We are reaching the end of this schedule of Rituals, truly beautiful and rich in power.
Usually when I close my eyes I focus on the energy I felt during the Ritual and on the sensations that God or Goddess stirs in me. Each of them, as you will have noticed, touches a different spiritual, physical and universal aspect, yet connected.
I remember perfectly a dream I had following the first conduction of Lord Baal-Berith's Ritual: I found myself on the side of a very high mountain of which I could see neither the summit nor the valley below from which I had set out on the climb. It was very cold and in some spots there was frozen snow that made it almost impossible to go on. Halfway up this slope there was a small flat space where two people had found rest after a long ascent. The space was so small that they could barely fit. I felt the despair, the fear. Their thoughts were crystal clear in my mind. They knew they had no way out and that death would come for them. One of the two decides to jump, decides to die by throwing himself into the void that hid the valley. The other, instead, wept in despair, but knew he would die of loneliness and cold, amid pain and despair...a visceral despair that I felt as if it were my own. In my head the question "what would you do?"
It is as if someone were asking me: "Faced with a difficulty in which you are asked whether to continue beyond the limit or let yourself go, what do you choose?"
The answer is not as obvious as one thinks: being there and seeing despair act in different ways in two people really struck me. I know myself and I know that I would never have had the courage to throw myself into the void, but neither to let myself die in despair hoping some animal would kill me to put an end to that suffering.
The only way was not to give up. It is true that the summit was not yet visible, but it would be, and there the most beautiful and enchanting dawn ever seen was waiting for me.
Tonight it was the turn of our beloved Lady Nut, an immense Goddess, loving and infinite. She gathers within herself maternal energy par excellence.
During the meditation I closed my eyes and, unlike usual, I immediately had a very precise image: it was a beautiful deep night and I was in a mountain landscape. Everything around me was wrapped in darkness but I was conscious of the space around me. Before me was a beautiful and majestic mountain, powerful and protective, whose summit was lit by billions of stars shining in that night sky. I felt Lady Nut's presence above me, a protective presence, constant, safe, I felt free and protected.
Peace completely enveloped my soul, restoring in me a sense of tranquility and a path to follow.
If I think back to my beginnings, to how far behind and out of place I felt, I would never have imagined I would get where I am today. I would never have imagined having this growth. I understood that Rituals are not only the way we have to connect to them and create a bond, but they are also a way to accelerate our growth, to learn to manage energies and to develop our abilities. They are springboards that help you move to the next step on this infinite ladder of the soul's ascent.
I believe each of us must commit with true dedication and intention to the Rituals, joining with the Temple. The Gods are always here for us to help and guide us, and the more we seek connection with them, the more we will manage to improve communication and growth on this path. There are no competitions over the ability to feel or see something, but there is the demand to keep climbing the mountain, because every extra step taken is a step toward the summit. However difficult the path may be, remember that we conquer nothing without sacrifice, without going beyond that limit that hurts us, but it is a necessary hurt.
Imagine having a knife stuck in your thigh; it is painful and bleeding. It is so painful that you prefer to leave it there rather than try to remove it. But you know removal is necessary in order to allow the wound to heal before the iron begins to rust. So it is with limits and traumas: it is necessary to face them, to understand their origins and remove them, to allow the soul to become what it is destined to be. Be brave and do not be afraid: the Gods are with us 🖤
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