Rituals #870 Please answer it is very important to me

[Ask Satya Operator]

First of all, my gender identity is not the same as the gender I was born with. In other words, I am not cissexual. My name and surname are required for the commitment ritual and the word son/daughter is used in a sentence I will write on paper. Now, while doing this ritual, should I use the gender, name and surname I was born with that does not suit me? Or should I use the gender identity, name and surname that I see myself in, accept and want? Also, a dry pencil is written in the section required for the commitment ritual. Instead of cutting my hand, can I use a needle and inject my blood with a syringe to write the writings? (Don't worry, I am studying health) Also, what will I do by squeezing my blood by pricking my left index finger with a needle? Where exactly will I drop it on the paper? Will I drop it or will I use it for fingerprints? I know I have asked a lot of questions and talked a lot but I have to say one more thing. I went to the doctor and had a blood test. The results were not good. It revealed that I have an extreme vitamin deficiency and several illnesses. So it turned out that I had been lacking focus, low motivation, weakness, fatigue, depression, extremely white skin and hypothermia for a long time. In a sentence Pythia said, she mentioned that she could not focus while doing her meditations at the beginning due to vitamin C deficiency. My question is, should I do the ritual now or should I do it after doing the necessary treatments? Because from what I read, if I am doing the commitment ritual, I will have to do my meditations very seriously. I have a hard time doing it. Even before I think about doing the ritual, I feel guilty because I delayed my meditations. Because I feel like everything will be very bad if I don't do my meditations. But when I do them, I often get very tired. Because even the meditations that should take 4 minutes at the beginning end in at least 1 hour. (Sometimes more) I am not alone at home anyway and I have to be on the alert all the time. I am very tired. That is why I lose my motivation. But I love Father Satan very much, I want to be a soldier worthy of him. I want to have perfect spiritual power and find salvation. Please answer all my questions. I need it very much.

 

[Isothemides]

The main thing binding you to the dedication ritual is your blood and most of all, your intent. You should use the name you feel closest to your true and raw self/soul, which in your case, most likely is not your birth name. If you want to be 100% sure then just sign your birth name below your ideal name. I'm sorry if you feel uncomfortable being in the forums while not having a typical gender identity because of some of the community's perception of it stems from crude places.

You don't need to overthink it, you should dip a small amount of the blood onto the pen you're signing the dedication with. (only when signing your name at the end, don't use blood when writing the whole dedication)

It's best to do the ritual in a good headspace, with a clear and serene mind, without distractions and without overthinking. If you can manage that then it should be okay to perform the ritual.

Please don't feel guilty, it's okay to feel tired and take a bit longer with the meditations, you're trying your best and that's what's important. It will gradually get easier.

You're vulnerable right now so make sure to get all the mental health support you need, before and after the ritual too, don't be ashamed of asking for help, we all need some support sometimes.

I'm really proud of you (I'm sure Father Satan is too), please take care of yourself and all the best!

 

[Albsy]

I don’t care about being nice. I hate nice people.

I think you actually meant to say "condescending", since being "nice" is someone who simply likes to treat others well. I say this because you seem to mistakenly imply that you like to be treated badly (at least that's how I see it, it's probably just a misinterpretation).

 

[MercuryWisdom]

I think you actually meant to say "condescending", since being "nice" is someone who simply likes to treat others well. I say this because you seem to mistakenly imply that you like to be treated badly (at least that's how I see it, it's probably just a misinterpretation).

I had nice under quotations. I believe in treating others well, not everyone though and not in every situation.

Maybe I meant I hate sweet talkers, who just have to support everyone and be an AI supportive, “you go gurl” type of person.

If I’m being delusional and actually mentally ill I would want people to wake me the fuck up and make me rethink my choices, not people who would tell me embrace your insanity.

It would hurt to hear it from them, and I might hate them and think they suck, no one likes to get their bubble burst. But then I would think, and maybe I co

 

[MercuryWisdom]

I had nice under quotations. I believe in treating others well, not everyone though and not in every situation.

Maybe I meant I hate sweet talkers, who just have to support everyone and be an AI supportive, “you go gurl” type of person.

If I’m being delusional and actually mentally ill I would want people to wake me the fuck up and make me rethink my choices, not people who would tell me embrace your insanity.

It would hurt to hear it from them, and I might hate them and think they suck, no one likes to get their bubble burst. But then I would think, and maybe I co

And maybe I could be wrong and revise my ways of thinking.

Damn post reply button’s getting pressed by accident a lot lately.

 

[Symmachos-ZEUS/SHAITAN]

I always see that you do care a lot about replying to people, most of your replies are very drawn out and extensive. It seems to me that you have a need to explain yourself extensively

Yes, I do write a lot. But this is mostly due to my tendency to be precise and not leave anything to chance. Many who write on the forum are in serious situations, others are not, but in any case if someone asks for help, here or elsewhere, it is because it is important to that person. So when I decide to answer someone to help the person, I am also taking on a very big responsibility.

Giving a wrong answer or a missing part of an incomplete answer that can mislead someone, lead them astray and distract them from the Truth ("SATYA" on which Satanism is based) can really cause damage to the person, answering on this forum correctly involves a sense of responsibility, and also the ability to take a step back and say: "yes, I was wrong" when you are corrected, without fixating on the idea that "you must be right because your little ego would be hurt".

This type of positive humility is included in the sense of responsibility I was talking about. I decided to help someone, so if I agree to do it I must also know how to do it. No one forces me to respond to topics, if I am not able to understand and accept the right behavior then I can also turn off my cell phone/computer and do other things. "Responsibility to the responsible" said HPS Pythia.

