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ShadowTheRaven said:So is that something I should really do? Just envision myself at my strongest or however I wanna be? My "final form" if you will?
Yeah, always envision yourself at your best. Know in your future that you will complete the Magnum Opus and go even further. Like everyone is saying, just keep doing your best. Your concerns are valid, but you are not the only one with those limitations. You can only work within those boundaries and at a pace at which is sustainable.
After Aug. 5th, consider making a thread about your day and we can look at what you spend time on and where you could find more time for yourself.
For me, for example, I have recently blocked all forms of distractions that used to waste my time, such as youtube and video games, and any phone apps. This makes it much easier to do relatively "boring" stuff such as chores or my meditations. Additionally, I have been doing anti-procrastination hypnosis to make me use my time more efficiently. My point is there are a lot of methods of attack you can use.
With a 9-5 job or school commitment, you will want to put as much stuff off onto the weekend as you can. On the weekend, your 9-5 that day will be cleaning, organizing, heavy studying of the forum or astrology or whatever, laundry, or any other domestic tasks you can put off. I don't know what other sort of commitments you have at home, but for me, the only other daily tasks are minor cleaning, studying, cooking, exercise and dealing with my cat. If something comes up during the work week that I have to address, I cut out any cleaning, studying, and other small chores that I possibly can to preserve my meditation routine (and sleep schedule).
Consistent meditation is hard because you need a similar amount of time each day, every day. Since the schedule of meditation cannot easily bend, one must therefore bend everything else around it as best as you can. Maxine said, in one of her audio sermons, that she did a lot of studying while at her job, for example. This would give her more time off the job for studying and ministry work.
You seem pretty stressed about this all, but you have to stay calm and keep trying. You are not the only one in this situation, and remember that the Gods know your struggle and limitations. The best you can do is keep up a sustainable progression every day. It is hard now due to the increasing ritual workload, but it is only temporary. Keep your helmet on and keep fighting, and the conditions around you will eventually improve. The world will change rapidly before the Gods arrive, not just when they do. We have a lot to look forward to, so stay positive!