Other #78507 The misery 2025

[AskSatanOperator]

I feel such emptiness and discomfort in existing that it runs through me every day and I feel like not waking up the next day, I find myself wishing for death every day even though I practice meditation, do magic work so on I believe I deserve a good life, but anguish is something that lives here
I feel like a failure of existence, this is current and I wish I had an instant formula for it, I don't have anyone to say it to so I'll leave it here.

 

[The Pythagorean]

Some people have very low starting points on the path. Horrible karma from past lives, for one reason or another. In cases like these, it certainly might look like magick and meditation isn't doing much, but it is. There's simply a lot to do, and there isn't an instant solution.

Keep pushing, we're all rooting for you as a fellow Zevist.

I'd advise you to not put this out here anonymously. Use your Forum account, or make one, and keep us updated. Being active here will also bless you and help you improve faster, either through advice, or through positive karma. That, and the sense of community is important. It's easier to keep fighting when you know we are not parasocial here, but rather a real family with real closeness and real support for one another.

I wish you the best.

 

[Epiphany]

I feel such emptiness and discomfort in existing that it runs through me every day and I feel like not waking up the next day, I find myself wishing for death every day even though I practice meditation, do magic work so on I believe I deserve a good life, but anguish is something that lives here
I feel like a failure of existence, this is current and I wish I had an instant formula for it, I don't have anyone to say it to so I'll leave it here.

I know what this is like. I don't have a solution for you, but it could be from early life trauma or even a past life. It's not easy to deal with but there is no other option but to carry on and try to find a way to recover from it. Once you have an idea of where it comes from then you can at least try to heal from it.

 

[Henu the Great]

Purification meditations (especially when started during Witches Esbat) of chakras will help, and doing the emotional body healing by HPS Lydia will help. There's always more, but these two will get results. Combining these with the three-part Final RTR will help further, if the source is curses instead of personal trauma, and or bad decisions and other incidents in past lives. Curses do carry over lifetimes as well.

 

[WiseDragon]

I feel such emptiness and discomfort in existing that it runs through me every day and I feel like not waking up the next day, I find myself wishing for death every day even though I practice meditation, do magic work so on I believe I deserve a good life, but anguish is something that lives here
I feel like a failure of existence, this is current and I wish I had an instant formula for it, I don't have anyone to say it to so I'll leave it here.

These feelings are always temporary. Keep pushing forward, it's worth it and you will be thankful and proud that you did.