Re: Ending Relationships...(Serious Tips Needed)

[tmt1922]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "allforenki" <allforenki@... wrote:

I am asking for TIPS and not Help here, I Know what to do but need tips on how to do it. This is the HARDEST thing i will ever attempt. I made a big mistake a long time ago. This WILL hurt me really bad, I will have to fight depression and suicidal feelings. I fell in love with a girl. Shes a regular xian programmed girl with an extremely weak Aura! She will go as far as cutting herself, as done before when i tried to leave her. I try to explain to her why cutting is bad but she always tries to ignore me because she doesnt understand me. SHE IS A FUCKING RETARD! I say this out of anger! Shes not really 'dumb' but shes an average person and you know most of us Satanists cant stand the stupidity of the average person. I can go on but basically she cant keep up with the way i think. She always accidently embarrasses me, direspects me, tell me shit, and disobeys me. She follows how she feels (the energy that can easily influence her weak aura) and cant control her actions from those feelings.

**Note** I just realized you can vent anger energy writing! lol Now i can better see how energy is used. I better not waste it all here...

Anyways, Shes Weak and Its killing me. Im Strong and cant stand her. BUT i fell deeply in love with her and if i break up with her (which i tried) ill get seriously hurt and will not wanna meditate and will wanna look into suicide. I had experienced this when i tried leaving her so i went back to her. So Both Ways, leaving or keeping her, Im being killed slowly. Im stuck with her. I have tons of energy that is waiting to be unleashed against me, i have so much emotions i havent let go yet. I have to keep with a VOID mind or else all the emotions will control me, trust me i feel ALOT!

I will direct all those bad emotions into a astral crystal ball until im fine. Then i should be feeling alright but this is just the preparation.

I Will Need to Cut our relationship link which i have no experience doing. Then will have to seal the holes left. *I need tips on this ^*

Alright the emotions are coming out because im thinking about her, FUCK! I have to hold them in! I almost feel depression within seconds.

My emotions are saying I CANT LEAVE HER, I CANT LIVE WITHOUT HER! You see how strong and hard this is?

I dont want to do this but i know its best.

Fuck im going crazy, fuck i dont know what to do but i just cant live with her but i cant live without her...

FUCK!!! lol Life sucks right now. I cant believe this energy/connection is too strong for me to handle

Sorry for all the extra shit, i just got caught up on releasing the energy through this message and i want you to see that this shit is TOUGH, real TOUGH! and you cant feel how bad this is unless you experience it.

I have a strong side in me and i have a side of me that all for the love relationship.

Oh man i love her too much!

FFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO! FUCK IT! I CAN GET THROUGH THIS BITCH!!!
Sounds to me like a female vampire

Even when this is all over ; She will still be in your mind for a long time
I KNOW what that feels like

 

[David De Jager]

good job brother, let us know of any further progress!

From: allforenki <allforenki@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Tuesday, 2 June, 2009 10:02:49 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Ending Relationships...(Serious Tips Needed)

--- In JoyofSatan666@ yahoogroups. com, "allforenki" <allforenki@ ... wrote:

I am asking for TIPS and not Help here, I Know what to do but need tips on how to do it. This is the HARDEST thing i will ever attempt. I made a big mistake a long time ago. This WILL hurt me really bad, I will have to fight depression and suicidal feelings. I fell in love with a girl. Shes a regular xian programmed girl with an extremely weak Aura! She will go as far as cutting herself, as done before when i tried to leave her. I try to explain to her why cutting is bad but she always tries to ignore me because she doesnt understand me. SHE IS A FUCKING RETARD! I say this out of anger! Shes not really 'dumb' but shes an average person and you know most of us Satanists cant stand the stupidity of the average person. I can go on but basically she cant keep up with the way i think. She always accidently embarrasses me, direspects me, tell me shit, and disobeys me. She follows how she feels (the energy that can easily influence her weak aura) and cant control her actions from those feelings.

**Note** I just realized you can vent anger energy writing! lol Now i can better see how energy is used. I better not waste it all here...

Anyways, Shes Weak and Its killing me. Im Strong and cant stand her. BUT i fell deeply in love with her and if i break up with her (which i tried) ill get seriously hurt and will not wanna meditate and will wanna look into suicide. I had experienced this when i tried leaving her so i went back to her. So Both Ways, leaving or keeping her, Im being killed slowly. Im stuck with her. I have tons of energy that is waiting to be unleashed against me, i have so much emotions i havent let go yet. I have to keep with a VOID mind or else all the emotions will control me, trust me i feel ALOT!

