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The guilt is getting to me!

shade000131 min to read

Is it alright to drop the Ritual's to banish a powerful entity currently bound to me?
I can't take it! But I can't take the guilt of standing idly by while other suffer through pain!
I do like the philosophy of helping yourself then helping the world… but the guilt is killing me!… this thing is killing me!… I am filled with all these voices and visions of other people constantly bulling me on every single thing necessary until I want to slice open my wrists! All these emotions all this thoughts there not mine!… but I don't know what to do… can't ask for help I'm destroying it… I've suffered this through this much and I am damned if someone else is going to step in and take the glory for my kill!… but I keep dropping the banishing ritual in favour for the Ritual's every waxing period because of the guilt!…

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#20

bro why are you charging up the enemy thoughtform?
screaming vibrations at it like a madman...

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#21

I think I may have been under heavy attack by the enemy… because after using Satan out loud and asking if I were under attack yesterday… I felt a warm glow and everything went away… even now… even today I don't feel like I did for the past 4 days… things are no longer way out of control!… I can use my logic again to dispel most of my problems… also I suppose the fact that I had being seeing faces and hearing voices far louder then usual screaming in my face should have tipped me off… but I had just restarted my banishing ritual and thought it was the spirit attached to me… but then again from other attempts it was wanning with ritual not increasing in strength… but I just keep telling my self it was getting desperate which is why it was getting stronger and pushing harder while I was getting weaker and pulling that knife closer… I hate the enemy!… besides Logics says for noobs such as myself we should focus on removing bindings, building defences and self love somewhat before focusing on Ritual's… well those of us that are completely disturbed… anyway… so think I will live be the meditation principle 1/4 Ritual's, 1/4 healing, building defences and 1/4 building material!… after all you gotta help your self before you can help the world!

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#22

Seriously, you need Satan now more than ever. There is proof from your past and present occurrences that you cannot accomplish geeting rid of this things alone. Father Satan will help you, guide you in all of your struggles. Focus on His sigil and pray to Him and/or perform the Invocation ritual. You never have to be alone. Being part of a Zevism is to work wjth Father Satan and the other Gods who guide us through our lives. Our purpose is greatly important, otherwise they wouldn't waste their time, energy, and emotion on us at all. What I mean is that you are important whether feel this way or not. There may be something you can do or achieve that no one else can. All of us are different and can do many variety of things. Don't sell yourself short. Call on Father and He will answer. In one way or another, all you have to do is listen and never doubt Him. Good luck.

HAIL FATHER SATAN FOREVER!!!

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