WhiteManSamedi
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Foreword: please take this very seriously and dont just write me off as some delusional idiot who just needs to meditate and read more. The dismissive attitude from some of the members and mods here has actively discouraged me when I need to be here absolutely screaming my fucking head off for help. I have gotten divinely yelled at and ordained for not asking for help here at this point. The Gods feel distant until I make this right to an extent because they should.
The cult I need help with is the ********. Their inner cult is called *********. and their leader goes by **********. Their YouTube channel is called **********. I also have reason to believe I have a lot of bulkshit on me from regular old neo-pagans who worship angels and that I not only briefly interacted with and made angry for using sage (muh raycizm and white superiority I nevef even once mentioned to them personally).
I have a family member who is a covert narcissist who I also pissed off with blasphemous acts that angels attacked and tattled on me harshly about. Trauma-induced disassociating and constantly fighting off covert spiritual brainwashing makes you VERY inattentive, and I feel like what would be 90% other people's fault was orchestrated to look like but not be my fault to punish me as hard as possible for her in the most psychologically damaging way, and to make a very insidious and downright humiliating point about "personal responsibility" either intent in the spells to combine that point with making fun of me for masturbating and playing video games to relieve pain I didnt even understand at that time and to "prove me wrong."
Then comes the cult. I pissed them off last September/November-ish. Its gotten soooo weeeeiiiirrrrddd and pushy in trying to get me to convert to Qlippothic Satanism, purposefully blasphemous on their end towards my path and belief system but I realize it's also slightly suicidal and weirdly homo-erotic as shit. Constant Qlippothic impersonation that had led me to distrust and accidentally disrespect the Gods wholst truing so hars not to, and even subconsciously despise certain deities my enemies have fucked with and turned their more carnal sides into methods of abuse for me, especially considering sexual healing was a major part of their introduction for me into the spiritual world. It feels like its trying to turn me into a sexual predator on some levels based off some of what I've been mostly-paranormally forced to experience as a teenager and its freaking me out like no tomorrow, taking advantage of my shadow to put me through a "trial." God damn so much of my teenhood feels like I was being groomed by my mom with angels and shit for something NWO-y and Jewish.
Exposures to the cult about the truth of what they are doing and alien involvement and conquering has only resulted in doubling down and even harsher punishments by the Qlippoth itself and a few members as if the cognitive dissonance I created within them made some of them angrier and some inappropriately challenging towards me in a very "might makes right" sort of way.
Some of their crimes before I even entered their Discord server were great but at the time I was too green and new to really understand what was happening, not to mention having a fucked up brain from angelic/Xian spiritual trauma, bad childhood and also at the time living with the aforementioned covert narcissist who slowly and spiritually pushed me down and tried to make me complicit with her demands dressed up as a formal family obligation in a spiteful way. This is someone who used magick and angels to convince their way back into my life before I woke up in order to move past their downright evil and mostly unforgivable actions towards me as a teenager and a little as a child. I hated her, had every right to, then she slithered her way back and used others to guilt-trip me into forgiving combined with her own memory and narrative perception control and heavy glamor. This has been life or death and it has crushed my spiritual advancement. I have been actively hunted and even defiled.
Not only that but I am having bad karma and "sins" actively transferred over to me. So much of my guilt belongs to truly awful sources and isn't my own to carry. I want to feel more responsible for this shit going so south but I am being instructed that my spiritual awakening and current journey is more like a jailbreak and slave liberation with some speed bumps and heartache along the way. There was only so much I could even do because my brain and soul were to deeply magickally controlled and stolen from by people I thought I could trust and love.
Because I have taken refuge here I also have reason to believe they have assaulted the former JoS now ToZ.
There is regret from the Qlippothic cult because they try to at least come off as not completely sleazy and also humanitarian, but in a more state-approved sort of way. It's fake and used to lure me in though, because giving them a benefit of the doubt makes me think of a crashed Chariot and reptillian stun batons they use in astral prisons to mind-wipe and induce memory loss in their slaves and prisoners. Shows me how purposefully evil and knowingly blasphemous they truly are at their higher levels.
Have I tried meditating? Somewhat. Have i tried visualizations? Very much so. Do I constantly get memory-wiped, confused, and made to feel like blessing myself will get parasites to reward my enemies, even to the point of being afraid of Power Rituals because I dont want runes being stolen and used to reward people who have inflicted torture and extreme abuse on me? Do I get constantly fucked with on every single thing that makes me mad or upset with such energetic force that it, on a down right scientific level at times, disables me and my higher thinking capabilities? Absolutely.
