Positive Clauses/Grounding/Meditation delusion....

[Gearshift]

1. What exactly is "grounding"? In JoS terminology.

I'm aware grounding is the act of not being overcharged as Stormblood mentioned, overgrounding is better than overcharged.

What exactly is grounding if my mind thinks all day habitually and perpetually and my mind acts like a robot. As a child I would say a lot I'm a robot I have no emotions. I've never had my astro chart read by a JoS astrologer but my mind isn't normal with various traits involving deep thinking much more so than others. As one website put it you value the mental/logic realm more than emotions, you use emotions to bolster your logic throwing a curve ball from right field and on top of that your deeply annoyed when people don't get it and don't want to use the logic to think about stuff.

Would overmeditating on my 3 male chakras help? Should I just focus on the first 4 chakras and create an imbalance. I know the name of the game is balance. And I'll admit when I was doing FCM I felt better but unfortunately I would get into rages and I would see Thauris flow through my eyes in reddish blood red color angering me up with berserker rage even if I was using it for healing. I was doing a Winja/Thauris/Aihwa healing combine both runes and have the energies be harmonious.

Plus I was doing a Munka working to vomit out all the negative karma. Might as well get rid of all the shit.

I'm aware meditating bottom to top is bad because of kundalini energy spiking through but should I just meditate from bottom to top?

2. Meditation delusion.

As I said above I could "see" things in my vision working on FCM/Pineal/3rd eye. My third eye isn't open to a high degree but I was seeing hallucinogenic like tracers and hazes and auras for example my new kitten I can see a blueish haze come off his back. I was seeing stuff basically but it stopped once I stopped meditating.

My question is this delusion or should I roll with it. Look I don't like meditating as it takes too long. If only it took an hour. Just meditating on hatha/kundalini yogic activities requires a solid like 40 minutes asana + 15min savasana.

How do I avoid delusions in meditation? Or was I over meditating. I do plan on doing a freeing the soul this coming December in a few days using Urus(Gothic) to handle more energy.

3. Positive clauses.

This is gonna sound really stupid and might bother people and make them laugh. But do we HAVE to use positive clauses?

I'm not saying I want to die or get stabbed or shot or injured. But is it really THAT bad not to use positive clauses?

In my recent meditations before quitting. I was using positive, healthy, beneficial, incredible, and best ways for me.

Yes wayS with an S multiple ways rather than one. I know Maxine stated SINGLE, LASER focused reality. But I feel like I'm manipulating myself to be a stagnant robot with absolutely no alternative.

Is there a possibility my affirmations are too strong and I'm overcommanding the energy. I know I barely visualize I do like HP.Lydia said a few years ago, WILL IN the energy. For example for healing work I would visualize my chest release the runic white-gold energy of healing Winja/Thauris/Aihwa and flow throughout my entire body and into my brain and that is it.

I honestly don't know how to use visualization. I can visualize perfectly fine when reading stuff like members and descriptions. But the second I sit down and do it it's a clusterfuck.

Excuse my simplistic questions that can be answered from experience and use. Yes I self answer my questions if JoS was a school I'd be bothering everyone and the professor every single time just to learn properly. I like to learn logically and I'd like to know everything. Yes I'm quite a bit of a know-it-all if it weren't for my hallucinogenic mindset my mind tripping on feminine chakras and tripping out and inventing stuff. I'd ask like a billion questions much how I pissed off HP.Cobra back in 2018 on A-forums. Well not piss off but just annoy with a huge 18 questionnaire involving several pages asking to be answered.

Like I replied to Blitz. I honestly have no fucking idea what I'm doing and the reality is I want to change so many stuff and do so many things after living such a repressed, compressed, depressed, dead life style that I honestly reach a point and go WTF is the point life sucks has no value and is a worthless piece of shit with no purpose to serve. I don't think the Gods intended us to be slaves or worse how everyone is in thralldom

 

[AFODO]

Just meditate and that's it. Re-open your chakras, and empower them. Do a good cleaning and AoP.

After a while, If you feel your lower chakras less, do extra rounds for them. If you only feel a specific chakra less, do extra round for that. This is very important.

Read your chart and see which planets is fucking you up. Eventually, and I think in your case ASAP, you can start a freeing working for that planet for at least 6 months.

Do Basic Spinal Series, and program the energy that comes from it.
And essentially you don't want to waste any energy so also program the energy that comes from Maithuna, other physical exercise..

Physical exercises for empowerment
Maithuna for rising your energies, cleaning, or empowerment.
Breathing exercises for empowerment/energy rising.
so on.

If you want to do this, do this right, take effort in your meditations. Focus only on that one thing and do it right.

 

[Gearshift]

Just meditate and that's it. Re-open your chakras, and empower them. Do a good cleaning and AoP.

After a while, If you feel your lower chakras less, do extra rounds for them. If you only feel a specific chakra less, do extra round for that. This is very important.

Read your chart and see which planets is fucking you up. Eventually, and I think in your case ASAP, you can start a freeing working for that planet for at least 6 months.

Do Basic Spinal Series, and program the energy that comes from it.
And essentially you don't want to waste any energy so also program the energy that comes from Maithuna, other physical exercise..

Physical exercises for empowerment
Maithuna for rising your energies, cleaning, or empowerment.
Breathing exercises for empowerment/energy rising.
so on.

If you want to do this, do this right, take effort in your meditations. Focus only on that one thing and do it right.

For the spinal-K/hatha.

Like it says on the JOS mainsite. I program it to raise and amplify my vrill and the powers of my soul. As that is the only affirmation I can think of due to re-reading.

My vrill and the powers of my soul is raising and amplifying in the most beneficial way for me, now and forever. x6 or x18

Also I will redo empowering my chakras and pump more into masculine and create a slight overbalance. I usually do 10 vibrations into 7/P/3rd/Shoulders. I guess I can do 20 on masculine.

BTW @AFODO or anyone else: I can't study my astro chart as I don't comprehend it in general, think like Foco_Blu666. I can pick and find specific things for example I posses very balanced elements my weakest element is mercury(17%) but the rest of my elements water, fire, and Earth are in their mid-20%.

My fire, water, and Earth are more pronounced than mercury being slightly below normal range.

BTW for maithuna I only masturbate as I never been with anyone.

But Ascending meditation i.e. the orgasm up spine to vyapini(gold chakra; Sundisk of Ra chakra). It states to circulate it for a bit through your system feet up spine up Vyapini down back again.

How exactly do I program sexual energy? Impending climax or after doing ascending meditation?

Do I just direct it to the base chakra as an example and clean or empower.

My orgasm empowers(or cleans) my center muladhara chakra in the most beneficial way for me, now and forever. x amount.

Correct?

P.S.: Are there any Runes or meditations for delving into trance/void? Logur? sensitize my soul? I meditate fully lucid i.e. beta state. I just do it and hope for the best. I know I can be in a gentle alpha trance per say but it's so limited I don't feel altered.

Though lately ever since I meditated heavily a while back I notice doing some mantras my eyes rolling all over my head, sorta like Sadhguru a few years ago doing a Siva mantra and his eyes were open and he was all zoned out with the mantra.

 

[AFODO]

You are going to get this by yourself, no need for micro-managing. Do what you think is best, and eventually you are going to realize what you do wrong if you are doing something wrong.