I apologize...
...I usually like to talk about my spiritual path, but there are things that I would rather keep to myself. Now I find myself compelled to talk about them though, but I don't want to go into too much detail (don't worry, it's not necessary).
Please, can any advanced members tell me how long the suffering experiences that Gopi Khrisna talks about in his various books last? He took 12 years. But the idea of having to endure for a decade with the "torture" in my spine that I suffered yesterday, that I am suffering today, that I will suffer tomorrow... is a devastating realization.
I am GRATEFUL, I am in NO hurry, I know that one has to suffer as HPS Pythia said (glory to Her forever!), but it is psychologically "strong" as a blow to know that I may have to stay a decade like this. Also because the feelings get progressively worse.
Two months ago, for example, I wasn't that bad. Now even basic things like taking walks has become absurd, the activity in my spine makes me suffer too much. Not in terms of pain, in fact I have a lot of vigor and physically I can do so much.
But in terms of energy it is impossible to even focus on anything else. I don't doubt that maybe I just need to keep getting my body used to it ... but my Martial Arts Grandmaster is extremely strict and doesn't accept excuses for my not training. Not even on the level of health and so on. Also because he selects the "chosen few" who can take exams and so on, and he would complain about my absences.
Please...
It’s not suffering.
However it’s painful.
Gopi Krishna suffered because he did it wrong, this was talked on by HPS Pythia as well.
You won’t be in pain for a decade, don’t worry, Gopi Krishna didn’t have the Gods as well and was on his own, and he didn’t even have a full rising just a partial part of this transformation.
This is also individual.
Be fearless, embrace it, and enjoy it, you are growing!
Read on this, (I know you might’ve read it before but you have no idea how rereading can help with epiphanies)
“There are some things I feel I should mention concerning power meditations. Unfortunately, in life, rarely, if ever, does any serious transformation occur without pain. People who want power- so called supernatural power- will find in most cases, they will have to go through pain in order to achieve this.
Our bodies and minds are used to running on a certain amount of life force. When we begin to make some serious alterations with this very life force, certain nasty side effects can crop up. This is a given and is also individual.
The life force, like any electricity is HOT. BURNING HOT. There are different physical responses to extreme heat within the body. Some of which are quite unpleasant. Inflammations, eruptions, burning sensations, and so forth are the most common.
Knowledge is everything- to know what can be expected is to understand. One clergy member found his metal pendant that he always wears has become so hot it burned a mark into his skin.
This sort of thing passes, though it can take anywhere from a week or two, to a few years. Once the physical self adjusts, the soul has been completely transformed.
This is no different than strength and mass building through weight lifting. I remember when I first began working out- there were times I couldn't even get out of bed I was so sore. It took a few years, but the bone density and body strength/mass I have are permanent.
Remember, in meditation, the same thing. Unlike physical exercise, once you enter a point, there is no turning back. You can only move forward. Stopping can be disastrous in some cases. One may lighten up, but this will do little as a certain point has already been crossed.
Very few, if any articles or materials contain any contraindications concerning the effects of advanced meditation.
People who are epilptics or have had any seizures, should either take it EXTREMELY slow or not at all. You are increasing the electricity within the body and the brain- enough said?
Even in normal people, physical adjustments to the increase of electricity can cause mild siezures.
Everyone should ALWAYS make sure the air they are breathing in during meditation is clean. Deep breathing is no different than aerobic exercise such as running/jogging and will affect the lungs and system accordingly. Cold air can cause pleurisy, inhaling polluted air, lung problems. Keep this in mind.
Signs the Kundalini is about to ascend:
Spontaneous physical/electrical energy surges can cause jerks, twitches, shaking, and energy waves and even convulsions.
Increased sensory awareness- heat, cold, sounds, strong tastes, odors, heightened sense of body image or absence of such, feeling a strong burning aura, disturbing thoughts [this is why void meditation is necessary to banish them as is a strong mind].
Sleeplessness, insomnia. One woman did not sleep for 5 months
On the upside- increased understanding, much easier communication with demons and the sixth sense is increased and enhanced greatly. Feelings of extreme bliss, peacefulness.
The external environment does not have any affect- people getting angry, you remain calm.
This is the awakening stage of the Kundalini. Much will depend upon the individual. One's health and any former meditation done in the past. The stronger you are in every respect, the less problems.
Kundalini/bio-electricity is hot like molten lead. A warm sensation at the base of your tailbone- some of us have felt a pulling upward- sometimes spinning sensation. This indicates your Kundalini has been activated.
All of the chakras must be completely open and unobstructed. The serpent of fire will ascend piercing through each chakra. For some people, this is as hot as a glowing iron. One must stay focused and direct the energy out of the crown chakra.
The Kundalini will sometimes crackle and roar as it flashes like blinding white lightening as it hits the 6th chakra. This can be brightness beyond anything you have ever experienced or seen in your life. This is where calm, complete control comes in.
The Kundalini is individual for everyone. What some people may experience, others may not.
Here are some links that are informative. Gopi Krishna writes extensively on the subject. He is said to have suffered much during the transformation, but once this was passed, he experienced extreme bliss beyond anything he had ever known until the day he died. LINKExternal ↗
Thoth wrote that the greatest obstacle to true spirituality is FEAR. This is where the strong survive the weak. One must have no fear. Father and your Guardian Daemon will guide you. They will also push you when necessary. People say that they want extra-normal ability and power- this is the way, but nothing comes without pain in this life.
Many talk the talk, erroneously believing they are "already a God." For most, this is just a legend in their own minds.”
- https://templeofzeus.org/TransformationExternal ↗
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