Wasted Time and you

[littlesttitan]

Heeeeello all of you wonderfullymazingtastic people!!! ? I've come here this time to discuss about a topic that has troubled me from my past up to now. Wasted time and activity is our focus here. I myself have been kept down sooooooooo much by wasted time and the wrong decisions to cause that. I had potential and still do, what really destroys me though is the destractions i face. I really want to help myself but after i turn on the TV i get caught up in entertainment. I've improved a whole lot on that as i have true desires for things and those things take my full attention and care. I fight myself on many things that just take up my time. I came to the mindset that i don't need ANY substitutes for happiness. My sexual aspirations have become more normal and i seek only power and knowledge. For any other side thing you might get caught up in the entertainment of i think i have a solution or two to help you grow. I would feel like im actually usefull if i can help atleast a couple people here XD. Humanity needs to rise again and defeat the enemy, we need every soldier to not be stumped or stopped by anything, sad case for me is i was stopped for 3 years. After that i assisted all aspects of my growth as i was fed up with myself and even to this day i regret everything ive done, BUT "theres no changing the past, only to pursue a better future". Now to some information that might help... Stick it hard in your mind that you WON'T be f-ing around, i would reccomend some strong affirmations or self-hypnosis. MAKE IT your only will to become better in any way, i told myself that i wouldn't go a day without doing something do improve myself in some way. Don't convince yourself that if you did something you feel is great then you deserve an award like, "oh, i did this super important and helpful thing so it's not like i have to do anything else productive as that was enough" never believe you should be given any large breaks, these are times of war and you need to do your best to discipline yourself, or if you have a friend that can help you with that. The main point is to use all of your time to your advantage and never miss out on opportunities to do more for yourself or others. I can't talk forever so ima end this. Last thing i would say is too never become lazy and always do whats best, make the Gods proud of you! LOVE YOU ALL!!! ??

 

[thisisafalsealias]

Is it possible that you raised the bar too high for yourself and that is why you slowed way down for three years? To be honest, I don't understand how anybody is supposed to maintain their health working out, career/school/work, at least minimal social activity (health), cook, clean, fix the house, fix the car, do the other thing, shop and study and still have time to do like apparently nine RTRs a day and another whole ritual or five.

I mean RTRs and self improvement actually became like an excuse not to look for  work or volunteer so I'm a little behind my friends in savings and that sense. Self improvement costs $$$ and even $$$ costs $$$.
I made immense progress and impact but I'm as behind in savings compared to my buddies because my life was spent obsessively reading and learning skills outside of school which basically made me like some kind of superhero everybody is jealous of for looking up towards but ignores until they need me. Minority quotas (which are real believe it or not.) and other employer preferences, as well as plain old lack of experience on my behalf have me mainly getting paid to freeze, risk severe injury, risk death or worse... work at an office.Can never work enough to actually get a raise though because my future self can't afford for my present self to work enough hours to live.
Not that I stopped doing RTRs... don't know, maybe I'm the one that can't keep up, because I just know before I became busier with material success, it was a little easier, but maybe what I said was relatable to you. A lot of us I think are just trying to craft life now to let us learn all the time, give our life dharma, so until we're there, its not like we have to be rigged up to life support and forced to repeat the rituals 24/7