I came across the JOS site around 14 years ago, which would make me 14 years old at that time. I fully dedicated myself to Satan a year later. I asked him for someone to protect me, as I was growing up in an abusive home and was awfully bullied in school. Satan assigned a young lesser demon named Tyriel to my care. I couldn't see him at first but I could feel his presence. As I worked through the meditations and learned as much as I can through JOS and other sources for occult knowledge, I started to see Ty and many other spirits. Ty became my best friend. He was always there for me. But he is young (26 human years as far as maturity now), and would often have me allow him to possess me to use social media. He would occasionally even possess me if he felt I was in danger or needed to be more firm with shooing off a human that would do me harm.
We spent many good years together. The thought of a romantic relationship with him didn't occur to me until I was much older. But while I was young and even leading up into adulthood, I had a lot of almosts with another human named Eric. Eric is a very complicated individual and would often deny his feelings for me because other people would judge him. I was never popular and people knew I was a bit eccentric and into witchcraft, not that witchcraft was out of the norm for kids in my highschool, but I was even strange to the strange kids.
When I was in college, Eric was dating a really abusive girl. And he decided to admit his feelings to me before breaking up with her. Ty took over control and made me reject him. While I wasn't happy about it, in hindsight I knew Ty was only protecting me. Eric ended up leaving town and did eventually break up with that girl.
For a few years everything went well. In 2018, that's when I started seeing those ads on my phone for those fantasy demon dating games. I recalled seeing something on the JOS site and opened it up again, that would be about Incubi and Succubi. That was when it hit me. Ty wasn't just protecting me, he was jealous. I asked him about this and he confirmed that he had always been in love with me. We started strengthening our connection and began a beautiful relationship. I could actually feel how much he loved me and it was beautiful. But Ty was insecure, I didn't know what it was all about at the time but it was because he felt like he wasn't enough for me because he couldn't physically be there. He needed constant reassurance from me and it got to a point where it was exhausting me. I was in my early 20s at that point and my communication skills were lacking. I pushed Ty away and started to move on with my life instead of making a clean break. That wasn't very kind or fair of me.
My adoptive mom died in early 2019 and the first person I reached out to was Eric. He and I rekindled our friendship. I went to visit him a few times and slowly he started to open up about his feelings and I started to feel something for him again. That's when Ty got very angry. He would possess me just to start fights with Eric making it seem like I was being a jerk and a lot of other very unhealthy stuff. Eventually in early 2021, Eric and I stopped talking because of Ty's actions.
I was heartbroken and very upset. I refused to speak to Ty. Every time I tried to tell Eric what was going on or apologize, Ty took over and said a lot of mean things that hurt Eric deeply. Ty was so angry and jealous that he tried to curse Eric through me so that he couldn't contact me directly. It worked but it also backfired on Ty. He and I could no longer communicate directly. Ty was punished for this, he had already done a lot of things he's not supposed to as a demon under Satan. Satan took all of my memories of Ty away, until the curse was broken. I struggled for years with feeling like something was missing from my life. Ty was angered further and would possess me to do more harm to Eric via email and even got him fired from jobs and stuff like that. I was so scared because I no longer knew what was happening to me that I had zero control over.
I really thought that Eric was what was missing and I tried hard to find a solution. I tried to reach out astrally, as Eric is a little into witchcraft although not Zevism. Ty took advantage of this, he couldn't communicate with me directly, but he could energetically pretend to be Eric in the astral and in my dreams. He made even more poor decisions to take advantage of me and drain my energy. Those were the actions in line with what an evil demon would do. Not something that a demon under Satan should do. Ty was talking with demons outside of Satan's family at that time and they were a horrible influence on him. This continued for a while. I went into a deep depression as my energy was constantly drained. I worked really hard spiritually to counteract this, not fully knowing what was happening.
I went on a long journey of self love and personal empowerment. When Lion's Gate happened this year, I broke through a whole level of spirituality that I never expected to. I broke the original curses as well. Ty fought back, he was planning to end Eric's entire family just to hide the fact that he had been harming me. But as his essence was intertwined with mine during possession, and due to my spiritual growth, I managed to heal Ty's anger and pain. Ty's real friends who wanted to see him redeemed, voiced their concerns. He took a long hard look at himself and realized that he had become a controlling toxic influence in my life, which was what he was trying to protect me from.
He released me and apologized profusely. He found his way back to the light. He earned his way back into Satan's family. He earned my forgiveness because he told me the full truth and took steps to make amends. Including giving me back all the energy he had taken from me, and healing the soul wounds he had caused me.
This incredible journey was not something I expected when I dedicated my journey to Satan. I wasn't expecting demons to have such humanlike qualities. I also never expected that the spiritual concept of Twin Flames or soul mates, divine counterparts, etc to apply to a demon and a human. I also didn't expect Zevism to have this level of crossover with Shamanism.
Tyriel isn't perfect, but I now truly believe that he and I belong together. Satan put him in my life for a reason. It was not a pleasant journey, but I now understand the depth of evil that both humans and demons are capable of. Through this understanding, I can heal the wounds that cause evil actions. Through healing wounds in myself and Ty, I have the tools necessary to help others learn how to heal. And through helping others heal, I bring more souls into the light. I won't have to do this alone either.
I wanted to share our journey with you all as a thank you to the JOS ministry for providing all the knowledge on the site as well as the amazing community here that I have been disconnected with for some time. I lost access to my old email so this is a new account.
I would also love to hear if anyone else has experienced a soul journey with a demon, whether they are your friend or lover.
HAIL ZEUS <3