Just a rant, I’m relapsing from my last problem.
I’m sick of trying for nothing. I’m done... and Satan does not care.
I’ve been asking for an incubus for years now... after everything I’ve done for him.. I get nothing! I know that sounds selfish, but I have never asked Satan for anything other than an incubus.
Everyone would benefit I he would send me someone.. I would be at my best, and I would do max warfare/meditations for Satan, more than I’ve ever done
But that does not interest Satan apparently. He would rather I give up and die than be happy with an incubus.
Now I have no value to Satan. Everything I’ve done for him over the years has been pointless and meaningless.
I’ve meditated and done better, then when he still refuses to help me, I give up, try again do better, he still refuses.. I give up...etc over and over an over again! I’m sick of it! It clearly does not matter if I meditate or not... Satan will never alllow me an incubus. Especially since that’s what I need most in my life at this time. He just... does not care. Why should he..he has everything. I have nothing despite dedicating years of my life to HIM. It’s just not fair anymore.
I’m back to breathing in gray energy daily. Satan has made it clear he does not care.
Satan doesn’t care about me
jenmarth132 min to read
I have been having issues with my phone and dk if my response was sent or not so i am responding again.
I understand this is a vent but youre acting very immature.. Tantruming cause father wont give you what you want. You sound like a child who only cares about what they want and screw everyone else. This isnt the 1st time i have seen you complain. You will get an incubus when father things your ready and not a second before. It may happen today, tomorrow, 20 years from now or never. You should try to trust in what father wants for you, after all, he knows bestHail SatanMel
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I have been having issues with my phone and dk if my response was sent or not so i am responding again.
I understand this is a vent but youre acting very immature.. Tantruming cause father wont give you what you want. You sound like a child who only cares about what they want and screw everyone else. This isnt the 1st time i have seen you complain. You will get an incubus when father things your ready and not a second before. It may happen today, tomorrow, 20 years from now or never. You should try to trust in what father wants for you, after all, he knows bestHail SatanMel
Obviously it would not be safe whatsoever but I wish there was just a Satanic dating service or something. I am more of the opinion that it's more realistic and safe enough to just date normal people who are without or have mild interest and ween them into accepting it in you. The thing is that it's just so hard to connect with people at a really deep level.
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Obviously it would not be safe whatsoever but I wish there was just a Satanic dating service or something. I am more of the opinion that it's more realistic and safe enough to just date normal people who are without or have mild interest and ween them into accepting it in you. The thing is that it's just so hard to connect with people at a really deep level.
Jen you are just not the only one. That's it. The rest of us don't complain to this extent, but trust me we get it, it's lonely, and it's harder to keep going than we all thought when we started. But I believe in you, and I think you'll get out of this rut and you will adapt. Nobody wants to be with the person who will "just take anybody", Demons don't either. It's okay to ask, "How do you deal with loneliness?" but don't make it seem like you have lovecancer and threaten to kill yourself if we can't convince you that life is a beautiful playground. Just trust me in a while you'll look back with embarrassment at this post and see that you just hit a breaking point and that was it, it literally happens to the best of us. Just take care of yourself... you might have better luck if you do
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Jen you are just not the only one. That's it. The rest of us don't complain to this extent, but trust me we get it, it's lonely, and it's harder to keep going than we all thought when we started. But I believe in you, and I think you'll get out of this rut and you will adapt. Nobody wants to be with the person who will "just take anybody", Demons don't either. It's okay to ask, "How do you deal with loneliness?" but don't make it seem like you have lovecancer and threaten to kill yourself if we can't convince you that life is a beautiful playground. Just trust me in a while you'll look back with embarrassment at this post and see that you just hit a breaking point and that was it, it literally happens to the best of us. Just take care of yourself... you might have better luck if you do
Stop being a child man grow up satan won't come at your beck and call
Hail
Satan
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Stop being a child man grow up satan won't come at your beck and call
Hail
Satan
The fact is the enemy will try and make you feel this way. Satan does care, however you have connected the concept of Satan's care, to this one and only thing only. And if you do not receive this one thing the way you desire right now you become demoralized from this. Satan's care is not depended this, that is the condition you have placed upon this yourself only and this is a false condition. Think about that and be well.
