why am i so discouraged?

[brammeth]

I'm not trying to troll or anything I just wanted to get how I'm feeling or my message across. I discovered JoS about a month and a half ago. Dedicated myself a week later. At first I believed everything and could not stop reading and learning everything. Started meditating. Do it daily. But alot bullshit has come into my life since. I have tried to promote JoS and Satanism and help Father but it seems my efforts have been in vain cause I'm not getting much help back. Especially the past week, my life has just turned to shit. I read that Satan is always there for his followers but it truly doesn't seem like it. I've tried Ouija boards, no response. Tried talking to father and asking for signs, nothing. I dont wanna give up on believing but I'm coming to the feeling that this is all just stupid bullshit. And like I said I'm not trolling. When I first came upon SS my mind was blown and I probably believed it more than any of you out there.. But now it almost seems just as fake as any other religion out there. I guess I kinda just want some advice or to hear if anyone feels or has felt the same way as me. Oh yea and one time I tried to put myself in a trance and had an out of body experience and that's about as empowered and spiritual as I've felt since dedication. Just lookin for some input please

 

[Charlie Olsen]

Well, I have (still do) feel the exact same way to the letter, other than the crap in my life... But that just convinces me that I'm too much of a failure for the enemy to take notice of me. Since I'm such a failure I might as well not try because it won't work... its a vicious self destroying cycle and I don't know what else to say. 
Hail be to the givers of true knowledge!

On 2013-09-01, at 5:35 PM, "brammeth" <kbrammcdonald@... wrote:

  I'm not trying to troll or anything I just wanted to get how I'm feeling or my message across. I discovered JoS about a month and a half ago. Dedicated myself a week later. At first I believed everything and could not stop reading and learning everything. Started meditating. Do it daily. But alot bullshit has come into my life since. I have tried to promote JoS and Satanism and help Father but it seems my efforts have been in vain cause I'm not getting much help back. Especially the past week, my life has just turned to shit. I read that Satan is always there for his followers but it truly doesn't seem like it. I've tried Ouija boards, no response. Tried talking to father and asking for signs, nothing. I dont wanna give up on believing but I'm coming to the feeling that this is all just stupid bullshit. And like I said I'm not trolling. When I first came upon SS my mind was blown and I probably believed it more than any of you out there.. But now it almost seems just as fake as any other religion out there. I guess I kinda just want some advice or to hear if anyone feels or has felt the same way as me. Oh yea and one time I tried to put myself in a trance and had an out of body experience and that's about as empowered and spiritual as I've felt since dedication. Just lookin for some input please

 

[call_me_something_else]

The enemy is extremely scared of you discovering the truth of the Joy of Satan. Might I suggest you focus on Father's sigil when you feel confused, asking for guidance. Might I also recommend you do a banishing ritual?

Have you opened your chakras? Are you doing your aura of protection daily? Are you studying consistently?

You cannot lie to Satan. I almost tried to once and got a huge lesson for my dishonesty.

Study. Work. Put in the effort. Perhaps the enemy fears you because you have much to offer.

Hail Father Satan!

--- In [email protected], <[email protected] wrote:

Well, I have (still do) feel the exact same way to the letter, other than the crap in my life... But that just convinces me that I'm too much of a failure for the enemy to take notice of me. Since I'm such a failure I might as well not try because it won't work... its a vicious self destroying cycle and I don't know what else to say. 
Hail be to the givers of true knowledge!

On 2013-09-01, at 5:35 P[/IMG]kbrammcdonald@... wrote:

  I'm not trying to troll or anything I just wanted to get how I'm feeling or my message across. I discovered JoS about a month and a half ago. Dedicated myself a week later. At first I believed everything and could not stop reading and learning everything. Started meditating. Do it daily. But alot bullshit has come into my life since. I have tried to promote JoS and Satanism and help Father but it seems my efforts have been in vain cause I'm not getting much help back. Especially the past week, my life has just turned to shit. I read that Satan is always there for his followers but it truly doesn't seem like it. I've tried Ouija boards, no response. Tried talking to father and asking for signs, nothing. I dont wanna give up on believing but I'm coming to the feeling that this is all just stupid bullshit. And like I said I'm not trolling. When I first came upon SS my mind was blown and I probably believed it more than any of you out there.. But now it almost seems just as fake as any other religion out there. I guess I kinda just want some advice or to hear if anyone feels or has felt the same way as me. Oh yea and one time I tried to put myself in a trance and had an out of body experience and that's about as empowered and spiritual as I've felt since dedication. Just lookin for some input please