A Newbie's Rant - and a few questions

[lz241113]

Greetings to everyone who are with Father Satan! As the title suggests, I'm reletively new to Spiritual Satanism. I was raised xtian but never really believed...I could feel my spiritual self yearning for truths that nothing I'd heard or read about could provide. My Pagan roots were well planted, and ready to grow through the enemy's oppression. Hail Satan! I performed the Dedication Ritual a little less then six months ago now, and I've never been happier. Until just a few days ago, I hadn't been inclined to join these groups, but I must say I don't know any other Satanists, anywhere let alone my immediate area. Although I feel Father Satan's presence and know the Demons and Demonesses are always around, and that I am never truly alone, I'm starting to get an urge to share experiences and learn from others who might know more. I started with Breathing Exercises, Meditations for beginners and Opening of the Soul. After opening my 3rd Eye, I was meditating on it, seeing mostly Satanic Blue and Purple flashes of colours with some green here and there (to me it resembles an Aurora Borealis - I still see mostly Blue, Purple and Green, with Yellow and Red sometimes...I also just began seeing images and random scenes...awesome), when to my left side a creature appeared. It was about 3 feet tall, and the best way I can describe it is it had a greyish-beige complexion, dark eyes, and a long, stretched-out nose that was also it's top jaw. The bottom jaw was much shorter, and it had sharp teeth. I wasn't scared, nor did I feel threatened, it just stood there observing me. I did send it away, not knowing what it was. Since then I haven't seen any entity that clearly. I get glipmpses of the astral, shimmering light that seems to float on the air, some vaguely defined faces, and playful interaction by the Demons in incense smoke, but nothing as clear as that first entity. Does anyone have any idea what or whom that was????
Also, is it normal that when I do Void meditation with my eyes open, focusing on a single point, my 3rd eye almost always begins what I think is Scrying ( I see almost exactly what I see when I meditate on my 3rd eye, but with my eyes open)? It doesn't seem to be detrimental to achieving a mind free of any thought, but I'm curious as to wether it is common or normal. And Finally, since I don't have access to the internet at home, I've printed out most of the information contained on the JOS website. I often hear of a meditation called Mer Ka Bah, given to the Clergy by Azazel. I can't find this at JOS, and although there is a link in the Advanced Meditation E-Group to this, my Internet Access (limited due to work purposes)doesn't let me open it. Can anyone provide me with this Meditation. I know as a Newbie I don't necessarily need access to it right now...but I'm curious. I asked for the same thing yesterday on the Advanced Meditation E-Group, but my post hasn't appeared...did I ask at the wrong place?

Hail Satan, and All the Powers of Hell, Forever and Always!

LZ

 

[the_fire_starter666]

Whether you have your eyes open or closed doesn't matter.

And that meditation is no longer on the JoS site because it's been removed. Probably it needs updated or it's obsolete.

"I asked for the same thing yesterday on the Advanced Meditation E-Group, but my post hasn't appeared...did I ask at the wrong place?"

What are you talking about? I checked that e-group and your post asking about the merkaba is there. If you mean that your post did not appear INSTANTLY, of course it did not. All posts have to be approved by a moderator first, except for those who are advanced and for a long time here.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "lz241113" <lz241113@... wrote:

Greetings to everyone who are with Father Satan! As the title suggests, I'm reletively new to Spiritual Satanism. I was raised xtian but never really believed...I could feel my spiritual self yearning for truths that nothing I'd heard or read about could provide. My Pagan roots were well planted, and ready to grow through the enemy's oppression. Hail Satan! I performed the Dedication Ritual a little less then six months ago now, and I've never been happier. Until just a few days ago, I hadn't been inclined to join these groups, but I must say I don't know any other Satanists, anywhere let alone my immediate area. Although I feel Father Satan's presence and know the Demons and Demonesses are always around, and that I am never truly alone, I'm starting to get an urge to share experiences and learn from others who might know more. I started with Breathing Exercises, Meditations for beginners and Opening of the Soul. After opening my 3rd Eye, I was meditating on it, seeing mostly Satanic Blue and Purple flashes of colours with some green here and there (to me it resembles an Aurora Borealis - I still see mostly Blue, Purple and Green, with Yellow and Red sometimes...I also just began seeing images and random scenes...awesome), when to my left side a creature appeared. It was about 3 feet tall, and the best way I can describe it is it had a greyish-beige complexion, dark eyes, and a long, stretched-out nose that was also it's top jaw. The bottom jaw was much shorter, and it had sharp teeth. I wasn't scared, nor did I feel threatened, it just stood there observing me. I did send it away, not knowing what it was. Since then I haven't seen any entity that clearly. I get glipmpses of the astral, shimmering light that seems to float on the air, some vaguely defined faces, and playful interaction by the Demons in incense smoke, but nothing as clear as that first entity. Does anyone have any idea what or whom that was????
Also, is it normal that when I do Void meditation with my eyes open, focusing on a single point, my 3rd eye almost always begins what I think is Scrying ( I see almost exactly what I see when I meditate on my 3rd eye, but with my eyes open)? It doesn't seem to be detrimental to achieving a mind free of any thought, but I'm curious as to wether it is common or normal. And Finally, since I don't have access to the internet at home, I've printed out most of the information contained on the JOS website. I often hear of a meditation called Mer Ka Bah, given to the Clergy by Azazel. I can't find this at JOS, and although there is a link in the Advanced Meditation E-Group to this, my Internet Access (limited due to work purposes)doesn't let me open it. Can anyone provide me with this Meditation. I know as a Newbie I don't necessarily need access to it right now...but I'm curious. I asked for the same thing yesterday on the Advanced Meditation E-Group, but my post hasn't appeared...did I ask at the wrong place?

