luka.huijerman
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I'm not really writing this post with a particular question in mind, but I don't have anybody whom I can talk to about this, so I'm just putting it here so that hopefully some of you can share your opinions on the matter and maybe give me some insight that I have overlooked.
I apologise in advance about the long post, like I said I don't have anybody else in the physical world whom I can say all this too, so I just kind of let it all out.. Anyways, if you read this and can relate I would love to read your story.
Recently after I started performing more satanic rituals me and my wife started to drift apart slowly but surely.. Currently we are having a break in our relationship and well she is sleeping with some other guy right now..
The thing is I understand where she is comming from and dispite the fact she is together with someone else right now we are still talking daily and she still carries strong feelings for me.
We live far appart and have been in a long distance relationship for almost 2 years, my financial situation has been making it increasingly difficult for us to see each other and I haven't been able to give her what I would like in our relationship.
She is a very dominant person, but kind at heart, however she was brought up by an orthodox family.. Her parents are still religious, she never believed in any religion, but ever since I came to satanism we have started getting issues. We visited each other frequently the past year for extended periods of time and know each other through and through. So dispite our situation I feel that eventually we will come back together, but I want to figure out a way to clear her mind from the enemy influence that is taken hold of her. I'm quite adept at working with energy and I have felt her energy and examined it very carefully when we were together, because of this I have come to the conclusion that her soul doesn't belong to the enemy, but her upbringing and the fact she is Russian and her grandmother has lived during the entire soviet times in Russia during stalins rule..
Her mother was brought up during the extra harsh times after world war 2 in the Tambov region.
She was quite troubled throughout her life and has a very stubborn mindset. She feels the same way about many things that we as Satanist follow, such as Racial seperation and that the power lies in the person itself. Most of the important truths we follow she agrees with, but she is still under influence of the jewish materialism.. Also she is currently too stubborn to see the jews are the true enemy..
I haven't been able to show her the various websites with the proof against the jews because she just like most other people who are without Satan won't be able to see and understand the facts stated there.. She also believes Satan is an evil being as that is ingrained in her mind because of her famelies religious background. I have been very subtly hinting too her how Satan is the true god of humanity and how the jews are our enemy, and have come fer close to open her mind to the truth, but since we have a long distance relationship I evertime we need to live seperatly the enemy simply reinforces all those lies once again and all the progress I have made to allow her to see the truth is completely reversed..
I know it is the enemy that doesn't want me to have her, and that it is them which is pushing us away from each other, especially now. We decided to take a temporary break in our relationship because we started having too many frustrations towards each other that even when using my energy I couldn't easily work around.. However she is now having sex with another guy, this guy being a mixed aryan jew. She doesn't know he's a mixed arjan jew, but for me it is blatantly clear on top of that his family consists of doctors and bankers who have connections with pissrael. Now some of you might want to say leave her alone, or let her go, and I have considered this, because I know it is easier for me to just detach myself from her and remove her from my life entirely, but I am a Scorpio ascendant, with a retrograde venus in scorpio.. So I just can't let the woman I married get taken by some filthy jewish piece of shit. I managed to stop myself from being hurt from loosing her and have started to focus on empowering myself now more than ever and have started performing daily death curses on the guy she is currently with.
It seems the enemy is trying very hard to make our lives difficult. I even suspect that they are using the fact I'm a retrograde venus scorpio ascendant against me by putting me in this situation. I know I can still over come this problem of not being able to let go and being hopelessly in love with a person, but I have decided I don't want to detach her from my life because I cannot afford to see her get taken from me by some filthy jewshit. Honestly saying if it had been a strong aryan man with a satanic soul I would have probably let her go and be happy with somebody else, but this is a different matter entirely.
Have any of you experienced simmilar situations with relationships?
I know a primary way for the enemy to fight is to break up the family so the femenine and masculine powers stay seperated, this is exactly what they are trying to do with me and her now. She has a strong soul, but has been tought that you should never dable in things such as meditation. I often tried to heal her with my energy when she was having headaches or something, but I felt everytime I did this, even if it was secretly when she didn't know like when she was asleep there was a most disgusting energy around her blocking me out.
