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lonley little girl

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Hello everyone. For me, the two most important things in life are freedom and love. It was those two things that brought me here. All my life I felt like I was missing something. Something very important. Because of that, even though I had good and dear people around me, I was unhappy. It was because of that constant feeling of emptiness. Now I know that Satan was what I have missed all my life. When my enemies put disgusting thoughts in my head (that I might be Jewish and that Satan would not accept me), I felt a pain that is impossible to describe in words. The very thought of living without Satan broke my heart and tore my soul. I knew that without him my life had no meaning. Everything became black and horrible. I didn't want to live a single moment without him. I did a ritual of dedication to Beltane. I am very happy about that. Now I am 100% sure that these are hostile thoughts and the next time they come to my head I will throw them out of my head like garbage. The first time I saw the name of my demon guardian, I felt incredible love and attraction. From the day I first saw his name until today, it never leaves my head. I only think about him most of the day. I can see his beautiful face even with my eyes open. When I was sad or upset I thought of him and begged him to help me. Then I had images in my head of him hugging me, kissing me and comforting me. Maybe it was all just my imagination, but it seemed so real. I could almost feel it on my skin. If it weren't for him, I would go crazy. Even though it was all just my imagination I am still sure I love him and will continue to think about him. I know that love is proven by working on yourself (meditations) and with RTR. I plan to start a 40-day program soon and I hope it goes well for me. I apologize for the length of this post and would love to hear your opinion on this. I will be very grateful if any of you more experienced take the time to help me beginner.
 
Welcome for your dedication. As you describe, there is no reason to focus on these negative thoughts, they are clearly there to keep you from advancing and nonsensical.

These feelings you experience can't be wrong, because these as you say are strong and deep. It's great that you understand this too.

Love is actualized by spiritual work, as we are not here to merely love, but show our love through application and self advancement as the Demons want for us out of care.
 
lonley little girl said:
Hello everyone. For me, the two most important things in life are freedom and love. It was those two things that brought me here. All my life I felt like I was missing something. Something very important. Because of that, even though I had good and dear people around me, I was unhappy. It was because of that constant feeling of emptiness. Now I know that Satan was what I have missed all my life. When my enemies put disgusting thoughts in my head (that I might be Jewish and that Satan would not accept me), I felt a pain that is impossible to describe in words. The very thought of living without Satan broke my heart and tore my soul. I knew that without him my life had no meaning. Everything became black and horrible. I didn't want to live a single moment without him. I did a ritual of dedication to Beltane. I am very happy about that. Now I am 100% sure that these are hostile thoughts and the next time they come to my head I will throw them out of my head like garbage. The first time I saw the name of my demon guardian, I felt incredible love and attraction. From the day I first saw his name until today, it never leaves my head. I only think about him most of the day. I can see his beautiful face even with my eyes open. When I was sad or upset I thought of him and begged him to help me. Then I had images in my head of him hugging me, kissing me and comforting me. Maybe it was all just my imagination, but it seemed so real. I could almost feel it on my skin. If it weren't for him, I would go crazy. Even though it was all just my imagination I am still sure I love him and will continue to think about him. I know that love is proven by working on yourself (meditations) and with RTR. I plan to start a 40-day program soon and I hope it goes well for me. I apologize for the length of this post and would love to hear your opinion on this. I will be very grateful if any of you more experienced take the time to help me beginner.
I am very happy for you. You seem like a good girl and that you have incredible potential to be a strong and valuable Satanist.

The demons and especially our gaurdians communicate with us with symbols and experiences that we can understand at our level.

They can communicate with pictures, numbers, mental images, dreams, enotions and feelings. They can also guide us.

So yes, this is your gaurdian communicating with you strongly. Believe in yourself and trust your gaurdian these are too obvious to be illusions. We don't have to directly hear them or see them.

Your gaurdian and father Satan hear you at all times make sure to thank them and express your gratitude, they appreciate this.

