WHAT DO I DO!?!?

[Dillon]

I need help, a lot of it. I was getting a little more control over these attacks and began getting stronger with father but then, they hit me with extreme force. I cant control my self, i cant even control my own mind (no joke) I'm basicly a skitzo right now, one side is talking corrupted and is doing everything to keep me away from Father, everytime i hear my other voice i just punch myself in the face as hard as i can. I ask the Gods for help every night and each time i have no response. last night i got tired of it and as i was in bed i said "Father, Astaroth, Azazel and Beelzebub if you really do love and care for me, say it, any demon make your presence known. please." i waited, and nothing happend, i felt like the gods have left me, i tried to think not of it but the words "they dont care" kept flowing in my mind. i dont know what to do anymore, sometimes i feel like jumping off a bridge so i can get out of this pathetic mind of mine. i know its going to escelate if i dont do something, but what is that something???

 

[Merr]

Many have felt alone, not heard the precious words of our beloved Gods
for a variety of reasons... not open enough psychically, expecting
response during a time and outside of that time that response came as
sometimes the response is subtle but very strong in intent...ect. Anyway
you need to do more void meditation and strengthening your protective
aura, doing lots of that makes it difficult for the enemy to fill you
with negative thoughts, feelings, and voices. Also try breaking the tube
breaking from HP Vovim
http://www.ageofsatan.co.cc/severing_th ... hie.h\
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That may or may not be the problem but making sure you are not
influenced in anyway is a good start to hearing our beloved Gods
clearly... I still will post more if you need it as I care too much to
be silent when a member of Father Satan really needs aid....
Merr