Today, my parents decided to attend bible service. I'm under their care, so there wasn't an option. I didn't want to attend because of my respect for Satan. For some reason, 666 has been popping up everywhere! I haven't been a dedicated Satanist, since last July of 2015. I went on vacation - which I was the only Spritual Satanist present. I couldn't mediate or do Yoga in peace and it was difficult for me to catch up on my daily routines. For that reason, I haven't claimed myself as a dedicated Satanist. I mediate from time to time, and majority of my time, I preach about the secrets of the bible - while remaining confidential of my dedication to Satan. I feel our relationship has grown stronger over the year, but I also feel like I take advantage of him and not realize the purpose of being a Satanist. I don't worship Jesus anymore and I sometimes I classify myself as an Atheist. I want to study the bible and ancient religions. Where can I find documents and things about ancient religions and Satanism, Jesus, God?