This shit always seems to happen...

[solarsonia666]

"I'm going to start re-opening my chakras tomorrow"

Some reason I suddenly obtain a physical problem where I can't make any audible noise, thus no vibrations.

This is bullshit; my health seems to get bad or shitty right before I try to get in shape physically or spiritually... what gives?

 

[centralforce6661]

Obstacles will always arise when it comes to meditation.

Even after 5 years of meditating every single day and seeing some very real and quantifiable progress, obstacles still arise.

The strength of your persistence and character is the only thing that will see you through. Satan is also very encouraging if you need it.

HAIL SATAN!

 

[fadiinflames]

nothing man , stop making a big deal out of it and do your meditations , they only take fucking 30 seconds a day for one chakra (the awakening ex) do them everyday if you are still awakening your main chakras and you WILL open them. stop creating your own excuses and obsticles , you are limiting yourself and procrastinating, the problem is YOU , fix it.

 

[solarsonia666]

What do you mean awakening...? Is that the same thing as opening or what...

"the problem is YOU , fix it."

I'm really not in the best sorts of minds right now, having a sort of midlife crisis (even though I'm in the lower 20s...)
My first thought was to reply "okay I'll fix it, goodbye world" or something similar.
Enemy must be hitting me hard... I think.

I just... don't know what to do. I wish I had some sort of mentor that would help me with this every day. I feel like every bit of myself is in pieces and broken. I know I need to get myself up, but... yeah.

 

[t100010010100100011]

look man everybody goes through midlife chrisises(sorry I'm not the best speller)... i am 16 and 5 months ago my mother burnt down our house and ran from the cops, it made the news and the local newspaper..we moved into a house 4 months ago and I'm as calm cool and collective as anyone could be because i know how to clear my mind and look at everything that's going on while separating logic from emotions..thats how i deal with my problemes and i am only 16( im not trying to brag i am letting you know that if i am getting through this i know that you can get through what ever your going through)
what i am saying is that you always have time for meditation and personal development even if it seems like you dont i meditate every day for at least 45 minutes( like sometimes if I'm whaching a movie and i notice its sunny outside ill go meditate in the sun and whach the movie later) now i dont like the post above thats practically yelling at you telling you to stop being a woos and meditate..cause if your not as stable as a person as me or some other people its very hard to manage time. just do as good as you can and meditate as much as possible
i know youll get through with what ever your going through cause we satanists are strong willed people and we get through what ever we have to to better our selfs
HAIL SATAN!!!

 

[solarsonia666]

"i know that you can get through what ever your going through"

Unless I somehow magically wake up the next morning as the opposite gender, the problem will never go away... I've thought of every solution to my problem, and there is no escape.
Not being emotional, just.. waking up and realizing I'm in a lose-lose situation no matter what; for example, even if I did wake up opposite-gendered I would lose my fiance since he is straight... and personally so would I be if I was male.