working/ritual to understand math?

hello every one :) so yeah the tittle say's it all :( . listen math has always been a extreme weakness of mine .i have honestly tried to study it but unlike any other subject this one just does not work out ever for me . to be honest this makes me feel bad because i see everyone else around me getting it just fine . i myself would like to have that same type of experience with math. i want to live math  think math and to be math . i would like to know from you all if  there is anything that i could do to make this my reality.