The curses come back to me during Returning Curses 1, what can I do about it?

[Tenebris]

Hi everyone!

This started two days ago. During Returning Curses 1 I noticed that the dross that has been cleaned out and piled up near me started to move back towards me on it's own, as if I had some kind of gravitational pull. Not the entire pile, but a part of it that has been already cleaned out and pushed off of me with the lightball started to move back towards my stomach area. Even if I moved the pile away, or repeated the exercise and cleaned myself a second time the same thing happened, the moment I put it aside it just went back towards me. I do experience a large amount of resistance when pushing the lightball down as well, but I wasn't concerned about it because I can still perform the exercise if I take my time with it. But having the curses come back is something that never happened before, and it made me doubt the success of the cleaning altogether. Does someone know what can I do about this?
Two additional questions here: Can I do more rounds of cleaning than three, if I feel the need to? Or should I just repeat the whole Returning Curses 1 from start to finish, if I want to extend it? Another question is, am I supposed to keep the same lightball during the whole exercise? I just realized that I might have messed it up in the past, because I visualized a completely new ball after every round.
Thank you everyone who took their time and read this.

Hail Satan!

 

[Hs666]

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Before doing this, try performing pranayama exercises. Cleansing is a time-consuming process anyway, keep doing it daily.

 

[WiseDragon]

This can be a mental thing and have nothing to do with what is actually going on energetically. The mind can play games, and then when you follow it and you believe that "the curses are coming back", you start losing control, becoming fearful and thinking that you can't direct the energy how you want to.

Very strong will and imposition of this will, these are very important in Magick. I'd say almost be 'arrogant'. Meaning when you do Magick, you visualize etc. you're not trying to find a compromise, you are not doing clairvoyance and seeing what is going on, you're imposing your will, you're manifesting what you want to be true. So when you encounter resistance, be even more determined, even more intense, visualize with even more clarity what you want to impose. This is how you beat resistance.

 

[Tenebris]

Thank you for the replies and help!
I managed to do my full routine without problems today, it took more time than usual but I did my best to focus and concentrate the best of my abilities. I also raised more energy than I usually do. Reading the replies I've realized that you were right, WiseDragon I think it was my own mind playing tricks on me. Recently I kind of put aside Void Meditation, this might be a possible reason as to why I can't control my mind the way I should've. I also tend to lack faith in myself when it comes to my workings.
Again, thank you for taking your time, both of you, it was really helpful.

Hail Satan!

 

[WiseDragon]

Thank you for the replies and help!
I managed to do my full routine without problems today, it took more time than usual but I did my best to focus and concentrate the best of my abilities. I also raised more energy than I usually do. Reading the replies I've realized that you were right, WiseDragon I think it was my own mind playing tricks on me. Recently I kind of put aside Void Meditation, this might be a possible reason as to why I can't control my mind the way I should've. I also tend to lack faith in myself when it comes to my workings.
Again, thank you for taking your time, both of you, it was really helpful.

Hail Satan!

Void Meditation is very important, never underestimate it. About faith, maybe this will help: https://ancient-forums.com/index.php?threads/about-faith-and-doubts.91847/

 

[Lightning-Wings]

Before doing this, try performing pranayama exercises. Cleansing is a time-consuming process anyway, keep doing it daily.

Time consuming or not, aura and chakras cleaning is an important everyday step. It is listed on the JoS even, the meditation section.

Don't go about telling new people to do some other thing instead of cleaning their aura and chakras.

Would you do the same thing if you did black magic? Cleaning is an important step after those workings. Do you just go off and do some yoga?

Yoga opens up your nadis and let's energy flow, yes, but it doesn't clean your aura how a literal meditation listed on the JoS does.

 

[Hs666]

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It should not replace or eliminate, it should add.

 

[Lightning-Wings]

It should not replace or eliminate, it should add.

Forgive me if I had misunderstood, but your reply to this person spoke differently.

Before doing this, try performing pranayama exercises. Cleansing is a time-consuming process anyway, keep doing it daily.

The latter part, where you said, and I quote: "Cleansing is a time-consuming process anyway,"

 

[Hs666]

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Nothing problem.

Before doing this, try performing pranayama exercises. Cleansing is a time-consuming process anyway, keep doing it daily.

Yes i confirm.

 

[Lightning-Wings]

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Please don't put your reply with my quotation.