Second thoughts...

[prize_check]

Hi all,

First of all, i would like to say that this is my first post on this group so please excuse any mistakes i might make regarding satanism as i myself am relatively new to this.

I come from a hardcore orthodox family with church and everyday prayer to the jewish jehova being a vital part in everyday life. Once my mother figured out that something was wrong with me, she practically launched a massive attack against me, using whatever means possible, including psychic attacks as she once had every monk of an entire monastery praying just for me to ...return to the "right" path. As you can imagine, this was a huge nuisance to my magick workings as i got very easily distracted and even began to have second thoughts regarding my dedication ritual which would then manifest and become enhanced by several unfortunate events following an attempt on initiation. I even once accidentally(?) stabbed myself in the hand while i was planning my dedication ritual and, as a result, had to put it off until later! xP.

What i am asking for now is whether there is actually a way for me to shield myself from her prayers and, eventually, from doubt so that i may begin to advance in satanism undistracted

Any help would be greatly appreciated.

Thanks in advance.

Hail Enki!

 

[Joshua1]

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Hi all,

First of all, i would like to say that this is my first post on this group so please excuse any mistakes i might make regarding satanism as i myself am relatively new to this.

I come from a hardcore orthodox family with church and everyday prayer to the jewish jehova being a vital part in everyday life. Once my mother figured out that something was wrong with me, she practically launched a massive attack against me, using whatever means possible, including psychic attacks as she once had every monk of an entire monastery praying just for me to ...return to the "right" path. As you can imagine, this was a huge nuisance to my magick workings as i got very easily distracted and even began to have second thoughts regarding my dedication ritual which would then manifest and become enhanced by several unfortunate events following an attempt on initiation. I even once accidentally(?) stabbed myself in the hand while i was planning my dedication ritual and, as a result, had to put it off until later! xP.

What i am asking for now is whether there is actually a way for me to shield myself from her prayers and, eventually, from doubt so that i may begin to advance in satanism undistracted

Any help would be greatly appreciated.

Thanks in advance.

Hail Enki!

i think that void meditation aides in ignoring distraction. i would do this as a temporary solution. and perhaps meditate for a bit on the idea of satanism building it up in your head defending it against attack. and teachin your mother about satanism a censored version might i add may be a good idea, perhaps some history like the sumerians. and the fact that satan is just todays name for a god which precedes her religion, anf as such is not necassarily the evil entity her church makes her see. (as he predates it of course.)