Thanks! The thing is, only the fact hurts that I have a serious illness, that I cant cure. I wanted to fix it and worked in the last years, but no progress yet, wich really hurts tbh, and it broke down my motivation oretty badly. Managing it isnt a problem at all, and its rather stable.

Maybe its the reason why detox goes so hard. My old life (and sadly porn) remind me so strongly of the time before getting diabetes.

I dont really have goals anymore... I wanted to advance as much as possible, but got diabetes. Wanted to cure it and fix myself, it decayed just as it would to any basic human, despite my best efforts. Just a cruel reminder that Im not enough. I continue the detox because I started it, but I...

I know, and it did made me better, both physically and mentally, since it forces me to improve and punishes lazyness harshly. I do the whole detox for the same reason. But its an awful state of being. I felt a lot closer to my goals while I was healthy, or while I hoped to cure it. I dont really...

I was a lot less pessimistic before diabetes. My mentality havent recoverd since. Its pretty rough to watch things positively, when you constantly reminded that you become more fragile and you couldnt fix it, and a small mistake makes you feel like youre not yourself and youre dying. Sure, I...

I do, but it would mean that my life was always shit... Objectively, we can only meet at weekends, if everything goes well, but it rarely does. Last weekend we couldnt meet and I feel very bad because of it.

I just recently switched from chasing goals on meditations, for a while it feels a bit different. I used to meditate a lot, for big results, until it turned into a second job. I try to do it slower, enjoying it(I dont yet, as I dont enjoy woking out either), taking my time but its still...

Literally two weeks ago(with one little difference), and it ended in the bedroom. It was very good, but those good things are very few, and Im still not too happy inside.

Its way too much test already, I wouldnt mind a break. Im tired of all of this. Sure, my old life was no better, but while this is better on paper feels so much gray! Like this have no intense part, nothing exciting or 'alive' side. Sure, porn is horrible, but at least it gave me intensity, even...

Greetings! Apart from my ranting, its been seven moths since I started porn detox, this is about 5th time of starting the damn thing again. It always goes a bit better, but life is just soooooo gray and lifeless. Sure, its mostly because I also cutted out screentime, xbox, went to gym a lot...

Greeting I just realized I’ve been running a corrupted mindset for years. Coming from a background of enemy programming, I didn't even notice how it infected my spiritual practice. I thought I was "evolving," but in reality, I was just treating the Gods like cosmic accountants. I was stuck in...

*edit, I still cant type, look over it for me please

Greetings! I had some more time thinking and reflecting on myself. Since my sexual energies are on progress to be balanced and healthy, I focused on the next target on me, my anger. For a long time, I believed that anger and maintaining a constant image of "the enemy" were the hallmarks of a...

Thank you! Yes, I was worried about capsules too, but I saw some nice and not too expensive growing block, so I could harvest it myself.

Alligedly it helps you with energy, focus, and literally makes your brain growing some new nerves without much drawbacks (atough I mostly consider trying it for lowering bloodsugar). Monks used to drink its tea before meditation. Would it worth for me trying out, or its redundant next to meditation?