I totally understand how you feel, i have the same problem. There aren't that many people to talk to about the path i have taken... only this group basicly. It's really a logical reaction that you get tired of fighting when there is no one around you in real life that supports you on this...

Welcome to the family brother, Don't worry about not feeling anything after the ritual, one person is more open then the other. What i mean is: Someone that is more "sensitive" can detect a presence more easily then someone that is less sensitive, don't worry about it! It also doesn't...

I'm totally with what lydia sayd about void meditation bein the most beneficial. You need to take control of your thoughts first at this point. Instead of the thoughts controlling you (which happens right now with OCD) I also want to give you this advice: 1: Don't push yourself to hard...

Hello fellow satanists It has been awhile since i last posted something on this group, but i felt like posting this after todays success rate. I'm doing power meditation for quite awhile now, in the beginning everything didn't work the way i wanted and it was hard for me to be persistent...

Hi! Although i am very new to power meditations myself i can understand ur situation in that u have a drawback because of a depression. The reason that ur meditations didn't lead to anything is probally because u couldn't think clearly. The most importand thing u have to learn first is...

Yes i did, i was lucky to graduate actually because i didn't need to finish some things because they made a mess of the class during the year. So i am really happy i can finally concentrate on power meditation right now, it's really amazing how powerfull some of those exercises are, thanks...

Thank you for the warm welcome ;)