Trying to lose fear

cedre losoyaMay 20, 20151 min to read

May 20, 2015

I still have this fear that is holding me back from dedication. I want this but I'm scared of something that I don't even know what I should be scared of. I feel like this is the way for me I see truth in this..

May 20, 2015#1

The fear is not your own.Trust me. This happens to everyone before they dedicate. The fear is enemy spirits who are haunting you. the fear is theirs not yours.

HAIL SATAN!

May 21, 2015#2

The only thing to fear is fear itself. Father told me not long after I dedicated -- and these are HIS exact words to me, "Set aside your fear and walk in the sunlight." I did. And I still do! Father is SO awesome!
Hail Father Satan!
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be scared of. I feel like this is the way for me I see truth
in this..

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May 22, 2015#3

It is time to grow balls say fuck you to the fears and do it.

May 23, 2015#4

The only thing to fear is fear itself. Father told me not long after I dedicated -- and these are HIS exact words to me, "Set aside your fear and walk in the sunlight." I did. And I still do! Father is SO awesome!
Hail Father Satan!
--------------------------------------------

Subject: Trying to lose fear
To:
Date: Tuesday, May 19, 2015, 11:50 AM

I still have this fear that is
holding me back from dedication. I want this but I'm
scared of something that I don't even know what I should
be scared of. I feel like this is the way for me I see truth
in this..

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May 23, 2015#5

I think you should dedicate when you're ready, no need to push things... but your choice.
Hail Satan!

May 24, 2015#6

It is time to grow balls say fuck you to the fears and do it.