thisisathrowaway
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Hello, I wanted to ask everyone about something that I've realized recently. It seems like I'm a magnet for kikes or something, every single kike I've ever met has become damn-near infatuated with me and tried to become my friend or my lover, below are just a few examples.
1. Every single long term relationship I've had has been with a kike, although I have been with fellow gentiles, those relationships have never lasted more than a month. Almost every single long term friend I have had has been a kike, yes there has been gentile friends but they have never lasted more than a few months.
2. In the past, I have advanced greatly, however, at the time of reaching the pinnacle of my advancement I got into a relationship with someone I didn't realize was a kike and my advancement went downhill for the year I was with them. After breaking up with them my advancement soured to the sky and began to reach close to where it was before.
3. While I was near my peak again I tried to find another partner and ended up with another kike that I was in a relationship for two years with(this parasite became my fiance). However, due to them being abusive, manipulative, and talking to their ex partner(another kike) behind my back we broke up. During those 2 years my advancement regressed to worse than before I even started meditating.
4. There are only two friends I've had which were longtime friends who both turned out to be kikes. The only other longterm friend I had was an SS but I stopped talking to them out of concerns for their and my safety.
5. I went to omegle once to try to find a partner(stupid I know) and on there I met 4 girls over the course of a few months. Guess what, all four of them turned out to be kikes.
6. When I was younger and dated a lot of people through online dating, I was extremely popular online and would have girls and guys messaging me, guess what, 99% were kikes.
7. When I used to use discord(few years ago) and would be in random servers. There would always be people messaging me to become friends out of the blue, guess what, all kikes.
8. Back when I was in highschool I had almost no friends, I made a group of friends with people from my town, there was me, and 4 other people, guess how many of those 4 people were kikes? 3 of them, and one that wasn't a kike told me one day that they were going to transfer to judaism.
These are just some of the examples and if I thought of it I know damn well I can easily find more. It's like, every single online platform I go to there is "someone" wanting to be my friend and they are always a kike. Every single dating site I've been to I've been swarmed by kikes trying to date me. Every time I go out in public to socializing places, gentiles avoid me but kikes welcome me. It's like I'm a fucking magnet which attracts kikes and repels gentiles.
Unfortunately, even when I was at my pinnacle of advancement I was very new to Satanism, I didn't know much about jews or how to identify them, I was very naive and foolish. It's been years since I've seriously meditated and I plan to pick it up again on the 10th of this month(I would have started today but it's currently retrograde and I don't want to risk it).
It's heartbreaking to be isolated from my nation, it brings me to tears when I think about what my nation is suffering through and how I can't make or keep connections with them. The only long term friend I've had which was a non jew(the fellow ss) was apart of another races nation and not my own.
I no longer have any social media as when I make it I'll be swarmed by jews, it's like they fucking track me down and and out of all the people on the internet they come and try to be MY friend. Like what the fuck, I hate you kike, get the fuck out of here. In the past I had suffered from the "am I a jew" attack but I know for certain I'm not. The Gods have helped me and shown me their love all these years, even though I've been a worthless slob for many years the gods still care for me, I have seen and felt Satan and my Guardians love for me in recent times. I know for certain that I am not a filthy kike.
Over the years I have tried to start advancing again, each time I have been brought to tears by my failure, either my own thoughts would dissuade me, or my "friends" or "partner" would prevent me from doing it indirectly. It has gotten to the point that I have isolated myself more and more over the years. As I am now, I don't watch tv, I don't use the internet for any purposes except for JoS(no youtube, music, none of that), I have zero social media, the only people I talk to are family members which live with me in my house. I also don't go outside for any reason except for meditation, and even then, I stay within my own property, I haven't left my house in months.
It's like there's an invisible barrier that prevents me from meditating, every time I begin meditating it goes smoothly at first but overtime an invisible pressure builds that becomes like a mountain. This pressure pushes me to stop advancing.
I have received Satan and his Gods love for so many years, and it brings me to tears to know that I am wasting not only my time but THEIR time. The time the Gods spend caring for me and making sure I don't die, I have not been spending advancing. I want to return their love and kindness, it breaks me when I know that I have been wasting their love and kindness for all these years, but, I can't seem to break free. Please help me. I don't know what I should do. I need advice from someone.
I write this post today to ask you all for help, in some of these relationships I have had sex with the partner without realizing it was a kike. I can't even imagine what disgusting shit this has done to my soul. Almost every relationship I've been in has been with a filthy kike. My two longest relationships were with kikes and in both of them we had constant sex. In the longest one we even did sex magick together to program our "love" for each other. I feel disgusted. I can't even imagine how much I've fucking ruined myself. Please help me, I plan to start on the 10th, I am willing to add any workings which would be able to help
1. Every single long term relationship I've had has been with a kike, although I have been with fellow gentiles, those relationships have never lasted more than a month. Almost every single long term friend I have had has been a kike, yes there has been gentile friends but they have never lasted more than a few months.