I will direct all those bad emotions into a astral crystal ball until im fine. Then i should be feeling alright but this is just the preparation.

I Will Need to Cut our relationship link which i have no experience doing. Then will have to seal the holes left. *I need tips on this ^*

Alright the emotions are coming out because im thinking about her, FUCK! I have to hold them in! I almost feel depression within seconds.

My emotions are saying I CANT LEAVE HER, I CANT LIVE WITHOUT HER! You see how strong and hard this is?

I dont want to do this but i know its best.

Fuck im going crazy, fuck i dont know what to do but i just cant live with her but i cant live without her...

FUCK!!! lol Life sucks right now. I cant believe this energy/connection is too strong for me to handle

Sorry for all the extra shit, i just got caught up on releasing the energy through this message and i want you to see that this shit is TOUGH, real TOUGH! and you cant feel how bad this is unless you experience it.

I have a strong side in me and i have a side of me that all for the love relationship.

Oh man i love her too much!

FFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUU UUUUUUUUUU! I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO! FUCK IT! I CAN GET THROUGH THIS BITCH!!!


Well I got rid of the energy, and cut off our relationship link. This probably will have to be repeated because, even though i feel a little more relieved (just probably cuz i got rid of energy), I feel somewhat a connection left between us.

I just cant think of her.
LOL sorry about the random messages but i couldnt help it, it released a bit of that negative energy and felt good. I feel way better now just have to keep it up.

IM ALMOST COMPLETELY FREE! lol
Becareful falling in love, i strongly suggest against falling too deep that you would die for them or without them. I learned my damn lesson.

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[ceiling.down]

Think about it. In a year's time, do you suppose you'll still be thinking about her? I don't think so. Stay in control. \m/

 

[metal_neolith]

We have been through tough breakups yours sounds especially difficult, but as a satanist you are better then the rest you have a strong mind and can get through this.

I advise first sorting your mind, go somewhere peaceful, quiet and secluded away from anyone and just meditate on your feels about her and imagine what life would be like without her this will help you decide if you would be better or worse try not to focus on the feeling of missing her just what day to day life would be like. If the answer is better then you know what you must do, if the answer is worse then you have some hard work ahead.

You will have to try and show her about satanism and try to help her become stronger and more of a suitable person for you to be with, though take it slow if she is a christian this is going to be very hard but even if you can show her the truth just a bit she may start to come round.

The final and most important thing is when you are fairly new to the left hand path don't be afraid to ask for help from satan and the other gods they will help you, maybe not directly but you will see it.

Hope this helps and good luck in your decision, remember love doesnt come around that often, but neither does happiness.

HAIL SATAN!!

 

[stan84ely]

Try to think of it that way...

If your girl is stupid .it's easy to control her.(like your pet)

if your girl is smarter than you. she will control you.

Which one do you prefer?!

Just my 5 cents !

HS!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "tmt1922" <tmt1922@... wrote:

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "allforenki" <allforenki@ wrote:

I am asking for TIPS and not Help here, I Know what to do but need tips on how to do it. This is the HARDEST thing i will ever attempt. I made a big mistake a long time ago. This WILL hurt me really bad, I will have to fight depression and suicidal feelings. I fell in love with a girl. Shes a regular xian programmed girl with an extremely weak Aura! She will go as far as cutting herself, as done before when i tried to leave her. I try to explain to her why cutting is bad but she always tries to ignore me because she doesnt understand me. SHE IS A FUCKING RETARD! I say this out of anger! Shes not really 'dumb' but shes an average person and you know most of us Satanists cant stand the stupidity of the average person. I can go on but basically she cant keep up with the way i think. She always accidently embarrasses me, direspects me, tell me shit, and disobeys me. She follows how she feels (the energy that can easily influence her weak aura) and cant control her actions from those feelings.

**Note** I just realized you can vent anger energy writing! lol Now i can better see how energy is used. I better not waste it all here...

Anyways, Shes Weak and Its killing me. Im Strong and cant stand her. BUT i fell deeply in love with her and if i break up with her (which i tried) ill get seriously hurt and will not wanna meditate and will wanna look into suicide. I had experienced this when i tried leaving her so i went back to her. So Both Ways, leaving or keeping her, Im being killed slowly. Im stuck with her. I have tons of energy that is waiting to be unleashed against me, i have so much emotions i havent let go yet. I have to keep with a VOID mind or else all the emotions will control me, trust me i feel ALOT!

