Serious problems with break up

[CrossRoadsPedestrian]

Dress in leather and start going to concerts

Literally makes no sense.

ya i was like wtf when i read that too haha

 

[DarkShadow]

Hey DarkAmaranthine ,

I know you are going through tough times ,
And I'm not good at giving advice or sympathy..

But I want to tell you something I've learnt in my life.. that is,

"ALWAYS KEEP YOURSELF FIRST"

You have A Beautiful Heart, and a Beautiful Soul... These two are the things that most people lack.
( I'm looking for a person who'll love me like you loved him, but I haven't found anyone till now )

I know You're Special , And I know You're Very Beautiful..
You're not just for anyone

 

[DarkShadow]

You're Strong, and You're a Satanist.. you'll come out of this.
You're a born winner, it's your destiny to be Happy ...

 

[Jrvan]

Dress in leather and start going to concerts

Literally makes no sense.

ya i was like wtf when i read that too haha

At least he had the courage to say it to me directly.

 

[NinRick]

...how did you know?! XD

Who knows?

You were supposed to tell me that I am wrong, my bad sorry, I should have known better.

I was so confused when you said that. XD

Either way, thank you very much for all the advice. I'm still suffering - I think he's trying to get together with the other girl, so yeah - but I know I'll find someone better.

As I have said, I feel a deep yearning to feel love and to love. All I want from this life is to do my duty as a SS, find a decent job and have my own place, my own family.

My childhood and teenager hood had been so horrible that all I want is a quiet, fulfilling and simple life.

I can relate to that, as I basically want the same.
Along with much of power that is! >

To the last part I can not relate, but I understand that you had it hard growing up in those conditions. :/
I hope that from now on everything gets better!
Just do not under-value yourself!

 

[The Proud Gentile]

I've been a Satanist for a while now... even if I haven't been active on the forums.

But I'm in a situation that... begs for help. Not directly. Just... advice and emotional help.

I've been struggling a lot with my life. University and spiritualism. Until recent years, I was a workaholic and always based my achievements on what I can do. Nothing else. And now...

Now that I'm failing, I feel like I have no value. But the only thing that was going perfectly fine was my relationship.

We've been together for two years. After my mother and the Gods, he's the person I love the most. He's... my heart. I trusted him so, so much. We were doing so well.

Well, a week ago he went to a New Years party. After that... he changed. He told me half of his family is high risk with covid. Dying. He said that he wants us to take a break - in which we agreed we are still, officially, in a relationship -. I helped him so much with university throughout these two years. Even this week, I did... everything for him. Knowing his life must be a struggle at the moment.

Tonight, I just... realized some things he said didn't match. I have a pretty strong intuition. And my intuition has been saying, for a week, that something is horribly, horribly wrong. I don't know what impulse made me check out his discord - I know it's wrong, but I do have his most used passwords thanks to helping him with uni so much - and...

I saw everything. He's been in a relationship since the 4th of February with another girl. A girl I know. He lied to her that... we broke up. I saw the texts with his best friend, planning this stuff.

There's so much. So much... betrayal. So many wrong and hurtful things. Even now, he lies and tries to save his ass by saying we did break up.

We've been talking this time. I've been sending him homework. And messages of encouragement. He's been calling me almost daily.

I sent her screenshots of everything and she realized... what happened.

His lie is over. Everything is over. The man I trusted and loved so much. The man I was hoping to marry. Every relationship I had until now ended because of infidelity on their part.

I've been failing quite a lot in every aspect of my life. Except this one.

And his infidelity sent... every last piece of self-esteem and self-worth down the drain. I feel empty. I feel broken. I feel like... I'm nothing.

I've done so much for this relationship. I've given every last bit of my heart. I wasn't perfect. But I've been doing my best to improve for him. To maintain this relationship.

And we were doing so well. Our relationship was doing so good. And then...

I've had trust issues... for a very long time. But I trusted him. Until this feeling of dread and of... "something IS happening" pushed me to check his discord. It was just TOO strong. I knew something was wrong. The whole week has been a... build up to this.

And now I'm left broken. I don't know how I'm going to tell my mother or... how I'm going to recover from this.

Besides that, I have problems in my family as well. My uncle is an alcoholic and tends to get abusive. My mother is also an alcoholic and seeing her drink herself to death every death just... affects me in horrible ways.

I would love some advice, to be honest. Not for revenge. I'm... not interested in that right now.

Advice for how to... improve myself spiritually and raise from this point in my life. Because I've hit the lowest point in my life and I have absolutely no idea how I'm going to recover from this.

Step one, love yourself more. Know who you are and what you're worth. Understand that he was never meant for you, you are too good for him and one day you will find somone a million times better. You will find somone who will never betray your trust and who will make you feel happy and loved. DO NOT RUSH INTO ANOTHER RELATIONSHIP. That used to be one of my biggest mistakes. You need time to heal and focus on yourself. I would suggest getting a piece of paper and writing down a list of things you love about yourself and read through it. On a different piece of paper, brainstorm a few things about yourself that you wish to improve. This can be anything from mental/emotional or even physical things. Work on your improvements and track your progress.