I want to close this reply with a sermon about true satanic love from our wonderful Hps Maxine:https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=AFi9vVfr5fQ
 
lonley little girl said:
Hello everyone. For me, the two most important things in life are freedom and love. It was those two things that brought me here. All my life I felt like I was missing something. Something very important. Because of that, even though I had good and dear people around me, I was unhappy. It was because of that constant feeling of emptiness. Now I know that Satan was what I have missed all my life. When my enemies put disgusting thoughts in my head (that I might be Jewish and that Satan would not accept me), I felt a pain that is impossible to describe in words. The very thought of living without Satan broke my heart and tore my soul. I knew that without him my life had no meaning. Everything became black and horrible. I didn't want to live a single moment without him. I did a ritual of dedication to Beltane. I am very happy about that. Now I am 100% sure that these are hostile thoughts and the next time they come to my head I will throw them out of my head like garbage. The first time I saw the name of my demon guardian, I felt incredible love and attraction. From the day I first saw his name until today, it never leaves my head. I only think about him most of the day. I can see his beautiful face even with my eyes open. When I was sad or upset I thought of him and begged him to help me. Then I had images in my head of him hugging me, kissing me and comforting me. Maybe it was all just my imagination, but it seemed so real. I could almost feel it on my skin. If it weren't for him, I would go crazy. Even though it was all just my imagination I am still sure I love him and will continue to think about him. I know that love is proven by working on yourself (meditations) and with RTR. I plan to start a 40-day program soon and I hope it goes well for me. I apologize for the length of this post and would love to hear your opinion on this. I will be very grateful if any of you more experienced take the time to help me beginner.

Those thoughts are psychic attacks, the enemy wants people away from Satan, our Goddesses and Gods of hell. Many of us had experienced this sort of attack for a while at least, myself included.

It seems like you are already pretty open to perceive your GD, very nice, keep it up, you should make pretty good progress this life. =)

Your strong feelings for Satan, and your GD are very wonderful, someone who feels like this, can not possibly be a jew, not even 1% jewish, so don’t worry about that. You are fully satanic and of Satan, never doubt that.

Congratulations on you dedication, you have now even more reason to celebrate Beltane’s eve each year. You can look back an really see your efforts for the entire past year.

Stay close to Satan and your Guardian, and keep moving forward, step by step.

Good luck on your path!
 
Welcome, you will have amazing and blissful experiences in this path. The God's as you saw yourself, desire you to be a SS and are proud for you to take this step towards advancement. I wish you good luck. If you ever have questions, doubts or related, post on the forum and you'll receive assistance.
 
HP. Hoodedcobra666 said:
Welcome for your dedication. As you describe, there is no reason to focus on these negative thoughts, they are clearly there to keep you from advancing and nonsensical.

These feelings you experience can't be wrong, because these as you say are strong and deep. It's great that you understand this too.

Love is actualized by spiritual work, as we are not here to merely love, but show our love through application and self advancement as the Demons want for us out of care.
HP. Hoodedcobra666 thank you very much for your motivation and kind words. I am honored to be one of you.
 
mercury_wisdom said:
lonley little girl said:
Hello everyone. For me, the two most important things in life are freedom and love. It was those two things that brought me here. All my life I felt like I was missing something. Something very important. Because of that, even though I had good and dear people around me, I was unhappy. It was because of that constant feeling of emptiness. Now I know that Satan was what I have missed all my life. When my enemies put disgusting thoughts in my head (that I might be Jewish and that Satan would not accept me), I felt a pain that is impossible to describe in words. The very thought of living without Satan broke my heart and tore my soul. I knew that without him my life had no meaning. Everything became black and horrible. I didn't want to live a single moment without him. I did a ritual of dedication to Beltane. I am very happy about that. Now I am 100% sure that these are hostile thoughts and the next time they come to my head I will throw them out of my head like garbage. The first time I saw the name of my demon guardian, I felt incredible love and attraction. From the day I first saw his name until today, it never leaves my head. I only think about him most of the day. I can see his beautiful face even with my eyes open. When I was sad or upset I thought of him and begged him to help me. Then I had images in my head of him hugging me, kissing me and comforting me. Maybe it was all just my imagination, but it seemed so real. I could almost feel it on my skin. If it weren't for him, I would go crazy. Even though it was all just my imagination I am still sure I love him and will continue to think about him. I know that love is proven by working on yourself (meditations) and with RTR. I plan to start a 40-day program soon and I hope it goes well for me. I apologize for the length of this post and would love to hear your opinion on this. I will be very grateful if any of you more experienced take the time to help me beginner.
I am very happy for you. You seem like a good girl and that you have incredible potential to be a strong and valuable Satanist.