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The fact is the enemy will try and make you feel this way. Satan does care, however you have connected the concept of Satan's care, to this one and only thing only. And if you do not receive this one thing the way you desire right now you become demoralized from this. Satan's care is not depended this, that is the condition you have placed upon this yourself only and this is a false condition. Think about that and be well.
It's an entity that grants wishes I think
Hail
Satan
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It's an entity that grants wishes I think
Hail
Satan
Apologies; I meant not that the djinn themselves are stupid or
foolish. They are not. But they *are* lesser entities. Father himself
told me. "We are NOT like the djinn. We serve a higher fire". Those
were his precise words to me on the matter, because I was confused.
On 4/12/19, [ email redacted ] [JoyofSatan666]
wrote:
Djinni are like the arab name for demons.
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Apologies; I meant not that the djinn themselves are stupid or
foolish. They are not. But they *are* lesser entities. Father himself
told me. "We are NOT like the djinn. We serve a higher fire". Those
were his precise words to me on the matter, because I was confused.
On 4/12/19, [ email redacted ] [JoyofSatan666]
wrote:
Djinni are like the arab name for demons.
I never knew this. Thanks for the info sister.
Hi ed7784,
Here is a link from Wikipedia:I know Wikipedia is not the most "scholarly" choice but this article gives a basic overview from different religions and other paths.
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I never knew this. Thanks for the info sister.
Hi ed7784,
Here is a link from Wikipedia:I know Wikipedia is not the most "scholarly" choice but this article gives a basic overview from different religions and other paths.
Allison how are you dear? So good to see one who has been here perhaps as long as I have. That messagefrom 2011 had you in it. Remember how differnt things were?
Ive been here since 2005. So that was the future but is now definetely the past. While so many have fallen away, entire groups full of people, but where are they now? Only so few have been here a while.
Some that have argued with me or have been my friends right here. Some whos names others would recognize and go oh yeah where did they go!? I can name at least 3 such people and everyone wouldget excited until i tell them i knowfor a fact they are catholic now.
Others have become anti JOS. Some names that people would never imagine doing this. Even some clergy would be shocked and dissapointed. But im not here to humiliate anyone.
Then we had ones everyone knows about. Such as the whole teloc and redtail. Who could come back if they would stop trying to create disunity.
You disappear for 2 years here and very few will know you when you get back. This happened to me. So to see one of the very few who could stand as a Satanist for so long, is very encouraging.
A message to those here today. Being a Satanist is only for the strong. Ive heard others say that I have been cursed. But ofcourse. The enemy has tried in everyway to shake me and remove me. Sometimes I lose my mind, sometimes like recently they try to turn me into a white lighter one Love spiritualist.
But the problem for them is im just too god damn stubborn. I keep coming back stronger. Thats the differnce between me and others here that have been way smarter then me, have been more talented then me and yet where are they?
For members like myself and allison, we are bull headed. You see I have hit the ground more times then I can imagine. If youre expecting the Gods to come hand you everything, think again. Or that you will just take off and excel in meditation and everything else, no.
I have failed repeatedely. I could not breathe at all for about 17 years. Thats why thegasping or coughing in my vids. I wouldhold my breath long enough to try to talk. Ive struggled with money and health. Ive slept on a hard wood floor with a pillowfor 2 months. Trying to support other satanists in person, i could have left at any time.
Weve waited years and years just for decent meditations and rituals to combat the enemy. So if you think you fail alot, then welcome to life. What matters is that you pick yourself up again. And again and again. Never surrender.
When you notice you have gone off, try again. With my birth chart and im sure many here, it says we do not come into our own till our 30s. After our first saturn return.
I have finally been rewarded with being able to breathe and freedom from the health problems. Now i understand it intricately. Its through the years of suffering that we gain wisdom.
If one cannot handle to wait and put their lives in Satans hands, then so be it, leave. You wont be the first and you wont be the last. Satan tests us and makes us stronger.
We all have the potential to be Gods and meet the Gods in 20 years. That is a very small price to pay. Even if it was 40 years. Even if you have to suffer and not get what you want. It is a small price to pay for an Eternity of getting everything you could ever imagine.
So how do we want to be known as? Children who complained our way to godhead. Or warriors that said my life is for you Satan. Direct it.
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Allison how are you dear? So good to see one who has been here perhaps as long as I have. That messagefrom 2011 had you in it. Remember how differnt things were?
Ive been here since 2005. So that was the future but is now definetely the past. While so many have fallen away, entire groups full of people, but where are they now? Only so few have been here a while.