I am helping people, I am not trying to do more harm, so I must be responsible and be clear, precise, humble, understanding and compassionate. This also has practical utility as well as emotional, I have noticed that people tend to listen to you better when you make them feel comfortable. It is not necessarily always like this, but certainly "abusing", "accusing", "insults", "deriding", etc. does not lead to anything positive for one's goals of supporting others, and are really low-value ways of being.

I did not start in Satanism at the level I am now. I was the most idiotic of Satanists probably at the beginning or something like that. I remember this and I thank the Gods for having invested in me. Precisely because I remember this I know how important it is for a person who still doesn't know many things to be understood with answers as precise as possible.

I would have wanted the same in that initial period. I didn't have it because in my early stages I didn't like to talk about my journey much, or write in forums, so I just lived it only with myself. But I wouldn't have wanted someone to tell me: "you idiot, try to find your senses because you're only irritating me, things are just like this". It's a really extreme example of something that fortunately NEVER happens anywhere, but it manages to make the sense of what I'm saying clear.

But, look, even if it never happens here on the forum, in my life outside the forum I have seen it happen frequently, people who only know how to get angry without explaining anything. Without understanding anything.

And yes, I had self-esteem crises. But they presented themselves in the opposite way to what you said. I could never respond to someone (at least in the forum, because Satanism is something very serious) to help them concretely because I always felt, due to the abuse of others in the family and "on the street", as if I were just a burden with my life and incapable of doing anything useful, but tending to only cause damage.

I worked a lot on it together with the girl I love, she believed in me a lot and supported me in many ways, including freeing me from my self-esteem problems and many other even more important things. I thank her very much.

from what I'm seeing you are a pretty empathetic and understanding person

Thank you, I have always felt represented by certain values, knowing that people like you recognize them makes me understand that I have fulfilled myself at least on an attitudinal level. What you are telling me means a lot, thanks again!

 

[WoadWarrior]

I should also answers OP's question as this thread got massively derailed,

In short sign you birth gender, consider it the first step in your journey to self actualization, its difficult to confront issues such as mental illness but make no mistake the Gods do in fact accept you exactly as you are, but also make no mistake they want for you to become the greatest version of you that could ever exist, you aren't meant to feel uncomfortable in your own skin, your supposed to love your natural body it should be a source of joy and satisfaction for you and so of course any sort of dysphoria should and eventually must be worked upon, but its not a "sin" to be unwell mentally or otherwise, the most important thing to understand is that you don't have to understand right away, with advancement and time you will see that the dysphoria you suffer is a condition one that is external to who you really are and at that moment you can work towards removing it from yourself, there is no rush nor any urgency, take your time and advance, eventually you will see and if you need any help in the meantime we in the forums are happy to provide help and support on your journey.

 

[Isothemides]

this is an occult forum not a scholastic journal

Wish it could be both, I'm sure you'd love that too. Saw at least a single academia centered thread (https://ancient-forums.com/threads/how-to-integrate-science-into-your-life-guide.88131/)

Still not a single citation so I am not sure how I am meant to even dispute this as you aren't providing evidence so I don't know what study or claims I am supposed to be countering here, but anything put forward without evidence can be dismissed without evidence,

Yes, I'm quite lazy so feel free to dismiss anything uncited, just like you said, we're not writing a thesis here.

And yes there are SEX related differences in brain activity in response to stimuli but once more this study does not show that

I am unaware of any neurostructural markers for "trans" people

"The pattern of brain activation in both transgender adolescent boys and girls more closely resembled that of non-transgender boys and girls of their desired gender. In addition, GD adolescent girls showed a male-typical brain activation pattern during a visual/spatial memory exercise. Finally, some brain structural changes were detected that were also more similar, but not identical, to those typical of the desired gender of GD boys and girls."

When I said "neurostructural markers" for trans individuals I meant the neuromorphological likeness to the opposite sex in "biologically trans" individuals.

I very specifically said gender, or are you conceding gender and sex mean the same thing? What are you even saying?

Please excuse me, I used "gender" when I really meant "sex" a couple of times. Went a bit over my head.

Yes and thats what I was disputing as once more the study presupposes the validity of gender identity without even establishing what exactly that means.

Fair; most people in gender studies often brag about gender identity being a construct but then fail to transmit a meaningful and concrete model.

The irony of this statement is palpable.

Yes, a little humor here and there doesn't hurt.

It is quite rewarding and very exciting to get into these debates as it gets the cogs in my brain going. I do make mistakes and I'm working on it, it's certainly good brain exercise and an experiment to work with my own knowledge gaps. So genuinely thanks for the constructive discussion which led to constructive introspection and have a wonderful weekend.

 

[Bandtana_satanson]

Question hello,I did the ritual but I did it in a hurry the day I planed to do it I chickened out coz I was scared to cut myself,and I had already lit the candles and even wrote the letter,but wussed out
I accidentally cut myself today and I immediately did the ritual coz I could finally do it in blood,it still counts right?

 

[WoadWarrior]

Question hello,I did the ritual but I did it in a hurry the day I planed to do it I chickened out coz I was scared to cut myself,and I had already lit the candles and even wrote the letter,but wussed out
I accidentally cut myself today and I immediately did the ritual coz I could finally do it in blood,it still counts right?

If you did the ritual on the second attempt with blood then there is no problem, I assume you still read the prayer and burned the paper? If so no issue.

 

[MercuryWisdom]

Question hello,I did the ritual but I did it in a hurry the day I planed to do it I chickened out coz I was scared to cut myself,and I had already lit the candles and even wrote the letter,but wussed out
I accidentally cut myself today and I immediately did the ritual coz I could finally do it in blood,it still counts right?

Hundred percent! Congrats and welcome!

It’s also a formality and a show of your dedication and good intent. You don’t have to be hung up about the blood or anything.