Greetings, brother. I've struggled with this exact question for years--I know exactly how soul-crushingly lonely it feels to be in your position, and how frustrating and exhausting it can be to try to ingratiate yourself with the mundanes just for that small taste of human interaction. While I...

Wood follows water, the lowest point, and signifies the stage of growth. Another sign that this will be a good year for us. Or at least I think that's what you were asking.

According to the calendar, Pluto shifts to Aquarius on January 20th. I believe this is when it begins, but I don't have the knowledge to say for certain.

A most heartfelt and sincere thanks to those who toiled away to provide us with this most invaluable resource. As an aside, if I may.... Is this what I believe it is? If so...I lack the command of the English language necessary to express how joyful and excited I am for the coming weeks.

I was unaware, I stand corrected.

To be blunt, no, it's not okay to say them in English. Just do the best you can with your Enochian, the intent matters more than perfect pronunciation.

There's your problem. Rather telling that they're always harping on "muh yahtzees" but not a single mention is made of the victims of communism. We should start a compensation fund for the wrongs committed against the former USSR member states.

As a nuclear engineer, allow me to allay your worries. To start out with, let's look at the two major disasters that have occurred with nuclear power plants. The first one, of course, is Chernobyl. There was a major fault with its design: its "positive void coefficient". In almost all reactors...

From personal experience, invoking the fire element can also have an extremely positive effect in this regard. Keep in mind, though, that this is a somewhat advanced technique, and there is potential for things to go very wrong if you don't do exactly what it says to...

Thank you for your concern and well-wishes. Things are actually going quite well on my end, though--our Father saw fit to grant me a Succubus, and she has been the best friend and compatriot I could have ever asked for. But at any rate, it looks like you know exactly what you're doing, and your...

Unfortunately I'm able to echo the sentiment. I thought she was the one--we experienced many wonderful things, even found Satan together...but she had a litany of hangups and refused to address them, which made her extremely susceptible to enemy programming. In the end, she fell hard for it...

I realize this reply is quite late, and for that I apologize. I also apologize for my post being difficult to understand; I have this annoying habit of trying to give a precise, detailed explanation and instead coming up with a cryptic word salad that accomplishes the opposite. So to start off...

I know how it feels to care about someone and want to help them; I was in a similar situation not long ago. We were friends for many years, then became lovers, and eventually married. We even dedicated together. Like you, I tried my damnedest to help her and support her, to give her a chance to...

Thank you for replying. Those two are actually the exact things I've tried; in both cases, the serpent quickened its pace and caused me significant physical and mental discomfort. Most recently, with the Witches' Sabbat, I actually began to feel extreme fatigue and drowsiness, coupled with...

I suppose I'll throw my hat in this ring. I'm in a somewhat unique situation. The short version is this: Not long after my dedication, I fell in with a group I shouldn't have associated with and did things I shouldn't have done--the end result was my kundalini erupted prematurely. This was...

Quick question: So I very nearly missed the boat for the throat chakra. I did it the night of the 17th, since it was still a full moon, but it was 100% full instead of waxing full like the page says. It certainly felt like it worked, though. Am I good to go for the heart chakra, or should I wait...

I have similar symptoms; I also see persistent static and shades of purple in the dark. I also experience many of the same comorbidities in the Wikipedia article--tinnitus, bright points of light, floaters, afterimages. Very occasionally, when I manage to relax my mind sufficiently (usually...

Listen to "N.I.B.," "After Forever," and "Lord of this World," and their true colors become pretty obvious.

My own serpent started ascending a couple years ago. I wear hats all the time and it's never seemed to affect anything, but it could just be because I never noticed--either that, or it's only important in the initial stages. I might try experimenting and seeing what happens.

Even if he did, I wouldn't disagree.

If it walks like a duck and quacks like a duck, it's probably a duck. In my own personal experience, my kundalini started ascending very very early after my dedication without me doing a whole lot of anything, and I've experienced a lot of the same symptoms as you, especially the exhaustion...

I found it. For whatever reason, it was automatically marked as read when I got it even though I never opened it, so I didn't see it until I dug through my entire inbox. Sorry for the confusion/annoyance/spam. At any rate, I've replied.

Was it the one from Guerrillamail? I screwed up when I sent that; I didn't realize they only kept any received emails for an hour before deleting them.

Okay, I've tried contacting you, but Protonmail's acting weird: the email shows up for about two seconds in my outbox and then just disappears into thin air. If you want to try emailing me, it's: [email protected]

Sure, not a problem at all. I've sent you an email.

As someone in such a relationship, there's one thing I'd like to add: When you ask, it's important to be VERY SPECIFIC regarding what kind of relationship you're looking for (monogamous/polygamous). And if you do want to ask for a monogamous partner, think about it long and hard beforehand...

