty sure your mother doesn't spy you while you're in the bathroom, where you can whisper the rituals in a fast way while you're doing your things/shower ecc.

Exactly what I am thinking.

 

[Satanic Path]

Not trying to be emotionless or anything, but your excuses are lame, I'm pretty sure your mother doesn't spy you while you're in the bathroom, where you can whisper the rituals in a fast way while you're doing your things/shower ecc.

I'm really sorry. I will do the rituals starting tomorrow morning. In these last two days I've done my RTRs in silence, but I felt they were very weak.
Better than doing anything, isn't it?

 

[Aquarius]

Better than doing anything, isn't it?

Absolutely yes.