The demons and especially our gaurdians communicate with us with symbols and experiences that we can understand at our level.

They can communicate with pictures, numbers, mental images, dreams, enotions and feelings. They can also guide us.

So yes, this is your gaurdian communicating with you strongly. Believe in yourself and trust your gaurdian these are too obvious to be illusions. We don't have to directly hear them or see them.

Your gaurdian and father Satan hear you at all times make sure to thank them and express your gratitude, they appreciate this.

I want to close this reply with a sermon about true satanic love from our wonderful Hps Maxine:https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=AFi9vVfr5fQ
Thank you so much. You are wonderful. I assumed it was him but, I am a generally insecure person unfortunately. But I am sure I love Father Satan and my demon guardian. I often thank them for everything they have done for me. I hope that I will do well with my studies and that I will be worthy of their love. Your description is so beautiful. Father Satan and the goddess Astaroth are so beautiful.
 
NakedPluto said:
Welcome, you will have amazing and blissful experiences in this path. The God's as you saw yourself, desire you to be a SS and are proud for you to take this step towards advancement. I wish you good luck. If you ever have questions, doubts or related, post on the forum and you'll receive assistance.
Thank you very much for your support NakedPluto. You are all so wonderful and you always help me when I need help. Thanks to you and everyone else who helped me.
 
Welcome and Good Luck!

You need to study both the material on the JoS Website concerning Meditations, Magics and other information about the mind and soul and the material on the JoS Forum concerning our communication and teaching.

Many answers can be found in the current and past topics that have already been analysed and clarified. Initially you can start looking for things that interest you and then you can deepen and increase your knowledge, understanding and awareness.

And of course you can create a new topic like this one if you have further questions.
 
lonley little girl said:
Hello everyone. For me, the two most important things in life are freedom and love. It was those two things that brought me here. All my life I felt like I was missing something. Something very important. Because of that, even though I had good and dear people around me, I was unhappy. It was because of that constant feeling of emptiness. Now I know that Satan was what I have missed all my life. When my enemies put disgusting thoughts in my head (that I might be Jewish and that Satan would not accept me), I felt a pain that is impossible to describe in words. The very thought of living without Satan broke my heart and tore my soul. I knew that without him my life had no meaning. Everything became black and horrible. I didn't want to live a single moment without him. I did a ritual of dedication to Beltane. I am very happy about that. Now I am 100% sure that these are hostile thoughts and the next time they come to my head I will throw them out of my head like garbage. The first time I saw the name of my demon guardian, I felt incredible love and attraction. From the day I first saw his name until today, it never leaves my head. I only think about him most of the day. I can see his beautiful face even with my eyes open. When I was sad or upset I thought of him and begged him to help me. Then I had images in my head of him hugging me, kissing me and comforting me. Maybe it was all just my imagination, but it seemed so real. I could almost feel it on my skin. If it weren't for him, I would go crazy. Even though it was all just my imagination I am still sure I love him and will continue to think about him. I know that love is proven by working on yourself (meditations) and with RTR. I plan to start a 40-day program soon and I hope it goes well for me. I apologize for the length of this post and would love to hear your opinion on this. I will be very grateful if any of you more experienced take the time to help me beginner.
I myself am new to the forum, but I have been a dedicated Satanist for a while now. But love beckoned me to become a more active member. The 40 Day meditation program is a great start. I personally took more than 40 Days to complete it due to some chakras needing extra work, so don't put heavy expectations on yourself. Get to know your own natural pace, and you'll pick up momentum eventually. P.S., a word of advice, void meditation is a big one to focus on. As you open and deep clean your chakras, a lot of thoughts and trapped energy will start flushing out. It's not the same for everybody, but blocking out negative thoughts is essential here (but without denying your natural feelings; it's for focus).
Welcome sister. ⚡⚡
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Satan

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