Rebuilding my connection with Satan

[AudreyDhamer]

Hello all, I have been on here with a few accounts in the past, the only memorable one being 'Niner'.
I have to admit, since dedicating in 2016, I have slowly lost my way, made little to no effort in meditations and have even made apologetics for Christianity/Christian nationalism on places such as /pol/.
I'm not that bad financially after selling my home.
Needless to say, I haven't been happy and have degenerated in many ways; I've become a boring person and lost my way in many ways, even my partner has noticed. Only 3 days ago did I decide to start doing some forms of exercise. It is a start. I want to get myself into a close bond with Satan and the high ranking gods. I do feel embarrassed with some of my actions and even things I've said about JoS elsewhere, such as wondering why Mageson could ever make it to HP if Satan as the JoS know him was really all knowing. Some things I've been reading such as the exposing the exposing JoS has come exactly at the right time and I'm thankful for that and can only apologize for things said in the past. I have no interest in politics really, but I do in spirituality and magick again; too much time of mine has been taken up with abstract concepts like politics that are of much lesser importance.

I find it very difficult to focus when meditating/doing void or trying to feel/visualize. This has been a huge setback. I really need help as well as helping myself. I really want to.

 

[Hp. Hoodedcobra666]

Welcome back.

People are given chances to prove if they are above their own stupidity or their own "fate" oftentimes. If they fuck up, that's another subject.

After a point the power of knowing will be understood since humans can develop similar powers. You might see people and know how it's going to end up. But regardless, people are players in their own life. This may look confusing on the surface but it really isn't when it's understood further.

It is true that whomever leaves this path, will deteriorate. Forces already present that want to rot one's soul are everywhere and Christianity or being a lost NPC will only accelerate this damnation. Spiritual Satanism is the core practice to go against this.

Primarily the purpose here is to keep developing and advancing in contrast to the forces that want to destroy one's soul. Christians know that they are soulless and live without a soul, but they put self inflicted lying above everything anyway.

In regards to you going back to Christianity, that sounds more like a problem of confusion and inner programming than related to actual concerns. Still this can play a role when people relapse on this type of lying. After a time one understands it didn't really help them to believe in Jeboo and all that nonsense and garbage, that leads to a dead end.

Christianity is a forced "universalist" program, it is against the core of whatever is National or Racial. If one looks at it objectively that's what it is. People who aren't programmed into this program understand it to be a program of stupidity and weakness.

The idea should be to get yourself together and stay focused. This is done by doing. Others will probably have more input to give you. Looking forward to doing this correctly this time.

 

[BlackEagle666]

First, start communicating with Satan as often as possible. Focus on his sigil and tell him what you have to say. Don't forget to do the 40-day meditation program, which will increase your energy. Be consistent and stick to it.

After the 40 days, begin a work of freeing your soul from Christian programming. Do RTRs as well. Show the Gods that you want to change and grow. That is your goal and the goal of every SS, after all.

 

[Serbon]

Welcome back!
I'm really happy to see that "Exposing JoS EXPOSED" has already helped someone
Hail Satan!

 

[Pumpkin671]

I am sorry to hear that brother, and that you have struggled and turned back to Christianity during those times. I would definitely listen to HP Hoodedcobra666, he offered some good insight.

I had a belief that once you dedicated you couldn’t go back, so this is interesting to me. I remember as a teenager I had to fake my following to Christianity to keep my cover alive but I couldn’t imagine going back willingly.

Come back to your roots and you are welcome back to the family!

 

[TotalenKrieg666]

Don't worry brother, you'll spring back very quickly. Father gives us his strength to push through our setbacks and limitations. As HPHC said, whoever leaves the path will deteriorate.
I went through a similar thing. Having discovered the JoS in 2018 I was fascinated but never really took it seriously, didn't dedicate, and just continued on my own thinking I was invincible, 6 months later I was completely distracted by politics and /pol/ and was hit by one of the nastiest transits to exist, Neptune squaring my natal Saturn, and I completely lost it (didn't learn astrology). Long story short I slowly lost all my built energies, aura, spiritual capabilities, surrounded myself with xian friends and got prayed for and went deep into the enemy's shit.
Only during the Venus retrograde at the start of this year was I able to find the right conditions to reflect on what had become of me, and I quickly dedicated to Satan. It's only been a few weeks but I have recovered so much, not back to full power but getting there fast, all thanks to him. I've only just realized what kind of support I was missing back then, and now having experienced the enemy programming for myself I realize how much of a naive idiot I was, ignoring the weight behind HPS Maxine's numerous warnings.

 

[HPS Lydia]

Welcome back!
I'm really happy to see that "Exposing JoS EXPOSED" has already helped someone
Hail Satan!

Epic win

 

[Serbon]

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Welcome back!
I'm really happy to see that "Exposing JoS EXPOSED" has already helped someone
Hail Satan!

Epic win

 

[AudreyDhamer]

Thank you all for the replies and the suggestions. I'll definitely do the visualising of Satan's sigil and get myself back on a meditation program, if I can do a 30 day trial with an exercise program then I can certainly do a 40 day meditation program as well. I've blocked myself from getting on /pol/ because it's depressing, negative and nothing productive or constructive on there, just baiting and irreverent nonsense.