Chaosengel
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- Joined
- Jun 14, 2023
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I understand that nobody owes me anything not even Satan. Why would Satan owe me something when I cant even accept him in my heart. I simply cant. My head is poisoned. I just cant "kneel". I tried for so long... My ego is in the way always. I wanna get rid off my ego just throw it away but its always here it never goes away. It says that I cant kneel. I try to put Satan or other divine entities over myself but it never works. I try to kneel but I cant its like im paralyzed. Is it good or bad? Who knows all I know is that I cant do it even if I try. I do not see myself as a god or king or whatever. In fact I see myself as little. Often I just stand and look up the sky and think about how insignificant my existence is. Then at the same time its fine because that makes me feel like nobody owes me anything but I do not owe anything to anyone. I can be free with my little self even though it feels lonely sometimes.
I need your help. I have no energy or will left to even get to the point to improve myself. I wanna do the rituals that have been suggested to me but I cant fully fulfill them I have no will no soul to do it. I need life power... I have depression but I dont wanna take medicaments I wanna get rid off depression naturally. I wanna do it. But I need guidance... I am so vulnerable as well others words can ruin my day easily. I am so vulnerable its insane. I am going to Turkey soon for holiday and everybody that has visited Islamic Countries knows that every morning the mosques do prayers and you can hear them all over the places. I need protection against that. I am going next week so I really need your help I need to be prepared. And I dont wanna have the feeling that I am having a fight every morning. I cant live like that.
Help me gain more energy and life power and be healed and protected please. Appreacite you.
I need your help. I have no energy or will left to even get to the point to improve myself. I wanna do the rituals that have been suggested to me but I cant fully fulfill them I have no will no soul to do it. I need life power... I have depression but I dont wanna take medicaments I wanna get rid off depression naturally. I wanna do it. But I need guidance... I am so vulnerable as well others words can ruin my day easily. I am so vulnerable its insane. I am going to Turkey soon for holiday and everybody that has visited Islamic Countries knows that every morning the mosques do prayers and you can hear them all over the places. I need protection against that. I am going next week so I really need your help I need to be prepared. And I dont wanna have the feeling that I am having a fight every morning. I cant live like that.
Help me gain more energy and life power and be healed and protected please. Appreacite you.