I closed my account due self security reasons. Sometimes a border between two opinions is wide enough to create chaos in communication, multiplying misunderstandings, when both sides feel insecure and can't calm. Insecurity comes from talent "Scorpio sense" making psychical advantage gift but also burden for a gifted.
Granted sensitivity about unknown, what hiding behind scene how huge it is, but also making a burden of a more vicious [XV] Devil Card - obsession.
I felt it, when I started to judge myself and my doings
"Is my destination is really achievable?" trying to find logical rational arguments that confirm I'm still not lost in complexity of a Universe.
When I randomly read your message, just by impulse of an instinct I remembered your name "Henu" and your old profile picture. Why?
I didn't used logical arguments, but just a sense. Why? Because behind intensivity is a lot of knowledge, challenges or just adventure in life.
Your deleted profile picture brings me a peace for some reasons it's like information, that you are slowly winning with kind of corruption you fighted with. I'm just happy,
because it's positively different than my everyday loneliness seeing how andrapodas turning themselves into one simple mind doing same schematic actions, so robotical.
It's painful being almost alone in such wide psychical-material knowledge when I just can't share my researches and also learn how what somebody researched, what he lost, what he defeated.
Everytime I returned there, because I believed I will find there a friends, even family (I'm not claiming blood family as a priority if they refuse to strength together bounds, and even a stranger show better empathy) just as a family who understand me and I also can fill
The empty place in their life.
I know that sometimes people receive my messages differently than my intentions is. Like I'm "haunted".
By this way Sorath once time called me "Chameleon"

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Sorry, The Chaos around isn't my purpose, it's just a side effect of an communication.