Yes, I will try. It started when I became an Novice Monk. Sometimes, when I retired to bed, I found myself unable to sleep and not only that but I developed painful erections. During one of these nights someone seemed to join me encouraging (making suggestions) that I enjoy and not fight my erections. The force that accompanied it was strong but not menacing: it wanted me to say aloud that I should take pleasure in being a 'Man' and that my cock and balls and the 'seed' therein, were needed in the World. I cannot do the experience justice by describing it in words! This happened several times. I never mentioned this during Confession. At the end of my stay, the Superior, said I was a 'Free Spirit'. At the time, I agreed with him and was released.
On Saturday, 27 December 2014, 11:31, "amsalu belew amsalu20@... [JoS4adults]" <
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Hey,
Can you elaborate a little bit on the sexual experience you had ?
On Friday, December 26, 2014 5:24 AM, "douglas gardner dwillgardner@... [JoS4adults]" <
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I believe that 'thoughts' of Satan have brought me out sexually: my thoughts of him or his thoughts of me! I was a spiritual prude for many years. In the last ten years I have been disabled and have had to take quite an amount of medication: this amount and Viagra did not help. I feel my first encounter with him was when I was a novice monk. I believe it was this encounter that caused me to leave. There is so much written of him that it is hard to sort things out. I was never afraid that he may have chose to touch my life in releasing my sex, both watching me and/or experiencing pleasure directly through me. I believe I have heard him but not seen him. I know he is a strong force and is capable of suggesting, as I have found with my sexual encounters with him. As, I am new to this Group, I do not know how graphic I can be!