It's a miracle I'm even alive at this point.
The cult I need help with is the ********. Their inner cult is called *********. and their leader goes by **********. Their YouTube channel is called **********. I also have reason to believe I have a lot of bulkshit on me from regular old neo-pagans who worship angels and that I not only briefly interacted with and made angry for using sage (muh raycizm and white superiority I nevef even once mentioned to them personally).
I have a family member who is a covert narcissist who I also pissed off with blasphemous acts that angels attacked and tattled on me harshly about. Trauma-induced disassociating and constantly fighting off covert spiritual brainwashing makes you VERY inattentive, and I feel like what would be 90% other people's fault was orchestrated to look like but not be my fault to punish me as hard as possible for her in the most psychologically damaging way, and to make a very insidious and downright humiliating point about "personal responsibility" either intent in the spells to combine that point with making fun of me for masturbating and playing video games to relieve pain I didnt even understand at that time and to "prove me wrong."
Then comes the cult. I pissed them off last September/November-ish. Its gotten soooo weeeeiiiirrrrddd and pushy in trying to get me to convert to Qlippothic Satanism, purposefully blasphemous on their end towards my path and belief system but I realize it's also slightly suicidal and weirdly homo-erotic as shit. Constant Qlippothic impersonation that had led me to distrust and accidentally disrespect the Gods wholst truing so hars not to, and even subconsciously despise certain deities my enemies have fucked with and turned their more carnal sides into methods of abuse for me, especially considering sexual healing was a major part of their introduction for me into the spiritual world. It feels like its trying to turn me into a sexual predator on some levels based off some of what I've been mostly-paranormally forced to experience as a teenager and its freaking me out like no tomorrow, taking advantage of my shadow to put me through a "trial." God damn so much of my teenhood feels like I was being groomed by my mom with angels and shit for something NWO-y and Jewish.
Exposures to the cult about the truth of what they are doing and alien involvement and conquering has only resulted in doubling down and even harsher punishments by the Qlippoth itself and a few members as if the cognitive dissonance I created within them made some of them angrier and some inappropriately challenging towards me in a very "might makes right" sort of way.
Some of their crimes before I even entered their Discord server were great but at the time I was too green and new to really understand what was happening, not to mention having a fucked up brain from angelic/Xian spiritual trauma, bad childhood and also at the time living with the aforementioned covert narcissist who slowly and spiritually pushed me down and tried to make me complicit with her demands dressed up as a formal family obligation in a spiteful way. This is someone who used magick and angels to convince their way back into my life before I woke up in order to move past their downright evil and mostly unforgivable actions towards me as a teenager and a little as a child. I hated her, had every right to, then she slithered her way back and used others to guilt-trip me into forgiving combined with her own memory and narrative perception control and heavy glamor. This has been life or death and it has crushed my spiritual advancement. I have been actively hunted and even defiled.
Not only that but I am having bad karma and "sins" actively transferred over to me. So much of my guilt belongs to truly awful sources and isn't my own to carry. I want to feel more responsible for this shit going so south but I am being instructed that my spiritual awakening and current journey is more like a jailbreak and slave liberation with some speed bumps and heartache along the way. There was only so much I could even do because my brain and soul were to deeply magickally controlled and stolen from by people I thought I could trust and love.
Because I have taken refuge here I also have reason to believe they have assaulted the former JoS now ToZ.
There is regret from the Qlippothic cult because they try to at least come off as not completely sleazy and also humanitarian, but in a more state-approved sort of way. It's fake and used to lure me in though, because giving them a benefit of the doubt makes me think of a crashed Chariot and reptillian stun batons they use in astral prisons to mind-wipe and induce memory loss in their slaves and prisoners. Shows me how purposefully evil and knowingly blasphemous they truly are at their higher levels.
Have I tried meditating? Somewhat. Have i tried visualizations? Very much so. Do I constantly get memory-wiped, confused, and made to feel like blessing myself will get parasites to reward my enemies, even to the point of being afraid of Power Rituals because I dont want runes being stolen and used to reward people who have inflicted torture and extreme abuse on me? Do I get constantly fucked with on every single thing that makes me mad or upset with such energetic force that it, on a down right scientific level at times, disables me and my higher thinking capabilities? Absolutely.
It's a miracle I'm even alive at this point.
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