I am not sure what prodded me to seek out Satanism, but here I am. This urge manifested itself very clearly this past Saturday. It has taken me until now to act on it.
I do not know much about Satanism, but I have read some of the information on the Joy of Satan website. This is really new territory for me, and I am unsure of my footing.
Life has wounded me deeply, as it does many. I am tired of suffering at the hands of my enemies, and have come to believe that revenge may be what I seek. Many persons have hurt me, and many persons continue to hurt me.
Many of these sadistic individuals are Christians. I am not a Christian, although I was raised in a fundamentalist Christian environment, and still have regular contact with "mainline" Christians. Some, mostly the mean ones, are very fundamentalistic; others, mostly the nice ones are very liberal and loving persons.
I guess I am looking for some kind of contact with Satanists, who might be willing to guide me in my spiritual search, particularly this realization that revenge is preferable to forgiveness.
This urge feels primal and, somehow, very instinctive, and I am wondering if anyone has some advice or guidance on this recent manifestation within me.
I have been sick on and off for about a month with some kind of flu. Tonight, laying feverish in my bed, I instinctively prayed to Satan, asking him to defend and love me. I imagined him as a beautiful, strong, male figure embracing me with comfort and imparting strength and warmth to my worn and wounded body and soul.
I never, ever imagined myself praying to Satan, and I am seeking some guidance or, at the least, someone to help me navigate this very new territory.
I do not know much about Satanism, but I have read some of the information on the Joy of Satan website. This is really new territory for me, and I am unsure of my footing.
Life has wounded me deeply, as it does many. I am tired of suffering at the hands of my enemies, and have come to believe that revenge may be what I seek. Many persons have hurt me, and many persons continue to hurt me.
Many of these sadistic individuals are Christians. I am not a Christian, although I was raised in a fundamentalist Christian environment, and still have regular contact with "mainline" Christians. Some, mostly the mean ones, are very fundamentalistic; others, mostly the nice ones are very liberal and loving persons.
I guess I am looking for some kind of contact with Satanists, who might be willing to guide me in my spiritual search, particularly this realization that revenge is preferable to forgiveness.
This urge feels primal and, somehow, very instinctive, and I am wondering if anyone has some advice or guidance on this recent manifestation within me.
I have been sick on and off for about a month with some kind of flu. Tonight, laying feverish in my bed, I instinctively prayed to Satan, asking him to defend and love me. I imagined him as a beautiful, strong, male figure embracing me with comfort and imparting strength and warmth to my worn and wounded body and soul.
I never, ever imagined myself praying to Satan, and I am seeking some guidance or, at the least, someone to help me navigate this very new territory.
