Something is bothering me lately

[Eternal Sun]

I have been getting my body into shape and pushing my body hard for the past year. I have really made good progress so far but I have an issue that I wanted to make a topic about. I never post much and I wish I did and was loved more by people around me and especially you guys here. I have stressed myself out so much lately that my hair is falling out really bad and maybe its a combination of stress and extreme exercise that I put my body through. I need something but I'm not sure what. I feel isolated and alone all the time and I don't even talk to Satan or my GD anymore because It feels like just a waste of their time.

I'm living with a family member right now and after years of trying to do spiritual work on myself I still dont have any kind of income. I'm nearing 30 years old and I haven't done anything with my life and personal karma has prevented me from ever being happy. I feels like every second of my daily life is just me walking around and hating life itself. I think im having some kind of panic or mental breakdown.

I have all of the knowledge and spiritual practices that I have learned over the years and I want to help out other people here but life keeps getting in the way and I'm always too busy trying to make a name for myself in my personal life but shit just keeps getting worse for me. Sometimes I just want to get up and cause tragedy to other people around me because of this. I'm just done with the repeating bullshit. Everyday is the same shit for me, I get up do AoP that seems like it doesn't really help. Maybe it does and my problems are coming from the inside and not outside sources. I try to do my daily chakra workings but for some reason I just don't feel them and I cant focus on them like I used to years ago. I have gotten myself into much better physical shape but mentally I feel like im just getting worse everyday. I can't visualize myself in positive or happy situations or scenarios. It's hard for me to focus on one thing for long periods of time. My mind always is scrambled on random thoughts. I dont even know why I'm posting this. I guess im looking for some type of relief.

I just need some type of help from Satan at this point. I've done all I could do myself. There's a lot of healing that needs to be done. This issue with my hair falling out from the stress, no income, and no home or family of my own has got my mind wrecked. For the first time I really feel like I should just die and I'm not just crying around for attention or some type of shit like that. I feel hurt really bad and I can't pinpoint the source of it. I can only guess to the things that's causing me to feel this way.

I'm going to take a break from all of this for a while. Or probably try to do some kind of rune work on the stress issues.

 

[kaelgr]

We may go through such periods. I believe you have the power to overcome all this.

Cutting off spiritual progress in life and focusing on material progress can cause stuckness in some places. Because when the mind is not vigorous, you cannot make progress.

Looks like you need a shine. You have a lot of potential.

First, make sure you stay away from things that are harmful to your health. Drugs, alcohol, cigarettes, harmful sports supplement chemicals. It is normal for people who have not achieved much in their past and have not been happy to have a pessimistic view of everything. But remember that this is only about your past and your state of mind, this is not the reality.
To get results from your meditations, focus on the pineal gland for a while. Heal your crown chakra to improve your perspective on spirituality.

Everyone needs order in their life. But not every order is positive and sometimes it has to be broken. Don't create just to create order. To develop is to change.

In this case, the person who is most suitable and can help you most powerfully is your guardian demon. Draw energy from its seal into your body and soul for a long time and consult it.
The chakras that play the most role in communication with the guardian demon are the upper chakras. Develop these sufficiently and contact.

You are in the stage of helping yourself, now is not the time to feel obliged to people.

I don't know exactly what your family or financial situation is like, so I can't give much advice about your worldly life. I would like to say that only when you heal your soul will you see the positive and the most powerful ways. You are aware of many things.

 

[Aquarius]

There's a book called "Release your breaks", I think it may help you a lot.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

I have been getting my body into shape and pushing my body hard for the past year. I have really made good progress so far but I have an issue that I wanted to make a topic about. I never post much and I wish I did and was loved more by people around me and especially you guys here. I have stressed myself out so much lately that my hair is falling out really bad and maybe its a combination of stress and extreme exercise that I put my body through. I need something but I'm not sure what. I feel isolated and alone all the time and I don't even talk to Satan or my GD anymore because It feels like just a waste of their time.

I'm living with a family member right now and after years of trying to do spiritual work on myself I still dont have any kind of income. I'm nearing 30 years old and I haven't done anything with my life and personal karma has prevented me from ever being happy. I feels like every second of my daily life is just me walking around and hating life itself. I think im having some kind of panic or mental breakdown.

I have all of the knowledge and spiritual practices that I have learned over the years and I want to help out other people here but life keeps getting in the way and I'm always too busy trying to make a name for myself in my personal life but shit just keeps getting worse for me. Sometimes I just want to get up and cause tragedy to other people around me because of this. I'm just done with the repeating bullshit. Everyday is the same shit for me, I get up do AoP that seems like it doesn't really help. Maybe it does and my problems are coming from the inside and not outside sources. I try to do my daily chakra workings but for some reason I just don't feel them and I cant focus on them like I used to years ago. I have gotten myself into much better physical shape but mentally I feel like im just getting worse everyday. I can't visualize myself in positive or happy situations or scenarios. It's hard for me to focus on one thing for long periods of time. My mind always is scrambled on random thoughts. I dont even know why I'm posting this. I guess im looking for some type of relief.

I just need some type of help from Satan at this point. I've done all I could do myself. There's a lot of healing that needs to be done. This issue with my hair falling out from the stress, no income, and no home or family of my own has got my mind wrecked. For the first time I really feel like I should just die and I'm not just crying around for attention or some type of shit like that. I feel hurt really bad and I can't pinpoint the source of it. I can only guess to the things that's causing me to feel this way.

I'm going to take a break from all of this for a while. Or probably try to do some kind of rune work on the stress issues.

