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I have a problem. I don’t know what to do anymore.
The issue is this: A long time ago, when I was not yet a Zevist, my father, who is extremely devoted to Islam, came close to me. He put his mouth near my heart, recited an Islamic prayer, and blew it into my heart.
After this event, something changed inside me. I started feeling an strong energy in my heart. Please read the following part very carefully so there is no misunderstanding:
After he did this, a strange, deceptive, and evil pleasure appeared in my heart. I can best describe it as sweet poison. It gives a feeling of pleasure and peace, but I know it is poisonous.
Moreover, it is not just that. Whenever I encounter anything related to Islam, I feel a strong sense of pleasure and peace in my heart. But I absolutely do not want this! I know it is a fake, deceptive sweet poison and a trap.
Lately, this sensation has become much stronger and it causes me great pain. When Islamic thoughts come to my mind, this energy brings pleasure to my heart, mixing pain and pleasure together, and it feels like it is forcing me to return to Islam. I would never do that. I'm just explaining the situation.
But I absolutely do not want this. I forcefully suppress this evil and deceptive sweet feeling because I am a Zevist. I am an eternal Zevist! It feels like some kind of magic or spiritual attack. Or energy? I dont know. But this hurts my heart too much.
What is this? And I really want to know how to remove this completely.
Fuck Islam.
The issue is this: A long time ago, when I was not yet a Zevist, my father, who is extremely devoted to Islam, came close to me. He put his mouth near my heart, recited an Islamic prayer, and blew it into my heart.
After this event, something changed inside me. I started feeling an strong energy in my heart. Please read the following part very carefully so there is no misunderstanding:
After he did this, a strange, deceptive, and evil pleasure appeared in my heart. I can best describe it as sweet poison. It gives a feeling of pleasure and peace, but I know it is poisonous.
Moreover, it is not just that. Whenever I encounter anything related to Islam, I feel a strong sense of pleasure and peace in my heart. But I absolutely do not want this! I know it is a fake, deceptive sweet poison and a trap.
Lately, this sensation has become much stronger and it causes me great pain. When Islamic thoughts come to my mind, this energy brings pleasure to my heart, mixing pain and pleasure together, and it feels like it is forcing me to return to Islam. I would never do that. I'm just explaining the situation.
But I absolutely do not want this. I forcefully suppress this evil and deceptive sweet feeling because I am a Zevist. I am an eternal Zevist! It feels like some kind of magic or spiritual attack. Or energy? I dont know. But this hurts my heart too much.
What is this? And I really want to know how to remove this completely.
Fuck Islam.
