I hope its appropriate for me to use my status for this, please delete if it isn't. My journey re: sobriety is still going pretty well. Quitting weed was really hard, I was super depressed for a few days, but I really needed to quit. I can feel my focus gradually returning, and I continue with study and meditation. My life is still in a pretty rough place, which causes a lot of stress, but I know it will take time to fix, I just can't allow myself to use drugs even when the stress is really bad.
I want to grow closer with the Gods, but am a bit unsure and fearful. I worry that my Guardian has left me, not that I would blame Him. But I will continue on this path, trying to be humble before the Gods and have some hope. My deepest gratitude towards all who help maintain this Temple. And if previous misunderstandings of mine on social/political issues caused anyone of goodwill to feel unwelcome, I apologize, it was not my intent but I take responsibility and am trying to continously refine my understanding.
I want to grow closer with the Gods, but am a bit unsure and fearful. I worry that my Guardian has left me, not that I would blame Him. But I will continue on this path, trying to be humble before the Gods and have some hope. My deepest gratitude towards all who help maintain this Temple. And if previous misunderstandings of mine on social/political issues caused anyone of goodwill to feel unwelcome, I apologize, it was not my intent but I take responsibility and am trying to continously refine my understanding.