Don't forget you can always ask for a succubus. I did, precisely for this reason, and I have zero regrets.

I wouldn't be opposed to something like this, but at this moment, when our enemy is still as dangerous as ever and the vast majority of the world either despises us or has no idea who we are, it's just not smart to be painting targets on our backs.

Something I just thought of: Speaking from experience, a succubus/incubus can also be a major benefit. It's a great way to release excess energy and can also be used to help push the serpent through any blocked or partially blocked chakras. Believe me, it's no fun when the serpent gets stuck.

If you find anything out, I'd like to know too. My kundalini erupted about twelve years ago and I've been having a lot of the same issues for most of that time--not so much the rash, but definitely the scatterbrainedness--and haven't really found any other good way of handling it besides just...

Believe me, I can relate. I can't speak to any of this on a spiritual level, as my own progress has been very slow-going, but one of the things that helped me the most was just getting the hell out. I decided one day that I'd gotten sick and tired of living in the same town, seeing the same...

This is fantastic news. Not to sound demanding, but do you have any sort of timeline for these updates? I only ask because I've been stuck in a rut for a very, very long time, and these meditations sound like they could greatly help me.

I could be wrong, but I remember reading somewhere that the fetus doesn't acquire a soul until the beginning of the second trimester. If it died before then, there would be nothing to save, but after that point, I would presume the soul would be afforded the same protections as any other.

Hello again, and welcome to another chapter in this ongoing saga to fix myself. So I've begun to notice something rather strange--it's been ongoing for as long as I can remember but I guess I just didn't realize what had been happening until now. Anyway, whenever I attempt to meditate or enter...

There's an old joke that pilots tell. In the future, airliners will have two crewmembers: a man and a dog. The man feeds the dog, and the dog bites the man if he tries to touch the controls.

That sounds quite a bit like my experiences so far. Ever since I dedicated almost ten years ago, I've been struggling mightily to accomplish the most basic of meditations. On the rare occasion I am able to focus, the things I see are...unsettling, to say the least--and I can't control any of it...

That's actually the same reason I'm in this mess myself. ...By any chance, did this person go by the name "Icarus"?

Time for an update, I guess. I've been paying particular attention to Meteor's suggestion about finding calm and focusing intently on it, and it seems to be bearing fruit; the hyperexcitement has receded somewhat and been replaced with exhaustion, which I guess is an improvement. Sleep is still...

Thank you to everyone who responded. It's comforting to know that my case is far from unique and can be recovered from.

To the clergy: If you choose not to publish this thread, I completely understand. I fully realize trying to explain or make sense of my very strange situation may reveal sensitive information. Anyway, let's get on with it. I will most likely repeat some of what I wrote in my previous thread...

I don't have a whole lot to add, but I'll chime in. After things with my high school sweetheart turned quite ugly, I got myself out of that situation and took some time to get my affairs in order. During that time, I had an unshakeable, almost otherwordly curiosity about succubi and learned as...

I wasn't sure whether to start a new thread or bump this one. Since there's good info in here, and to not further clutter the catalog, I'll revive this one. So, things have taken a bit of a different turn. There was some information I'd withheld initially, mainly because extraordinary claims...

Unless I'm mistaking him for another HP, he's still around, but he's keeping a low profile for his own safety.

An update, I suppose. I was able to implement your suggestions, with a degree of success...however, it only served to reveal a more serious problem. I had already experienced this a handful of times before, but I'd honestly forgotten that it had happened. When I managed to calm my mind down and...

Hello, everyone. I've been dealing with a chronic problem for a very long time, and I feel it's time to ask for help. I've been dedicated to Satan for about nine years now. At first glance, that may look impressive, but there's been one major hangup that's keeping me just spinning my wheels: I...

I'm in a similar boat. My kundalini activated basically of its own accord a few years ago, despite me not really having developed any spiritual ability. Since then, it's done all sorts of strange things to me and caused me all kinds of pain and headaches. I've survived, though. Just relax and...

I'm curious as well. I believe Satan's father was Anu, but I don't know who his mother was.

Awesome advice. I appreciate it!

So I've been reading up on how to perform 40-day workings and followed the suggestion to install ChronosXP. Problem is: I'm a Linux user, and trying to get it to run in Wine has been an absolute can of worms. My machine also has nowhere near enough horsepower to run a virtual machine. As well...

I have a knee that's suffered a fair amount of cartilage loss. It's not so bad in day to day activities, but whenever I try to do something strenuous, it almost immediately starts to hurt quite badly and lose stability. It also likes to lock up and/or collapse at random intervals. There's also...