Hey, my satanic brothers and sisters,
I have my final exams for my last year at high-school about one month from now. So this year decides my future. Whether I make my parents proud and move out by next year and go to college there. If I fail that will be a big problem.
The problem is no matter what I do I just can't study. It is not a problem of will or discipline it is more like my mind just can't take in or get academic information or subjects. Neptune is aspecting my Mercury which gives me an ability to develop my astral senses, learn and advance spiritually but makes it incredibly difficult for me to study and academic stuff.
It's like my mind stopped working with academic info. Also I find it incredibly difficult to study something I am not passionate about or interested in. The amount of jewish filth, useless information, and Islamic shit makes me repulsed.
Lately I've been very interested in spirituality and advancing alot and getting close to my lovely demoness lover. But I just can't study.
I still have to get good grades and pass highschool. I am going to business school so it doesn't need incredibly high grades in my country but I still need to get decent grades and at least pass.
I thought about asking for help from the wonderful Goddess Vapula while offering her 6 RTRs and an hour of digital warfare activism.
I don't think I can handle an extra working but if it is absolutely necessary I might try to do something.
Father Satan knows I went through hell this year and stayed as strong as I can. I got betrayed, my heart broken, cried and cried, almost got insane, almost got consumed by addiction, got depressed and felt lonely as hell. But even through all this I got stronger and stronger and never gave up. In turn I elevated myself and now feel happier and stronger than I've ever been. I got wiser, more mature and stronger.
So yeah I am not just a lazy loser who has no will to study. But I really need help with this.
My brothers and sisters, do you have any advice for me?
All replies are appreciated and thank you for your help.
Hail Father Satan Forever!!
Hail Beautiful Princess Astarte!!
