fap69yourmother
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On jan 29-30 I performed a ritual to Summon a Demon. It was the link of JoS that I found through google, and within the respective page it wasn't mentioned that I had to be a dedicated Satanist or anything, just instructions on how to summon a Demon, so I performed it before I dedicated.During the ritual, I felt something not too vivid, for I couldn't tell if it was just my imagination and/or reflex to fear of unknown, or if it was the bioelectricity of a Demon or Satan. I felt my body warming up, my eyelids pulsating and a little electrified.
A couple days after the ritual, I got tinnitus, a medical condition where you cannot experience silence for you have a constant ringing in your head, I still have it today. I don't know what caused it, for when I went to 2 doctors a week after it started, they couldn't find anything wrong with my ears (normally when one has this condition they can find something wrong with your ears).
A few hours after I got tinnitus, so a couple days after the ritual, in the morning, I think I got visited by an entity, but I don't know if it was that, or if it was a hallucination caused by my tinnitus. After I got the tinnitus right before I had to go to bed, I couldn't fall asleep because the ringing would head my head/brain up and would wake me every 1 hour and a half. At some point, because I couldn't relax no matter what, I masturbated without coming and I finally fell asleep around 9:30am in the morning (I tend to check clock as reflex right before I feel like I'm falling asleep). Somewhere before 10am (coz it was exactly 10am when I "woke up"), I started to experience a pleasing sensation associated with a very vivid physical touch that turned later into a hug, for some reason it felt as if I got hugged by someone I know so I didn't react right away, but one sec later I got licked in my left ear (where I hear the tinnitus) and that startled me and I tried to touch whatever was on me, opened my eyes, but nothing was there. I heard a playful laughter before I opened my eyes so I thought that maybe I can communicate.
I turned sideways after I "woke up" (not really a sleep) at 10am,, and the feeling and touch returned, it felt like someone hugged me from behind, this time I tried to remain calm and to communicate instead of getting up, like telling the entity to touch my right shoulder, but it didn't work. Given I was already in that situation, where a connection happened, I wonder why it didn't work.Because this time I stood still instead of waking up, I fell asleep and woke up at around noon.
The tinnitus remains with me even today, and the non-stop ringing is very disturbing. I've been told by the doctors it should go away in a couple of weeks, but it's been over a month now.
A few days after the incident, after reading some more, I dedicated, I felt nothing during the ritual.
Since then, I've been doing constant meditations and empowering multiple times per day, tried some spiritual warfare, and tried a few rituals to attempt to communicate with Lord Satan and The Demons. No success so far.
A couple weeks later, I've had another such vivid experience (but felt a little less vivid and pleasing) where I was actually awake and just relaxed, where the same entity as before I could feel on me, but this time, it felt as if the entity breathed and a gush of energy went inside of me (might have been the entity themselves? after the energy got released from the mouth, the entity vanished, so idk), and the moment it went inside of me, my neck started tingling in vibration as if it got striked and I got up coughing violently.
I've been left with a non-stop ringing that gets louder when I experience a loud ringing noise from the outside, and for some reason, despite the connection happening once, the same experience cannot be repeated, even tho now I should be either as open as back then, or more open due to the training. The ringing stole away my silence, and I was resting in this silence, recovering from the depression I've had my entire life. But now that recovering place is gone... and I am not able to get any response from anyone. At least if I knew it was for a good reason, I would have a reason to resist, but this way I just become more and more insane everyday. I can't even tell anymore of the ringing is what caused me to have a hallucination or if something was really there, but I do recall fully believing that something was actually there before it became an event more distant in the past.
A couple days after the ritual, I got tinnitus, a medical condition where you cannot experience silence for you have a constant ringing in your head, I still have it today. I don't know what caused it, for when I went to 2 doctors a week after it started, they couldn't find anything wrong with my ears (normally when one has this condition they can find something wrong with your ears).
A few hours after I got tinnitus, so a couple days after the ritual, in the morning, I think I got visited by an entity, but I don't know if it was that, or if it was a hallucination caused by my tinnitus. After I got the tinnitus right before I had to go to bed, I couldn't fall asleep because the ringing would head my head/brain up and would wake me every 1 hour and a half. At some point, because I couldn't relax no matter what, I masturbated without coming and I finally fell asleep around 9:30am in the morning (I tend to check clock as reflex right before I feel like I'm falling asleep). Somewhere before 10am (coz it was exactly 10am when I "woke up"), I started to experience a pleasing sensation associated with a very vivid physical touch that turned later into a hug, for some reason it felt as if I got hugged by someone I know so I didn't react right away, but one sec later I got licked in my left ear (where I hear the tinnitus) and that startled me and I tried to touch whatever was on me, opened my eyes, but nothing was there. I heard a playful laughter before I opened my eyes so I thought that maybe I can communicate.
I turned sideways after I "woke up" (not really a sleep) at 10am,, and the feeling and touch returned, it felt like someone hugged me from behind, this time I tried to remain calm and to communicate instead of getting up, like telling the entity to touch my right shoulder, but it didn't work. Given I was already in that situation, where a connection happened, I wonder why it didn't work.Because this time I stood still instead of waking up, I fell asleep and woke up at around noon.
The tinnitus remains with me even today, and the non-stop ringing is very disturbing. I've been told by the doctors it should go away in a couple of weeks, but it's been over a month now.
A few days after the incident, after reading some more, I dedicated, I felt nothing during the ritual.
Since then, I've been doing constant meditations and empowering multiple times per day, tried some spiritual warfare, and tried a few rituals to attempt to communicate with Lord Satan and The Demons. No success so far.
A couple weeks later, I've had another such vivid experience (but felt a little less vivid and pleasing) where I was actually awake and just relaxed, where the same entity as before I could feel on me, but this time, it felt as if the entity breathed and a gush of energy went inside of me (might have been the entity themselves? after the energy got released from the mouth, the entity vanished, so idk), and the moment it went inside of me, my neck started tingling in vibration as if it got striked and I got up coughing violently.
I've been left with a non-stop ringing that gets louder when I experience a loud ringing noise from the outside, and for some reason, despite the connection happening once, the same experience cannot be repeated, even tho now I should be either as open as back then, or more open due to the training. The ringing stole away my silence, and I was resting in this silence, recovering from the depression I've had my entire life. But now that recovering place is gone... and I am not able to get any response from anyone. At least if I knew it was for a good reason, I would have a reason to resist, but this way I just become more and more insane everyday. I can't even tell anymore of the ringing is what caused me to have a hallucination or if something was really there, but I do recall fully believing that something was actually there before it became an event more distant in the past.
