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[url=mailto:JoyofSatan666@yahoogroups.com]JoyofSatan666@yahoogroups.com[/url], james miller <jmiller4714@... wrote:
That is awesome, I was almost the same way. My whole family is still retardedly xian and forced me, nevertheless beat me as well to be a xian and go to church with them before i was old enough for the physical inability to defend myself to subside. Even then they still forced me to go, always screamed at me whenever I refused, they tried to make fights out of that a lot. The entire time I had a nasty feeling in my heart every time I went, it didn't feel right, it sparked anger in me as well aside from all the other kids throughout all the churches I went to being little disrespectful bitches to me and targeting me for no reason. Even though it didn't feel right at the time, ignorance is bliss, until your mind is opened further to know what really is, then hatred is unleashed 1000 fold out of realization that you as an individual were trying to be made a bitch ass slave who kisses everyones ass and then rots in their spare time to amount to nothing then die as nothing having your precious life force sapped by a parasitic piece of shit that the xians think is "god, jesus, the holy spirit, and the devil"- and being scared of them too. FUCK THAT!!!! FUCK THE ENEMY!!!!. And by the way at a certain point, which was around the age of 13-14 years old I started to realize and truly hate the foul program of xianity, the blissful ignorance faded as I lived life more and was then replaced with blissful truth of knowledge and furthering myself actively, loving life, indulging in my passions among other very positive things. Anyways with truth, the love of truth, knowledge, advancement and life itself in all it's complexity and to live it in any way you want with morality and responsibility is far more treasured than a half witted rotting mind that would sit and do near nothing their entire life like my family does, and what I would be doing if they and their jew overlords were successful. They will never be though, EVER, they have damned themselves to the hell they think exists, or in the kike's case, what they want people to believe. So near the ago of 16, I found JoS already seething with hatred for my parents, who they were, what they did to my Brother and Sister(in terms of treating them the same way, and scaring them time to time, making their relationship fear based so they always have control(which they still do and now my Brother and Sister are boring pawns)) who the enemy was in which I was slowly finding out too(at that point I already saw how fucked politics and the government were all over the world, the stupid shit in the media, etc all forms of control they use to this day through many means which I wont delve at the moment), who the younger ones like I were turning out around me(all the same, and I was ridiculed and made fun of a lot in highschool for how I dressed all 4 years(I used to dress preppy n shit up to the age 15 because my parents of course, then at 16 n 17 I started wearing whatever the fuck I wanted to and they couldn't do shit about it and I still do and never will stop
funny story to the day I started dressing different actually but I'll mention later), among many other things that had my blood boiling, for just reasons of course. So when i found JoS, my mind was blown open completely and I almost started crying reading everything i did, because the truth, something I strove to find was now found, no matter what any of my friends at the time had to say about it, I knew from that moment on intuitively even without reading the entire site, that I found the truth and comparably a fountain of knowledge. Just thinking back to that moment makes my heart ache a little because I was so joyous and happy I found what I did, not that I'm real impressionable because I need concrete knowledge to believe something and have faith, pride, and honor in the desire to believe it, but I found it and it was in front of my face the entire time. I didn't become an SS at first though, I still went through the site, and related sites and pieced everything together in my head, Lived life to the fullest and still am, peering at how sickly life has gotten for others, and how sickly our Earth is, how things have degenerated, among many other things that further reinforced what I studied on JoS and related links(astrology helped change my Life for the utmost better as well, and now I'm a master at it =D). On top of that, the power meditations worked the first day I sat down and tried them, working on my 3rd eye first I felt the pressure, my eyes were fluttering while they were shut, I felt the energy all over my body and especially my face, which was twitching like mad due to the new level of energy I hadn't experienced yet. It proved to me outright among many other things. Believe me theres so much to tell on the inbetween, i haven't even told everything that happened and what I know in the full timeline in what i just mentioned, but anyways I'd be writing a fat FAT essay if everyone wanted to know my entire life and how I was born Satanic as well. Many more experiences than you could imagine trust me. But anyways 2 years pass, I'm 18, looking at getting out of the gang I was in because there were a lot of xians, drunks, junkies, and just plain idiots that i didn't want to be around anymore, with only a few worthy of the God's knowledge. So January 8th comes, and I know that I should do it sooner than later, so I went out past 2 o clock in the morning and dedicated outside my house, noticed the flame get higher on my candle when the wind was blowing reasonably enough to blow it out even though the flame was standing straight up and high too. I knew Father and the Gods were watching over me at that point, I knew my dedication was a success and they had been waiting for me this entire time. I love them dearly already even though I'm just 11 months dedicated, they've done so much and I've tried to give back to them as much as I can and I'll still strive to do more for myself and them as they help me in life so so so so much and my respect, pride, honor, and joy for who they are and who we are us dedicated SSs.
I Love you Father!!
I Love you Azazel!!
I Love the True Gods of Duat!!
I Love Myself!!
I Love My Brethren!!
I Love life!!
I Love our Home Planet Earth!!
Truly and For Eternity!! <33
Death to the putrid existence of the right hand path and all associates working with them, they will suffer and I will strive to make their deaths as quick and painful as possible when I'm a god. The flashing blade of my future pole arm will being death with each swing and my energy thus forth will protect me and vaporize the enemy's who stand in my path of destruction the days before, during and after the Golden Dawn, the day our beautiful planet undergoes some of the most beautiful changes in human history. Ever.
HAILZ!
Your Loving Brother
Raven
The Dark Wind
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From: morticiasixx@...
Date: Sun, 14 Nov 2010 05:27:32 +0000
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] re: finding ur way here
ive been a satanist since i was eleven. my fam's catholic and i just never felt like i belonged there. father satan accepts me just as i am and doesnt want me to change like the xian god does. also i found the love and acceptance that i wasnt getting from my own fam. until the internet came along i was a "self-styled" devil-worshipper. i got bored one day, got the bright idea to google satan, and found a bunch of websites. the only one that spoke to my heart was the jos. it just felt so right that i realized i found the group ive been looking for all my life. i joined the group and havent looked back since. and thats how i got here.
