pacharica
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- Dec 9, 2022
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So,as people who have read my former posts know,I was kind of in a state of doubt about Satanism and christianity for the last few years.
Having cleared my doubts,by becoming a Satanic pythagorean/neoplatonist and seeing that the 'god'of christianity/jew-daism cannot be the True God as logically supported by neoplatonism,I was at a point where I simply didn't fear 'jesus'because I know he was not the True God,or better said 'Monad'with all of it's neccesary characteristics and attributes.
Satan is obv the real God.
but I mean the eternal principle that gave rise to the temporal world,not some temporal man in the sky.
I've also shared how I was attacked by angels before .
After the angels knew this,what was going on in my heart and mind,they put me in a state of dreaming where I had a 5 hour long erection,and they were laughing at me in the dream and trying to torture me,and I woke up with a painful state of priapism.
I can hardly feel anything on the head,and I cannot get a full erection,and it still has pain.
I must admit,I am completely demoralized.
Sex was my only pleasure in life.
They also did stuff to my brain where I cannot use anything to heal my OCD like peyote and thus I'm now a castrated mental wreck.
what should I do?
Having cleared my doubts,by becoming a Satanic pythagorean/neoplatonist and seeing that the 'god'of christianity/jew-daism cannot be the True God as logically supported by neoplatonism,I was at a point where I simply didn't fear 'jesus'because I know he was not the True God,or better said 'Monad'with all of it's neccesary characteristics and attributes.
Satan is obv the real God.
but I mean the eternal principle that gave rise to the temporal world,not some temporal man in the sky.
I've also shared how I was attacked by angels before .
After the angels knew this,what was going on in my heart and mind,they put me in a state of dreaming where I had a 5 hour long erection,and they were laughing at me in the dream and trying to torture me,and I woke up with a painful state of priapism.
I can hardly feel anything on the head,and I cannot get a full erection,and it still has pain.
I must admit,I am completely demoralized.
Sex was my only pleasure in life.
They also did stuff to my brain where I cannot use anything to heal my OCD like peyote and thus I'm now a castrated mental wreck.
what should I do?