Don't let your heartbreak stop you from advancing your soul. Daily meditation will help you heal yourself. You can do a working to detach yourself fully from him. This will help greatly.

Reading through your post I felt all of your sadness, your pain and your hurt. I honestly wanted to cry. This is why on my post here, I focused on self esteem. You will pull through this.

I also want to suggest blocking him. Dont answer his calls, he will only try and bullshit you more. I had this ex who tried to schedule a date with me a year after we broke up. I ghosted his ass and deactivated my facebook. I didn't create a new account until about 2 years later when I was fully over him. You don't have to do what I did and deactivate any social media account your on. Just block, ignore and work on yourself. He will get the point eventually.

 

[Soul Wings]

Above all, you must understand, it was not your fault. Be glad you found out this piece of trash early instead of finding out in 10 years.
Allow yourself to grieve and feel shitty, you must in order to move on completely. Grieve the loss and do this at your own pace. Do not communicate or go back to him. Do not take substances, face the pain sober, substances will only delay grief.
I believe in you. I know you can move on. There are plenty of lovely people waiting to be given a chance. But for now, allow yourself the time.

 

[phi3.14infinity]

I've been a Satanist for a while now... even if I haven't been active on the forums.

But I'm in a situation that... begs for help. Not directly. Just... advice and emotional help.

I've been struggling a lot with my life. University and spiritualism. Until recent years, I was a workaholic and always based my achievements on what I can do. Nothing else. And now...

Now that I'm failing, I feel like I have no value. But the only thing that was going perfectly fine was my relationship.

We've been together for two years. After my mother and the Gods, he's the person I love the most. He's... my heart. I trusted him so, so much. We were doing so well.

Well, a week ago he went to a New Years party. After that... he changed. He told me half of his family is high risk with covid. Dying. He said that he wants us to take a break - in which we agreed we are still, officially, in a relationship -. I helped him so much with university throughout these two years. Even this week, I did... everything for him. Knowing his life must be a struggle at the moment.

Tonight, I just... realized some things he said didn't match. I have a pretty strong intuition. And my intuition has been saying, for a week, that something is horribly, horribly wrong. I don't know what impulse made me check out his discord - I know it's wrong, but I do have his most used passwords thanks to helping him with uni so much - and...

I saw everything. He's been in a relationship since the 4th of February with another girl. A girl I know. He lied to her that... we broke up. I saw the texts with his best friend, planning this stuff.

There's so much. So much... betrayal. So many wrong and hurtful things. Even now, he lies and tries to save his ass by saying we did break up.

We've been talking this time. I've been sending him homework. And messages of encouragement. He's been calling me almost daily.

I sent her screenshots of everything and she realized... what happened.

His lie is over. Everything is over. The man I trusted and loved so much. The man I was hoping to marry. Every relationship I had until now ended because of infidelity on their part.

I've been failing quite a lot in every aspect of my life. Except this one.

And his infidelity sent... every last piece of self-esteem and self-worth down the drain. I feel empty. I feel broken. I feel like... I'm nothing.

I've done so much for this relationship. I've given every last bit of my heart. I wasn't perfect. But I've been doing my best to improve for him. To maintain this relationship.

And we were doing so well. Our relationship was doing so good. And then...

I've had trust issues... for a very long time. But I trusted him. Until this feeling of dread and of... "something IS happening" pushed me to check his discord. It was just TOO strong. I knew something was wrong. The whole week has been a... build up to this.

And now I'm left broken. I don't know how I'm going to tell my mother or... how I'm going to recover from this.

Besides that, I have problems in my family as well. My uncle is an alcoholic and tends to get abusive. My mother is also an alcoholic and seeing her drink herself to death every death just... affects me in horrible ways.

I would love some advice, to be honest. Not for revenge. I'm... not interested in that right now.

Advice for how to... improve myself spiritually and raise from this point in my life. Because I've hit the lowest point in my life and I have absolutely no idea how I'm going to recover from this.

Dear sister ..I am sorry ..I joined JoS only since this year jan and not last year ..I know this is a YEAR old post .But if u are still reading ,,may I say in JoS there is something called "WITCHCRAFT" ..Please meditate consistently for a year or two and after that go to satanic witchcraft section and do black magic ..Please understand people who cheat others are also people who PRETTY well KNOW what they are doing ..Satanism is NOT about MOVING ON WITH SCARS and the other getting away with everything ...That is what christianity and its ilks preach ..You have evry right to avenge justice .People who misuse others are as guilty as those who rob other people money ..please use black magic as mentioned in JoS and punish that bastard and along with that work on improving your life ..we have gods of justice andras,malpas etc ..ask their help as well