Temple of Zeus — The Assembly of the Gods

My Great Sacrifice and Legacy to the Temple. Repentance and my safe suicide with God's permission.

theodore_kingsley001

theodore_kingsley001
#1

Hello, dear initiates. I want to speak openly, but gently. I want to commit suicide.

I understand that you will immediately say: «Please, don’t do this». Yes, thank you for your care. But I have to do it. Know that this is necessary for me. I simply don’t want to explain why, but be assured — this is necessary.

My life is systematically bad. The pain is frequent, constant and does not stop. It is not temporary. I have heavy illnesses — both mental and physical.

Disrespectful thoughts about the gods arose in me. They did not stop, became the norm, and then began to manifest in actions, which I even did not want. I was very worried. Often rushing from side to side and with horror telling myself that this is not me. When bad thoughts came, I performed bodily actions, but not as confirmation.

By that time the situation had improved a little, but I could not even go to the toilet, thinking that it would be a sin. After a few days I got tired of all this. I could not bear these sufferings. My breathing and anger broke out, and I insulted the gods. I regret it.

Now I want a door for repentance. How to repent of all sins?

By the way, should I perform the initiation ritual again ❓️

If the Gods took offense, grew angry, and expelled me from their spiritual family, I wish to return to the family of gods with apologies and respect.

I say this with pride: I will soon send hundreds of dollars to the Temple. I want to improve the Gods Temple even more, benefit the gods, and help them. Out of my deep love for the gods, I offer this heritage as my sacred property. 🫡🥹

Before committing suicide, I bequeath my money to the divine temple as a legacy and sacrifice. Not for anyone else. Only for the Gods. 🏛️

I studied this question, but not to the end understood, therefore I ask you: What needs to be done to get permission from God for suicide? And which God would you recommend?

If they do not allow it, how can I convince them? If they do not allow it, is it possible to commit suicide? Because I am in a necessary or urgent situation.

I have no way out. This is not a feeling or hopelessness, this is the truth.

Please don’t try to stop me, this will only worsen my sufferings. For me, this needs to be done. Please answer my questions.

Thank you.

Discussion

#21

Greetings, Brother.

I am staring into the face death as well. But not by choice. By a cruel twist of fate, I ended up with stage 4 pancreatic cancer (with liver metastases). What I've been told is basically: "it's most likely over." Modern medicine, in all it's greatness that it has achieved in the past century can only buy me a few more months and ease the pain at best. And I am pissed off. Pissed off at myself over two things. First, why me and why now I am still young, and second if anything good came out of this it taught me how sweet life is which made me angry because then I realize how much of a fool I was for ever thinking I would rather be dead. If some genie appeared and told me: "now that you know and see, do you want a second chance" I would say "yes" in a heartbeat.

I will tell you one thing, and I am pretty certain about this: you will regret it and you have no idea how wrong is the thing you are contemplating. And no one can save you from consequences of suicide. Not High Priest, not hundreds of workings, spells. You will face the Judgment of Maat and you will be shown how you could have endured, yet you refused to do so and decided to end your own life. There are thousands of people out there battling chronic pain, and yet they live. What do you think they do better than you? How can they live and you cannot? Do you realize now what are you trying to do? There is an obstacle on your way that is trying to prevent you from living the life, yet instead of trying to find the way of overcoming it, you just want to give up. You think the Maat does not see this?

God thing is that you seem to be aware there are consequences if you do what you think of doing. Bad thing is, you are trying to cheat the consequences. You are trying to pretend your problem had only one solution. But the Maat sees through it all.

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#1

you have a true fighting heart. I'm glad that you see the error of wishing your own death. I'm not trying to make light of your situation. I hope you use what time you have left to focus on your soul as every bit of time you do will help more in your next life. I hope that others who read your story put themselves in your shoes for a moment and change for the better since that would be an awesome legacy for you. I also hope that for all of this that it is a peaceful sleep that takes you and you wake seeing the Gods. Sorry dear brother i'm getting emotional writing this. I wish I could give you a big hug and help you find some way to celebrate your life.

Thank you for sharing your story with us.

Rest in peace.

Hail our wonderful Father Zeus

#22

Theodore, checking on you today. You said you are an iniate, so i have questions, because i care and i do not wish for anyone to just give up and put that kind of karma on their soul. Its worse than whatever is happening now....

1) have you talked to your Guardian? 2) Can mental health services ease your immediate distress?

3) do you have anyone in your personal life you can talk to? Or do you need a listening ear here?

4) do you need help finding assistance where you live?

I dont know you, or what could seem unsurmountable even with the power of the Gods by your side, but please know, we are here, can listen or help, you only have to ask. Ive been there, I promise you I have been at this decision you are considering, its NOT a solution to anything.

I hope you find the strength to push through. The choice has to be yours.

Please know I am thinking of you today. ⚡️

Black MagicActive Translator
#23

Life is an amazing thing in all its diversity, even if you don’t want to live for yourself, live for others. When I think about to end this circus for myself, I tell myself that others need me and that I have a duty to the Gods. As a rule, that helps me keep moving forward