Some that have argued with me or have been my friends right here. Some whos names others would recognize and go oh yeah where did they go!? I can name at least 3 such people and everyone wouldget excited until i tell them i knowfor a fact they are catholic now.
Others have become anti JOS. Some names that people would never imagine doing this. Even some clergy would be shocked and dissapointed. But im not here to humiliate anyone.
Then we had ones everyone knows about. Such as the whole teloc and redtail. Who could come back if they would stop trying to create disunity.
You disappear for 2 years here and very few will know you when you get back. This happened to me. So to see one of the very few who could stand as a Satanist for so long, is very encouraging.
A message to those here today. Being a Satanist is only for the strong. Ive heard others say that I have been cursed. But ofcourse. The enemy has tried in everyway to shake me and remove me. Sometimes I lose my mind, sometimes like recently they try to turn me into a white lighter one Love spiritualist.
But the problem for them is im just too god damn stubborn. I keep coming back stronger. Thats the differnce between me and others here that have been way smarter then me, have been more talented then me and yet where are they?
For members like myself and allison, we are bull headed. You see I have hit the ground more times then I can imagine. If youre expecting the Gods to come hand you everything, think again. Or that you will just take off and excel in meditation and everything else, no.
I have failed repeatedely. I could not breathe at all for about 17 years. Thats why thegasping or coughing in my vids. I wouldhold my breath long enough to try to talk. Ive struggled with money and health. Ive slept on a hard wood floor with a pillowfor 2 months. Trying to support other satanists in person, i could have left at any time.
Weve waited years and years just for decent meditations and rituals to combat the enemy. So if you think you fail alot, then welcome to life. What matters is that you pick yourself up again. And again and again. Never surrender.
When you notice you have gone off, try again. With my birth chart and im sure many here, it says we do not come into our own till our 30s. After our first saturn return.
I have finally been rewarded with being able to breathe and freedom from the health problems. Now i understand it intricately. Its through the years of suffering that we gain wisdom.
If one cannot handle to wait and put their lives in Satans hands, then so be it, leave. You wont be the first and you wont be the last. Satan tests us and makes us stronger.
We all have the potential to be Gods and meet the Gods in 20 years. That is a very small price to pay. Even if it was 40 years. Even if you have to suffer and not get what you want. It is a small price to pay for an Eternity of getting everything you could ever imagine.
So how do we want to be known as? Children who complained our way to godhead. Or warriors that said my life is for you Satan. Direct it.
Very well said. Hail Satan!
Ive been here since 2005. So that was the future but is now definetely the past. While so many have fallen away, entire groups full of people, but where are they now? Only so few have been here a while.
Some that have argued with me or have been my friends right here. Some whos names others would recognize and go oh yeah where did they go!? I can name at least 3 such people and everyone wouldget excited until i tell them i knowfor a fact they are catholic now.
Others have become anti JOS. Some names that people would never imagine doing this. Even some clergy would be shocked and dissapointed. But im not here to humiliate anyone.
Then we had ones everyone knows about. Such as the whole teloc and redtail. Who could come back if they would stop trying to create disunity.
You disappear for 2 years here and very few will know you when you get back. This happened to me. So to see one of the very few who could stand as a Satanist for so long, is very encouraging.
A message to those here today. Being a Satanist is only for the strong. Ive heard others say that I have been cursed. But ofcourse. The enemy has tried in everyway to shake me and remove me. Sometimes I lose my mind, sometimes like recently they try to turn me into a white lighter one Love spiritualist.
But the problem for them is im just too god damn stubborn. I keep coming back stronger. Thats the differnce between me and others here that have been way smarter then me, have been more talented then me and yet where are they?
For members like myself and allison, we are bull headed. You see I have hit the ground more times then I can imagine. If youre expecting the Gods to come hand you everything, think again.. Or that you will just take off and excel in meditation and everything else, no.
I have failed repeatedely. I could not breathe at all for about 17 years. Thats why thegasping or coughing in my vids. I wouldhold my breath long enough to try to talk. Ive struggled with money and health. Ive slept on a hard wood floor with a pillowfor 2 months. Trying to support other satanists in person, i could have left at any time.
Weve waited years and years just for decent meditations and rituals to combat the enemy. So if you think you fail alot, then welcome to life. What matters is that you pick yourself up again. And again and again. Never surrender.
