rimpytipy2
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I've notice something strange about myself in the past after I read "CONFESSIONS OF A JEW THE DEVASTATING RAMIFICATIONS OF PAUL OF TARSUS AND CHRISTIANITY IN DESTROYING ROMAN CIVILIZATION" on The Black Sun.
Here's a link if anyone who hasn't read it wants to read.
http://www.666blacksun.com/Jewish_Xianity.html
In the articale the jew says about spliting our personality one christian other pagan (Or satanist) which shocked me. When I was an Athiest right when I left crhistianity I had a thing where I'd talk to myself.
Now I'm not saying I had D.I.D (Some scientist say this mental inlessness doens't even exist) and I'm aware every person talks to themself every once in a while. But it was something strange like two things inside me.
There was a murderious side, a truthful side, and just plain me. When I was alone in my room I'd RANDOMLY have a conversation with myself but in diffrent voices. And when people are aorund it's like they'd have an argument in my head which really twisted my mind to a morbid facination of blood. In the murderious personality it's a bit dark and it always talked about how I should kill myself or someone else. My truthful side spoke calmly and told me to ignore my murderious side it'll only cause me pain. It kept telling me to learn the truth of the past and such. i am a person who loves to learn things that help me, the truth, or jsut intresting to know.
Ussualy after my talk with my two sides that night I'd always have the same dream. I'd dream I was in WWII and in a trench holding a German MP40 SMG. I look over the trench hear machine guns blazing behind me from fellow german lines. Ahead was a blur, but I remember hearing a gun shot and BAM I got a sharp pain to the head. Then I'd wake up in the middle of the night. I'd always remember how cold and wet it was in the dream. I'm not 100% sure if I was in a trench though, could of been a ditch big enoguh for about three to four people I'm guessing.
Then four months ago I found JOS and read through it, and it completely turned my way of thinking around. I been hearing rumors that if you have an intrest in the occult at a young age, it's possable you used occult teachings in the past. Everytime I'd ask someone here about it, they'd say yes it does.
I plan to do a past life progression sometime soon I'm still trying to do it. When I try I just keep getting the same dream I always get. I probably have to open my charkas more.
And I've also heard some intrests you have in this life could be from something in a past life. THIS year of school on the first trimester I took Spanish (I took french back in 8th grade and failed) and failed it miserably. But my second trimester I took German and was very good at it (However I failed cause in school I do good at first then loose motivation and stop trying which is a habit I'm trying to get over). Though right now I'm not too good at it I just know basic things. Only because I only worked about a third through the trimester of the class.
Anyways, when I did the dedication ritual, it didn't happen right away but my murderious side went away in about just a week or two. My truthful helping side pretty much settled my personality and still does.
I'm guessing that my murderious side was created when I became christian. It destroyed my childhood, got me into many many arguments with parents, and eventualy a psychiatrist. Which didn't help at all he just kept telling to get spiritually closer to so called 'christ' which obviously just make it worse. And another bovious thing we all know there's nothing spiritual about christianity.
Another thing I'm guessing I possably was a german soilder in WWII (Though I'm not 100% so I'm not surprise if I wasn't) possably the easrtern front against Americans, Bristish, and the French Rebels. I'm not sure which and also I'm American now.
Anyways jsut tell me what you all think.
Here's a link if anyone who hasn't read it wants to read.
http://www.666blacksun.com/Jewish_Xianity.html
In the articale the jew says about spliting our personality one christian other pagan (Or satanist) which shocked me. When I was an Athiest right when I left crhistianity I had a thing where I'd talk to myself.
Now I'm not saying I had D.I.D (Some scientist say this mental inlessness doens't even exist) and I'm aware every person talks to themself every once in a while. But it was something strange like two things inside me.
There was a murderious side, a truthful side, and just plain me. When I was alone in my room I'd RANDOMLY have a conversation with myself but in diffrent voices. And when people are aorund it's like they'd have an argument in my head which really twisted my mind to a morbid facination of blood. In the murderious personality it's a bit dark and it always talked about how I should kill myself or someone else. My truthful side spoke calmly and told me to ignore my murderious side it'll only cause me pain. It kept telling me to learn the truth of the past and such. i am a person who loves to learn things that help me, the truth, or jsut intresting to know.
Ussualy after my talk with my two sides that night I'd always have the same dream. I'd dream I was in WWII and in a trench holding a German MP40 SMG. I look over the trench hear machine guns blazing behind me from fellow german lines. Ahead was a blur, but I remember hearing a gun shot and BAM I got a sharp pain to the head. Then I'd wake up in the middle of the night. I'd always remember how cold and wet it was in the dream. I'm not 100% sure if I was in a trench though, could of been a ditch big enoguh for about three to four people I'm guessing.
Then four months ago I found JOS and read through it, and it completely turned my way of thinking around. I been hearing rumors that if you have an intrest in the occult at a young age, it's possable you used occult teachings in the past. Everytime I'd ask someone here about it, they'd say yes it does.
I plan to do a past life progression sometime soon I'm still trying to do it. When I try I just keep getting the same dream I always get. I probably have to open my charkas more.
And I've also heard some intrests you have in this life could be from something in a past life. THIS year of school on the first trimester I took Spanish (I took french back in 8th grade and failed) and failed it miserably. But my second trimester I took German and was very good at it (However I failed cause in school I do good at first then loose motivation and stop trying which is a habit I'm trying to get over). Though right now I'm not too good at it I just know basic things. Only because I only worked about a third through the trimester of the class.
Anyways, when I did the dedication ritual, it didn't happen right away but my murderious side went away in about just a week or two. My truthful helping side pretty much settled my personality and still does.
I'm guessing that my murderious side was created when I became christian. It destroyed my childhood, got me into many many arguments with parents, and eventualy a psychiatrist. Which didn't help at all he just kept telling to get spiritually closer to so called 'christ' which obviously just make it worse. And another bovious thing we all know there's nothing spiritual about christianity.
Another thing I'm guessing I possably was a german soilder in WWII (Though I'm not 100% so I'm not surprise if I wasn't) possably the easrtern front against Americans, Bristish, and the French Rebels. I'm not sure which and also I'm American now.
Anyways jsut tell me what you all think.
