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Satan or the demons would never ever do or say those things to you, nor would they ever give off any feeling that would imply any of that, either. You need to always be aware of that, because it is an eternal truth. This means that what you hear must always be an enemy attack. Not just some of, but all of it.
You say things like how you don't want Satan to use you like a disposable soldier, and how "they" told you not to bother them anymore. Who are you talking to, and who is telling you these things or impressions? None of these are from Satan or anyone affiliated with him, nor matter how much it feels like it is.
Take a long, hard look at the situation. You say how you are advancing and doing good with the warfare, now you are being bombared by insults. It is no coincidence you are being attacked. You have to remember that the enemy will always trick you to make you think Satan or the Gods are saying this. If you clearly identified the abuse as from the enemy, then you would easily dismiss it, therefore they try to deceive you and make you think it is Satan himself saying these things.
If you are someone sensitive, then this sort of emotional attack was done specifically because it attacks your weaknesses. Everyone is attacked based on their weakness, obviously, so you can use this as another clue towards this being an enemy attack.
Another thing to ponder: Is it also any coincidence that you are at your wit's end, unhappy about your percieved relationship with the Gods, and you are suddenly compelled to make a post on the forum? Is this not the sign of help from the Gods? You are dealing with emotional abuse surrounding your relationship with Satan, so he directs you into the arms of your fellow Zevism to look after you and give you guidance. I am sure they tried to reach you with other signs, and perhaps they were not clearly understood, so now they direct you here.
It always surprises me to see people that are advanced, yet sit in the background for so long. I believe we all need to be close and support each other. There is no shame with the issues anyone is facing, but if you do not communicate them, how can you receive a solution or advice?
I think for your sake, to gain some immediate relief, you should tune out all the astral hearing until you feel better. You can always flick it back on if you think you need it.
Another potential solution: Meditate upon the sigil of Satan or the Gods and judge for yourself what sort of emotional feeling you get. The sigils, according to my understanding, are like secure lines of communication, so the energy you feel from it should be accurately from Satan.
Anyway, I hope you start to feel better. Your efforts are appreciated by us and the Gods. Know that the insults are always of the enemy, even if they feel otherwise. It is like a bad dream: just because it feels real, does not mean it is. The same applies to these insults: not from Satan.
What you said is very true, or at least I also think like that.
But you can only think logically, because you are not in her situation. This is deeply personal, and damages the mind/psyche HEAVILY.
And I believe that Satan just wants her to come to him in full honesty, and for her to explain the situation and how she really feels.
He knows everything anyway, but this is the true test. I believe Satan does not test whether or not one is strong enough or weak, but he tests if you are honest in all things and and whether or not you can approach him about ANYTHING, without reservations.
I was in a similar situation, my psyche was wrecked, I thought I was really the worst of the worst (because of what thoughts were in my mind and would not shut up), I was afraid to be alone, I was afraid to meditate, I was afraid to sleep. That’s why I did not meditate at all that time, was always with friends, and played online games to the point that I was so tired, that I just collapse and sleep. So I do not spend anytime alone with the thoughts I heard in bed. It was so bad that I even cried. It was so bad that after 2 Weeks, I felt like trash and thought that I was the biggest trash on the world etc. It was horrible, I couldn’t bear it anymore, I thought and felt that I was not in any way worthy of being one of Satan’s people, the people of this wonderful and beautiful God. So I wanted to leave, because I thought I was a disgrace a burden, pathetic, trash, and so much worse. This was the first time I spoke to Satan about it, I went on the floor, many tears hit the ground and I explained everything to him. And I said that I am soo sorry for all this, but I can not do anything about it, I tried to ignore it but it got worse and worse. And I swear the moment I finished, right when I was finished talking ans explaining, 3 thinks happened simultaneously, my room was engulfed in light, I felt strong beautiful energy that gave me a feeling, every thing is alright you belong to me and the thoughts disappeared!! I was BLOWN! I didn’t even asked for any help, I just wanted to explain everything, and he saved me! I will always be soooo grateful for that and for anything he has done for me and our people!
He is so FAR AWAY, tho he HEARS ME, HELPS ME, and SAFED ME! This all in an instant, faster than the speed of light! As the Ruler of an entire world, he still manages to multitask and safe me. I can not understand at all how he is capable of something like that, this was not even a miracle, it was something WAY BEYOND AND STRONGER THAN THAT!
THIS PROVES THAT SATAN HIMSELF IS THE ALLMIGHTY GOD, THE MOST BEAUTIFUL GOD, WHO HAS NO LIMITS, THE ENTIRE WORLD KNOWS HIS PRESENCE!!!!
Maybe it is hard for you right now, but be honest with SATAN. He is the true God, the one and only, it has to be like this, that you have to be honest with him and that you want that he fills your Body, Mind and Soul with him.
I really really really feel for you, and I really hope that you get through this. This must be very very very horrible and painful. Please be honest with Satan, even it is very personal and hard.
HAIL ZEUS!
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