I have been doing falun gong daily for a few months now and i can sit up to 1 hour in void meditation , but i cant seem to get away from the feeling of sadness and have trouble stop thinking and going into deep meditation , i usually just start almost day dreaming when i meditate and even if i dont have any literal thoughts i still feel very tense etc
I started doing the aura of protection and some other qigong routines and i would like to start using some affirmations to counter my depressive side. I have a history of drug abuse and violent trauma , social anxiety depression overthinking trouble feeling confident etc.
do you guys have any tips on what i should say in the affirmations?
i would like to be more confident and happy and just mentally healthy , the meditations have helped me alot to be aware but i think i really need to reprogram my brain something to counter the negative thoughts / emotions.
Because when i take benzos for example it works like magic all of a sudden im very confident and charming , is there any way to attain this state but without the drug?