If your hair is falling out, that is a sign of strong yin deficiency. If you are pushing your body hard, you could be imbalancing yourself in this way. Rather than more weight lifting or cardio, which I assume you are doing, do a yin-building activity like hatha yoga. You can also invoke lunar energy and program it to immediately and safely relax you. Do this as much as you need and you should feel nearly instantly calmer.

If your body is imbalanced like this, then it will certainly drag your mind with it. Your yin side calms and stabilizes you, also giving you reserves to tap into. If you are burning this up for whatever reason, in conjunction with Saturn return stress, then this will certainly lead to everything feeling out of control.

Having no wealth or family can also be signs of karmic yin-based problems, as this can come from a deficiency of Taurus and Cancer-like energies, respectively.

So my recommendation would be to cut back on the extreme exercise, as you do not seem to be recovering well from it. Then build up your yin energies, as mentioned above. Another physical treatment is the Spleen 6 acupoint, also known as "Three-Yin Junction" because stimulating it will direct energy to 3 organs and tell them to focus on yin generation. Hold for perhaps 10-15 minutes or until you feel better, but not to long that you may feel fatigue.


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[Blitzkreig [JG]]

I have been getting my body into shape and pushing my body hard for the past year. I have really made good progress so far but I have an issue that I wanted to make a topic about. I never post much and I wish I did and was loved more by people around me and especially you guys here. I have stressed myself out so much lately that my hair is falling out really bad and maybe its a combination of stress and extreme exercise that I put my body through. I need something but I'm not sure what. I feel isolated and alone all the time and I don't even talk to Satan or my GD anymore because It feels like just a waste of their time.

I'm living with a family member right now and after years of trying to do spiritual work on myself I still dont have any kind of income. I'm nearing 30 years old and I haven't done anything with my life and personal karma has prevented me from ever being happy. I feels like every second of my daily life is just me walking around and hating life itself. I think im having some kind of panic or mental breakdown.

I have all of the knowledge and spiritual practices that I have learned over the years and I want to help out other people here but life keeps getting in the way and I'm always too busy trying to make a name for myself in my personal life but shit just keeps getting worse for me. Sometimes I just want to get up and cause tragedy to other people around me because of this. I'm just done with the repeating bullshit. Everyday is the same shit for me, I get up do AoP that seems like it doesn't really help. Maybe it does and my problems are coming from the inside and not outside sources. I try to do my daily chakra workings but for some reason I just don't feel them and I cant focus on them like I used to years ago. I have gotten myself into much better physical shape but mentally I feel like im just getting worse everyday. I can't visualize myself in positive or happy situations or scenarios. It's hard for me to focus on one thing for long periods of time. My mind always is scrambled on random thoughts. I dont even know why I'm posting this. I guess im looking for some type of relief.

I just need some type of help from Satan at this point. I've done all I could do myself. There's a lot of healing that needs to be done. This issue with my hair falling out from the stress, no income, and no home or family of my own has got my mind wrecked. For the first time I really feel like I should just die and I'm not just crying around for attention or some type of shit like that. I feel hurt really bad and I can't pinpoint the source of it. I can only guess to the things that's causing me to feel this way.

I'm going to take a break from all of this for a while. Or probably try to do some kind of rune work on the stress issues.

Also, alternate nose breathing, or even just lunar breathing (left nostril) is another method to calm yourself. Runes pertaining to the Moon or Venus are Berkano and Gebo. If you wish to do a full healing working, I would recommend Uruz, as this has both yin and yang properties, and you can combine it with one of the others, ideally Berkano, to rebuild your body to better handle stress.

Regarding your contact with Satan or your GD, this is not appropriate. If you don't want to talk, you don't have to, but at least meditate on their sigil and allow them to be able to speak if they want to. You are closing the channel of communication based on your own feelings, not on theirs.

Lastly, do not doubt your AOP or any other magical workings. This is just your own mind feeling stressed and anxious, rather than a reflection of reality. However, it is very possible to calm yourself and rebuild. There is no reason to panic.

 

[Eternal Sun]

Also, alternate nose breathing, or even just lunar breathing (left nostril) is another method to calm yourself. Runes pertaining to the Moon or Venus are Berkano and Gebo. If you wish to do a full healing working, I would recommend Uruz, as this has both yin and yang properties, and you can combine it with one of the others, ideally Berkano, to rebuild your body to better handle stress.

Regarding your contact with Satan or your GD, this is not appropriate. If you don't want to talk, you don't have to, but at least meditate on their sigil and allow them to be able to speak if they want to. You are closing the channel of communication based on your own feelings, not on theirs.

Lastly, do not doubt your AOP or any other magical workings. This is just your own mind feeling stressed and anxious, rather than a reflection of reality. However, it is very possible to calm yourself and rebuild. There is no reason to panic.

Thanks Blitz

I have been wondering if I have a yin problem for a while. My kidneys also seem overworked. I always have to piss frequently and more than the average person and I have had that problem for years.

It was probably because of diet and exercise which caused this to happen. There was a short period of time there where I was only eating once a day and I did heavy exercise. I lost a lot of weight but I also noticed my hair was shedding a lot too.

I was planning on doing some type of working to fix this I'm already using the Moon's mantra for my third eye, so I could use Runes. I was planning on using Venus when Venus enters Pisces to help fix this. I'll try to spleen 6 acupressure point too and see how it works out.

 

[Eternal Sun]

I got some signs from Bune and Inanna. I'm gonna take care of this Yin issue and heal from this. I'm also going to do a freeing working tomorrow when the moon is in Aquarius to finally get rid of communication restrictions. One of the biggest issues I've had my whole life is that I always felt like I was ignored by everyone and my voice never had power. My natal mercury reflects this issue. It's also what's causing me to not post much or speak to many people. I'm finally getting rid of this problem.