The longest we have ever been able to live together was for 3 months, because we couldn't get a visa for a longer period of time. In those 3 months she would unbeknowst to her change completely from a materialistic and very stressed angry and closeminded person to an open, calm and much more natural person, simply because of being around me. She knows I absoluutly hate the jews and doesn't opose my views, but she personally doesn't see anything wrong with them. She also knows I dispise religion and she agrees with me on this, but since her parents follow orthodox believes she still carries respect for it aslong as the people aren't retarded religious fanatics. She always feels bad when in a church though, she says it makes her feel uneasy and uncomfortable. She also likes the Norse gods and is very drawn to scandinavia as a whole, she loves everything there, especially finland and iceland. She has no problems with Pagan believes, but I haven't been able to make her understand that Father Satan and our gods are the same as the Norse Pagan gods.
I know that if we can live together for a year or so, perhaps even shorter everything would change drastically, but I am unable to live like a true satanic warrior when together with her because she isn't able to see the truth yet.. When we were together I would go jogging in the morning or evening to perform my reverse torah rituals.
So dispite the fact she isn't able to see the truth, I know her soul is of Satan unlike her family.. I asked my guardian demoness and she confirmed this for me. She also told me it would not be easy to live together with her and would take a lot out of me if I really want to take this route, she has also adviced against it but stated that if I do decide to go 100% for her she will assist me however she can and respect my dicision.
On the one hand me and her are like 2 parts of the same being, we fit together nearly perfectly, but on the other hand because of the enemy influence over her we are absoluut opposites.. After a while this opposite side softens up and her true self can come out but the enemy has a very tight grip on her at all times and since I am unable to perform as much power meditation as I would like to when together with her I often end up getting drained myself.. For now I have decided to curse that jewish piece of shit who is trying to take her away from me to death, and empower myself to such a point that when we see each other again which I know will happen this year still, I can instantly and completely banish any enemy influence and tip her over to our side just long enough to get the Satanic fire burning inside her. Once this flame is lit it never goes out. My GD has confirmed that if I manage that, it is only a matter of time before she is ready to see the truth and perform the dedication ritual herself.
It took me more than 3 years before I finally found Satan after getting interested in meditation, and even after I found the JOS website it took me 3 attemps before I was finally able to perform my dedication. However after I saw the JOS website for the first time, even though back then it all looked very foreign to me and I couldn't comprehend most of the knowledge (Thanks pissrael and jewshits) I kept comming back to it. Once the fire started burning it never stopped growing.
I apologise in advance about the long post, like I said I don't have anybody else in the physical world whom I can say all this too, so I just kind of let it all out.. Anyways, if you read this and can relate I would love to read your story.
Recently after I started performing more satanic rituals me and my wife started to drift apart slowly but surely.. Currently we are having a break in our relationship and well she is sleeping with some other guy right now..
The thing is I understand where she is comming from and dispite the fact she is together with someone else right now we are still talking daily and she still carries strong feelings for me.
We live far appart and have been in a long distance relationship for almost 2 years, my financial situation has been making it increasingly difficult for us to see each other and I haven't been able to give her what I would like in our relationship.
She is a very dominant person, but kind at heart, however she was brought up by an orthodox family.. Her parents are still religious, she never believed in any religion, but ever since I came to satanism we have started getting issues. We visited each other frequently the past year for extended periods of time and know each other through and through. So dispite our situation I feel that eventually we will come back together, but I want to figure out a way to clear her mind from the enemy influence that is taken hold of her. I'm quite adept at working with energy and I have felt her energy and examined it very carefully when we were together, because of this I have come to the conclusion that her soul doesn't belong to the enemy, but her upbringing and the fact she is Russian and her grandmother has lived during the entire soviet times in Russia during stalins rule..
Her mother was brought up during the extra harsh times after world war 2 in the Tambov region.
She was quite troubled throughout her life and has a very stubborn mindset. She feels the same way about many things that we as Satanist follow, such as Racial seperation and that the power lies in the person itself. Most of the important truths we follow she agrees with, but she is still under influence of the jewish materialism.. Also she is currently too stubborn to see the jews are the true enemy..
I haven't been able to show her the various websites with the proof against the jews because she just like most other people who are without Satan won't be able to see and understand the facts stated there.. She also believes Satan is an evil being as that is ingrained in her mind because of her famelies religious background. I have been very subtly hinting too her how Satan is the true god of humanity and how the jews are our enemy, and have come fer close to open her mind to the truth, but since we have a long distance relationship I evertime we need to live seperatly the enemy simply reinforces all those lies once again and all the progress I have made to allow her to see the truth is completely reversed..
