Thank you very much High Priestess. Regarding Yoga, that is a good idea, I hope to start a basic routine soon. Thank you also to everyone for your replies, even if I didn't respond directly I continue to read and think it over. Today was still tough but went OK. Just went to a lot of meetings...

I am very glad you were wise enough to know to avoid that poison, Brother, I hope people follow your example.

Just a Lil update...I'm still alive technically and physically safe, not homeless or in an institution, and I've stayed away from painkillers for over 3 weeks, although I take prescribed suboxone, will switch to the shot then get off that later. Just still in a lot of pain, very sick and...

Brother how did you know about the tunnel metaphor/experience I had when I was close to death...for the first time in my life, I am nearly speechless. Thank you.

I agree.. I am getting very strong feelings that it is very important now to be open and follow the Gods. I saw really clearly that I needed to change. And maybe some random black guy who suffers under the system just like me doesn't need to be my enemy. Maybe I don't have to be so afraid of...

Just one last thing (mods please disapprove if I'm wrong): is it true we've evolved somewhat on race matters? Maybe that's good, while I love my People very much, maybe my focus on extremist politics wasn't helping decent normal White people. Maybe what matters is that people may come to...

Thank you so much everyone...really cringing at the drama lol, I'm sorry for causing it. I apologized to the Gods for my errors, and am resolved to better my life...just got a very traumatic wake up call. Trying to go slow, really want to be better but in lots of pain. Getting help though, and...

Apologies for last post, I went to lds service n remembered I h8 abrahamic religion. My ego is barely starting to grow back, fell for the trauma based mind control

I guess I should provide an update on this post lol. In the past couple months, I quit my one job due to my health issues. I then lost my other job, that I've had for 7 years, and my life has totally fallen apart. Afterwards, i got some fentanyl and overdosed, paramedics gave me 2 Narcan and a...

Thank you very much High Priest, talking to you always makes me feel stronger and hopeful, like a bit of your Virtue rubs off. I know what I need to do and will keep moving forward, and I'm sorry again for what I said, truly I do not want to ever leave the Company of our Gods. I'm just so...

Thank you sister. I am blessed to still have my two jobs, staying busy definitely helps. My situation is starting to improve, although it will take a lot of work and I periodically backslide. Thank you very much High Priest. I do always remember the kindness you have shown me and I'll never...

Thank you all very much...I may not deserve it at the moment, but your kindness means a lot to me. And I promise I'm not as worthless as I currently seem, while I'm far from perfect I do genuinely care about our Cause and have done things in the shadows to help when able, and I sincerely love...

Thank you to everyone who replied, even if I haven't responded directly I am still looking over your posts and appreciating the meaning. I'm really sorry I suck so much...I just have been suffering in silence for a while, and I got pushed over the edge (of course, I understand now that this...

I'm very sorry HP...I don't mean to say anything bad about the Temple...I've just been spiraling with paranoia and negative thoughts, all the abuse I received previously [from people outside of the Temple]. I keep getting obsessive thoughts that someone from here is going to curse me and destroy...

It's not important, and people won't care, but for purposes of closure I wanted to post this. As of tomorrow I will no longer consider myself a member of the Temple. I have no malice towards anyone here, and certainly no wish to oppose you or your mission, but I can't consider myself a true...