Hail Satan, and All the Powers of Hell, Forever and Always!

LZ

 

[lz241113]

Thanks Fire Starter.
I didn't realize it would take a few days for my post to show up. Again, I'm new to these e-groups. Any Idea what that creature I saw was? I know it sounds like a grey, but I never heard of them having long noses and sharp teeth. Could've been just the way it chose to appear to me, trying to scare me I guess?

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "the_fire_starter666" <the_fire_starter666@... wrote:

Whether you have your eyes open or closed doesn't matter.

And that meditation is no longer on the JoS site because it's been removed. Probably it needs updated or it's obsolete.

"I asked for the same thing yesterday on the Advanced Meditation E-Group, but my post hasn't appeared...did I ask at the wrong place?"

What are you talking about? I checked that e-group and your post asking about the merkaba is there. If you mean that your post did not appear INSTANTLY, of course it did not. All posts have to be approved by a moderator first, except for those who are advanced and for a long time here.


--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "lz241113" <lz241113@ wrote:

Greetings to everyone who are with Father Satan! As the title suggests, I'm reletively new to Spiritual Satanism. I was raised xtian but never really believed...I could feel my spiritual self yearning for truths that nothing I'd heard or read about could provide. My Pagan roots were well planted, and ready to grow through the enemy's oppression. Hail Satan! I performed the Dedication Ritual a little less then six months ago now, and I've never been happier. Until just a few days ago, I hadn't been inclined to join these groups, but I must say I don't know any other Satanists, anywhere let alone my immediate area. Although I feel Father Satan's presence and know the Demons and Demonesses are always around, and that I am never truly alone, I'm starting to get an urge to share experiences and learn from others who might know more. I started with Breathing Exercises, Meditations for beginners and Opening of the Soul. After opening my 3rd Eye, I was meditating on it, seeing mostly Satanic Blue and Purple flashes of colours with some green here and there (to me it resembles an Aurora Borealis - I still see mostly Blue, Purple and Green, with Yellow and Red sometimes...I also just began seeing images and random scenes...awesome), when to my left side a creature appeared. It was about 3 feet tall, and the best way I can describe it is it had a greyish-beige complexion, dark eyes, and a long, stretched-out nose that was also it's top jaw. The bottom jaw was much shorter, and it had sharp teeth. I wasn't scared, nor did I feel threatened, it just stood there observing me. I did send it away, not knowing what it was. Since then I haven't seen any entity that clearly. I get glipmpses of the astral, shimmering light that seems to float on the air, some vaguely defined faces, and playful interaction by the Demons in incense smoke, but nothing as clear as that first entity. Does anyone have any idea what or whom that was????
Also, is it normal that when I do Void meditation with my eyes open, focusing on a single point, my 3rd eye almost always begins what I think is Scrying ( I see almost exactly what I see when I meditate on my 3rd eye, but with my eyes open)? It doesn't seem to be detrimental to achieving a mind free of any thought, but I'm curious as to wether it is common or normal. And Finally, since I don't have access to the internet at home, I've printed out most of the information contained on the JOS website. I often hear of a meditation called Mer Ka Bah, given to the Clergy by Azazel. I can't find this at JOS, and although there is a link in the Advanced Meditation E-Group to this, my Internet Access (limited due to work purposes)doesn't let me open it. Can anyone provide me with this Meditation. I know as a Newbie I don't necessarily need access to it right now...but I'm curious. I asked for the same thing yesterday on the Advanced Meditation E-Group, but my post hasn't appeared...did I ask at the wrong place?

Hail Satan, and All the Powers of Hell, Forever and Always!

LZ