Time lapse, observing the past, my coming to satanism.

[SouthernWhiteGentile]

It felt like it was yesterday that I had dedicated to Enki, the Covid hoax was taking its baby steps, and people were very paranoid believing that it was the new plague. It was the calm before the storm.

During that winter I had spent weeks searching for a true Aryan religion and who our Creator was. Xianity was not cutting it for me and never really felt right.

In December of 2019, specifically The 21st through the 25th, I came under an extreme psychic attack that had been building up for a while due to christardom. The entities were exploiting my insecurity in certain areas, they still try to do this to me.

Anyway, it ruined my Yule and originally made me think I had bipolar disorder. However I am grateful that this happened because if it hadn’t, I probably wouldn’t be here writing this.

After that, I was back to normal, but still, xianity had a slight grip over me, so I was researching for reasons that it was our religion, and came across a site that also hosted works by Klassen.

The white mans bible was the final nail for me when it came to the Jewish religions, I recommend all the new people or those hanging on to their abrahamic faith to read this book.

There was one problem, klassen and creativity are atheistic, I was not and knew there was something more, so my search wasn’t over just yet. Almost right after this I found JoS.

In about October of that Year I had made a post on a WN subreddit asking for a piece to help identify Jews better, so someone linked the now iconic HTIAJ pdf, which I believe one of the High priests (not sure who) wrote.

The host of this document was http://www.gentilenation.com, which I learned was a Site that mirrored some of the material from the main JoS page.

At the time Jewsus still had some sway over me so when I read that said it was a Satanist group I disregarded it and didn’t look back.

But in January after being freed from the spell, I suddenly had the urge to visit this site, so I did and read everything and it just felt right to me. I had a very warm feeling within myself that this was it, so I spent about a week reading everything from Satans library, and searching for answer to the questions I had here on the forums (Using the search bar, not making a needless new post like an imbecile).

So you can see the day that my account was created, by that time I was certain that this was path for me, so it was time to dedicate.

Since my birthday was right around the corner on February third, I figured that would make it special, so that’s the day I chose. And the rest is history.




I don’t really know what moved me to make this post, this mercury retrograde and the last one have been really rough on me.
I don’t have any problem with transportation or communication but I get anxiety about past things I have done and saw really bad.

I would like to hear others experience.

 

[Henu the Great]

I don’t really know what moved me to make this post, this mercury retrograde and the last one have been really rough on me.
I don’t have any problem with transportation or communication but I get anxiety about past things I have done and saw really bad.

I never thought it could affect that way. Yeah now when you mention I've had some memories popping up. Nothing that I worry too much, I simply let it pass.

 

[Alta Serpentis]

I understand how you feel, I get bouts of my past getting hurled back at me every once in a while. I was quite the despondent and angsty individual before finding Satan, and while it continued after my dedication, ever more and more I've been getting better. I was raised southern baptist, in the northern most bible belt state, so from an early age I was enmeshed into jewish bullshit. My first experience going against this notion was when I was seven and I saw 'something', some decrepit looking entity and for some reason I ran to my mom and told her I had seen an angel. I didn't give it much thought back then, being seven and all, but instinctively I knew christianity was all rot, even though that entity was probably a poor energy deprived thoughtform from a past life. Growing up I was always drawn to mysticism, I used to think I could do silly stuff like control the wind or whatever. The essence of Satan was always there in my subconscious. Fast forward to my freshman year after taking a world religions class, I started to try out different world religions, never touched islam or judaism but tried out Buddhism, was a Hindu for a bit, very short new age kick. I would read and read all these doctrines and none ever felt right. Hinduism was probably the closes though. Sophomore year however we read a poem in my English class and it had the word seraphim. From my chirstian upbringing I knew it was a class of angel so I jewgled it and the first site to pop up was the JoS. From there I read everything, twice. It was just 'it'. I dedicated after some extensive deprogramming which was unfun. Even so, after I started practicioning I was found out and stopped for a while. For the next two or so years I downspiraled into drugs, etc and it was a bad time. I got too college however and had that freedom to meditate and everything. The feeling of liberation I had when first found the JoS was so much more compounded then. I look back at my mistakes and who I was, and while I'm disappointed in myself, I know that was my old self. Knowing that satanic sacraments are real, and its a true rebirth and coming home has allowed me to put my past in my past. I'm no longer that person, and cant ever go back to being that person, so whatever your past was, whatever delusions you've entertained, programming you've acted on, or mistakes you've knowingly made, its who you were. That second chance is a beautiful thing. I thank Satan for it all the time, he's everything that matters, and made me matter through him and the purpose we've all been given. If you're feeling down, just focus on you in the present, you're a first-class singularity and sometimes you just have to relish in that.