Hi, my name's Ashley..
lately a lot of things have been confusing me..
You know that feeling you get about something, you're 99% sure about it, but then something gets in the way and eludes your mind from that 99% and then you don't know what to believe..
It's hard to fully dedicate my mind and thoughts into anything anymore.. I used to meditate a lot and have more power over things, and more psychic power, and I was closer to Satan than I am now..
Life started to get worse when I stopped... and as these things got worse, my mentality was laid to waste by then. Now it's almost a suicidal type of thing.
For the past few weeks, I've suddenly randomly started to be extremely depressed... and I had to skip school because of it.. then my parents started stressing out about things at home and bills, and it added up.. my best friend started to envy my boyfriend... i get home really late, so with all the stress and depression going on, school work was out of the question, i started skipping classes to cry in a bathroom stall when it got so bad i couldn't even go on, and one day i just started cutting myself.. showed my school counselor, mainly my fault, and my therapist that i was forced to go to, otherwise my mom would have put me into a mental hospital.... and now i fear becoming pink slipped meaning anyone as simple as a school counselor, to a therapist, to a cop can if they suspect anything from my cuts that i may be a threat to myself or someone else, meaning i will have to be in a hospital under someones mercy for three or more weeks ........
I know the negative energy keeps building up but I don't know how to get rid of it and start over.
I don't know how to open my heart and mind up again... for all the stuff that has happened lately, my mentality is completely f*cked.
I know I have a demon, but I don't know much about them....
I don't really even know why he's with me...
I know his name and it isn't on the list on the jos website.. Just wondering, can demons have names that are off the lists?
For example, Vordak xD
lately a lot of things have been confusing me..
You know that feeling you get about something, you're 99% sure about it, but then something gets in the way and eludes your mind from that 99% and then you don't know what to believe..
It's hard to fully dedicate my mind and thoughts into anything anymore.. I used to meditate a lot and have more power over things, and more psychic power, and I was closer to Satan than I am now..
Life started to get worse when I stopped... and as these things got worse, my mentality was laid to waste by then. Now it's almost a suicidal type of thing.
For the past few weeks, I've suddenly randomly started to be extremely depressed... and I had to skip school because of it.. then my parents started stressing out about things at home and bills, and it added up.. my best friend started to envy my boyfriend... i get home really late, so with all the stress and depression going on, school work was out of the question, i started skipping classes to cry in a bathroom stall when it got so bad i couldn't even go on, and one day i just started cutting myself.. showed my school counselor, mainly my fault, and my therapist that i was forced to go to, otherwise my mom would have put me into a mental hospital.... and now i fear becoming pink slipped meaning anyone as simple as a school counselor, to a therapist, to a cop can if they suspect anything from my cuts that i may be a threat to myself or someone else, meaning i will have to be in a hospital under someones mercy for three or more weeks ........
I know the negative energy keeps building up but I don't know how to get rid of it and start over.
I don't know how to open my heart and mind up again... for all the stuff that has happened lately, my mentality is completely f*cked.
I know I have a demon, but I don't know much about them....
I don't really even know why he's with me...
I know his name and it isn't on the list on the jos website.. Just wondering, can demons have names that are off the lists?
For example, Vordak xD