2. In the past, I have advanced greatly, however, at the time of reaching the pinnacle of my advancement I got into a relationship with someone I didn't realize was a kike and my advancement went downhill for the year I was with them. After breaking up with them my advancement soured to the sky and began to reach close to where it was before.
3. While I was near my peak again I tried to find another partner and ended up with another kike that I was in a relationship for two years with(this parasite became my fiance). However, due to them being abusive, manipulative, and talking to their ex partner(another kike) behind my back we broke up. During those 2 years my advancement regressed to worse than before I even started meditating.
4. There are only two friends I've had which were longtime friends who both turned out to be kikes. The only other longterm friend I had was an SS but I stopped talking to them out of concerns for their and my safety.
5. I went to omegle once to try to find a partner(stupid I know) and on there I met 4 girls over the course of a few months. Guess what, all four of them turned out to be kikes.
6. When I was younger and dated a lot of people through online dating, I was extremely popular online and would have girls and guys messaging me, guess what, 99% were kikes.
7. When I used to use discord(few years ago) and would be in random servers. There would always be people messaging me to become friends out of the blue, guess what, all kikes.
8. Back when I was in highschool I had almost no friends, I made a group of friends with people from my town, there was me, and 4 other people, guess how many of those 4 people were kikes? 3 of them, and one that wasn't a kike told me one day that they were going to transfer to judaism.
These are just some of the examples and if I thought of it I know damn well I can easily find more. It's like, every single online platform I go to there is "someone" wanting to be my friend and they are always a kike. Every single dating site I've been to I've been swarmed by kikes trying to date me. Every time I go out in public to socializing places, gentiles avoid me but kikes welcome me. It's like I'm a fucking magnet which attracts kikes and repels gentiles.
Unfortunately, even when I was at my pinnacle of advancement I was very new to Satanism, I didn't know much about jews or how to identify them, I was very naive and foolish. It's been years since I've seriously meditated and I plan to pick it up again on the 10th of this month(I would have started today but it's currently retrograde and I don't want to risk it).
It's heartbreaking to be isolated from my nation, it brings me to tears when I think about what my nation is suffering through and how I can't make or keep connections with them. The only long term friend I've had which was a non jew(the fellow ss) was apart of another races nation and not my own.
I no longer have any social media as when I make it I'll be swarmed by jews, it's like they fucking track me down and and out of all the people on the internet they come and try to be MY friend. Like what the fuck, I hate you kike, get the fuck out of here. In the past I had suffered from the "am I a jew" attack but I know for certain I'm not. The Gods have helped me and shown me their love all these years, even though I've been a worthless slob for many years the gods still care for me, I have seen and felt Satan and my Guardians love for me in recent times. I know for certain that I am not a filthy kike.
Over the years I have tried to start advancing again, each time I have been brought to tears by my failure, either my own thoughts would dissuade me, or my "friends" or "partner" would prevent me from doing it indirectly. It has gotten to the point that I have isolated myself more and more over the years. As I am now, I don't watch tv, I don't use the internet for any purposes except for JoS(no youtube, music, none of that), I have zero social media, the only people I talk to are family members which live with me in my house. I also don't go outside for any reason except for meditation, and even then, I stay within my own property, I haven't left my house in months.
It's like there's an invisible barrier that prevents me from meditating, every time I begin meditating it goes smoothly at first but overtime an invisible pressure builds that becomes like a mountain. This pressure pushes me to stop advancing.
I have received Satan and his Gods love for so many years, and it brings me to tears to know that I am wasting not only my time but THEIR time. The time the Gods spend caring for me and making sure I don't die, I have not been spending advancing. I want to return their love and kindness, it breaks me when I know that I have been wasting their love and kindness for all these years, but, I can't seem to break free. Please help me. I don't know what I should do. I need advice from someone.
I write this post today to ask you all for help, in some of these relationships I have had sex with the partner without realizing it was a kike. I can't even imagine what disgusting shit this has done to my soul. Almost every relationship I've been in has been with a filthy kike. My two longest relationships were with kikes and in both of them we had constant sex. In the longest one we even did sex magick together to program our "love" for each other. I feel disgusted. I can't even imagine how much I've fucking ruined myself. Please help me, I plan to start on the 10th, I am willing to add any workings which would be able to help