When you notice you have gone off, try again. With my birth chart and im sure many here, it says we do not come into our own till our 30s. After our first saturn return.
I have finally been rewarded with being able to breathe and freedom from the health problems. Now i understand it intricately. Its through the years of suffering that we gain wisdom.
If one cannot handle to wait and put their lives in Satans hands, then so be it, leave. You wont be the first and you wont be the last. Satan tests us and makes us stronger.
We all have the potential to be Gods and meet the Gods in 20 years. That is a very small price to pay. Even if it was 40 years. Even if you have to suffer and not get what you want. It is a small price to pay for an Eternity of getting everything you could ever imagine.
So how do we want to be known as? Children who complained our way to godhead. Or warriors that said my life is for you Satan. Direct it.
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Very well said. Hail Satan!
Ive been here since 2005. So that was the future but is now definetely the past. While so many have fallen away, entire groups full of people, but where are they now? Only so few have been here a while.
Some that have argued with me or have been my friends right here. Some whos names others would recognize and go oh yeah where did they go!? I can name at least 3 such people and everyone wouldget excited until i tell them i knowfor a fact they are catholic now.
Others have become anti JOS. Some names that people would never imagine doing this. Even some clergy would be shocked and dissapointed. But im not here to humiliate anyone.
Then we had ones everyone knows about. Such as the whole teloc and redtail. Who could come back if they would stop trying to create disunity.
You disappear for 2 years here and very few will know you when you get back. This happened to me. So to see one of the very few who could stand as a Satanist for so long, is very encouraging.
A message to those here today. Being a Satanist is only for the strong. Ive heard others say that I have been cursed. But ofcourse. The enemy has tried in everyway to shake me and remove me. Sometimes I lose my mind, sometimes like recently they try to turn me into a white lighter one Love spiritualist.
But the problem for them is im just too god damn stubborn. I keep coming back stronger. Thats the differnce between me and others here that have been way smarter then me, have been more talented then me and yet where are they?
For members like myself and allison, we are bull headed. You see I have hit the ground more times then I can imagine. If youre expecting the Gods to come hand you everything, think again.. Or that you will just take off and excel in meditation and everything else, no.
I have failed repeatedely. I could not breathe at all for about 17 years. Thats why thegasping or coughing in my vids. I wouldhold my breath long enough to try to talk. Ive struggled with money and health. Ive slept on a hard wood floor with a pillowfor 2 months. Trying to support other satanists in person, i could have left at any time.
Weve waited years and years just for decent meditations and rituals to combat the enemy. So if you think you fail alot, then welcome to life. What matters is that you pick yourself up again. And again and again. Never surrender.
When you notice you have gone off, try again. With my birth chart and im sure many here, it says we do not come into our own till our 30s. After our first saturn return.
I have finally been rewarded with being able to breathe and freedom from the health problems. Now i understand it intricately. Its through the years of suffering that we gain wisdom.
If one cannot handle to wait and put their lives in Satans hands, then so be it, leave. You wont be the first and you wont be the last. Satan tests us and makes us stronger.
We all have the potential to be Gods and meet the Gods in 20 years. That is a very small price to pay. Even if it was 40 years. Even if you have to suffer and not get what you want. It is a small price to pay for an Eternity of getting everything you could ever imagine.
So how do we want to be known as? Children who complained our way to godhead. Or warriors that said my life is for you Satan. Direct it.
Its Al Jilwah Dear. The Black Book Of Satan.
https://www.templeofzeus.org/www.angelfir ... rines.html
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Its Al Jilwah Dear. The Black Book Of Satan.
https://www.templeofzeus.org/www.angelfir ... rines.html
I’m dealing with that feeling too. Just hang in there.
We can’t be the only ones that experience this.PEAcE
Satan is busy
From: on behalf of nyeshabryant@... [JoyofSatan666]
Sent: April 19, 2019 12:35:39 PM
To:
Subject: Re: Re: S atan doesn’t care about me Did yoga and meditation today
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I’m dealing with that feeling too. Just hang in there.
We can’t be the only ones that experience this.PEAcE
Satan is busy
From: on behalf of nyeshabryant@... [JoyofSatan666]
Sent: April 19, 2019 12:35:39 PM
To:
Subject: Re: Re: S atan doesn’t care about me Did yoga and meditation today