I know it is the enemy that doesn't want me to have her, and that it is them which is pushing us away from each other, especially now. We decided to take a temporary break in our relationship because we started having too many frustrations towards each other that even when using my energy I couldn't easily work around.. However she is now having sex with another guy, this guy being a mixed aryan jew. She doesn't know he's a mixed arjan jew, but for me it is blatantly clear on top of that his family consists of doctors and bankers who have connections with pissrael. Now some of you might want to say leave her alone, or let her go, and I have considered this, because I know it is easier for me to just detach myself from her and remove her from my life entirely, but I am a Scorpio ascendant, with a retrograde venus in scorpio.. So I just can't let the woman I married get taken by some filthy jewish piece of shit. I managed to stop myself from being hurt from loosing her and have started to focus on empowering myself now more than ever and have started performing daily death curses on the guy she is currently with.
It seems the enemy is trying very hard to make our lives difficult. I even suspect that they are using the fact I'm a retrograde venus scorpio ascendant against me by putting me in this situation. I know I can still over come this problem of not being able to let go and being hopelessly in love with a person, but I have decided I don't want to detach her from my life because I cannot afford to see her get taken from me by some filthy jewshit. Honestly saying if it had been a strong aryan man with a satanic soul I would have probably let her go and be happy with somebody else, but this is a different matter entirely.
Have any of you experienced simmilar situations with relationships?
I know a primary way for the enemy to fight is to break up the family so the femenine and masculine powers stay seperated, this is exactly what they are trying to do with me and her now. She has a strong soul, but has been tought that you should never dable in things such as meditation. I often tried to heal her with my energy when she was having headaches or something, but I felt everytime I did this, even if it was secretly when she didn't know like when she was asleep there was a most disgusting energy around her blocking me out.
The longest we have ever been able to live together was for 3 months, because we couldn't get a visa for a longer period of time. In those 3 months she would unbeknowst to her change completely from a materialistic and very stressed angry and closeminded person to an open, calm and much more natural person, simply because of being around me. She knows I absoluutly hate the jews and doesn't opose my views, but she personally doesn't see anything wrong with them. She also knows I dispise religion and she agrees with me on this, but since her parents follow orthodox believes she still carries respect for it aslong as the people aren't retarded religious fanatics. She always feels bad when in a church though, she says it makes her feel uneasy and uncomfortable. She also likes the Norse gods and is very drawn to scandinavia as a whole, she loves everything there, especially finland and iceland. She has no problems with Pagan believes, but I haven't been able to make her understand that Father Satan and our gods are the same as the Norse Pagan gods.
I know that if we can live together for a year or so, perhaps even shorter everything would change drastically, but I am unable to live like a true satanic warrior when together with her because she isn't able to see the truth yet.. When we were together I would go jogging in the morning or evening to perform my reverse torah rituals.
So dispite the fact she isn't able to see the truth, I know her soul is of Satan unlike her family.. I asked my guardian demoness and she confirmed this for me. She also told me it would not be easy to live together with her and would take a lot out of me if I really want to take this route, she has also adviced against it but stated that if I do decide to go 100% for her she will assist me however she can and respect my dicision.
On the one hand me and her are like 2 parts of the same being, we fit together nearly perfectly, but on the other hand because of the enemy influence over her we are absoluut opposites.. After a while this opposite side softens up and her true self can come out but the enemy has a very tight grip on her at all times and since I am unable to perform as much power meditation as I would like to when together with her I often end up getting drained myself.. For now I have decided to curse that jewish piece of shit who is trying to take her away from me to death, and empower myself to such a point that when we see each other again which I know will happen this year still, I can instantly and completely banish any enemy influence and tip her over to our side just long enough to get the Satanic fire burning inside her. Once this flame is lit it never goes out. My GD has confirmed that if I manage that, it is only a matter of time before she is ready to see the truth and perform the dedication ritual herself.
It took me more than 3 years before I finally found Satan after getting interested in meditation, and even after I found the JOS website it took me 3 attemps before I was finally able to perform my dedication. However after I saw the JOS website for the first time, even though back then it all looked very foreign to me and I couldn't comprehend most of the knowledge (Thanks pissrael and jewshits) I kept comming back to it. Once the fire started burning it never stopped growing.