I will direct all those bad emotions into a astral crystal ball until im fine. Then i should be feeling alright but this is just the preparation.

I Will Need to Cut our relationship link which i have no experience doing. Then will have to seal the holes left. *I need tips on this ^*

Alright the emotions are coming out because im thinking about her, FUCK! I have to hold them in! I almost feel depression within seconds.

My emotions are saying I CANT LEAVE HER, I CANT LIVE WITHOUT HER! You see how strong and hard this is?

I dont want to do this but i know its best.

Fuck im going crazy, fuck i dont know what to do but i just cant live with her but i cant live without her...

FUCK!!! lol Life sucks right now. I cant believe this energy/connection is too strong for me to handle

Sorry for all the extra shit, i just got caught up on releasing the energy through this message and i want you to see that this shit is TOUGH, real TOUGH! and you cant feel how bad this is unless you experience it.

I have a strong side in me and i have a side of me that all for the love relationship.

Oh man i love her too much!

FFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO! FUCK IT! I CAN GET THROUGH THIS BITCH!!!
Sounds to me like a female vampire
Even when this is all over ; She will still be in your mind for a long time
I KNOW what that feels like

 

[allforenki]

ok guys, i have it under control lol

 

[infinitempire]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "metal_neolith" <metal_neolith@... wrote:

We have been through tough breakups yours sounds especially difficult, but as a satanist you are better then the rest you have a strong mind and can get through this.

I advise first sorting your mind, go somewhere peaceful, quiet and secluded away from anyone and just meditate on your feels about her and imagine what life would be like without her this will help you decide if you would be better or worse try not to focus on the feeling of missing her just what day to day life would be like. If the answer is better then you know what you must do, if the answer is worse then you have some hard work ahead.

You will have to try and show her about satanism and try to help her become stronger and more of a suitable person for you to be with, though take it slow if she is a christian this is going to be very hard but even if you can show her the truth just a bit she may start to come round.

The final and most important thing is when you are fairly new to the left hand path don't be afraid to ask for help from satan and the other gods they will help you, maybe not directly but you will see it.

Hope this helps and good luck in your decision, remember love doesnt come around that often, but neither does happiness.

HAIL SATAN!!

I can at least say you are doing better off then me well at least you are in a relationship but if its as bad as you say perhaps you need to just up and leave your other it's not a matter of you taking steps if you stay it will only get worse I can tell from experience you will only gain pain not physical perhaps but more of mental . Trust me things will get better if you use your judgement.

 

[Monie]

To Allforenki...

I know how you feel....I suffer from feeling like I am smarter than everyone else around me too.
Its common I think to people that are narcissistic or egocentric.

maybe she is stupid. Get what you can out of her,...then leave the relationship when you find something more suitable to you.

Problem solved....

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "stan84ely" <stan84ely@... wrote:

Try to think of it that way...

If your girl is stupid .it's easy to control her.(like your pet)

if your girl is smarter than you. she will control you.

Which one do you prefer?!

Just my 5 cents !

HS!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "tmt1922" <tmt1922@ wrote:

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "allforenki" <allforenki@ wrote:

I am asking for TIPS and not Help here, I Know what to do but need tips on how to do it. This is the HARDEST thing i will ever attempt. I made a big mistake a long time ago. This WILL hurt me really bad, I will have to fight depression and suicidal feelings. I fell in love with a girl. Shes a regular xian programmed girl with an extremely weak Aura! She will go as far as cutting herself, as done before when i tried to leave her. I try to explain to her why cutting is bad but she always tries to ignore me because she doesnt understand me. SHE IS A FUCKING RETARD! I say this out of anger! Shes not really 'dumb' but shes an average person and you know most of us Satanists cant stand the stupidity of the average person. I can go on but basically she cant keep up with the way i think. She always accidently embarrasses me, direspects me, tell me shit, and disobeys me. She follows how she feels (the energy that can easily influence her weak aura) and cant control her actions from those feelings.

**Note** I just realized you can vent anger energy writing! lol Now i can better see how energy is used. I better not waste it all here...

Anyways, Shes Weak and Its killing me. Im Strong and cant stand her. BUT i fell deeply in love with her and if i break up with her (which i tried) ill get seriously hurt and will not wanna meditate and will wanna look into suicide. I had experienced this when i tried leaving her so i went back to her. So Both Ways, leaving or keeping her, Im being killed slowly. Im stuck with her. I have tons of energy that is waiting to be unleashed against me, i have so much emotions i havent let go yet. I have to keep with a VOID mind or else all the emotions will control me, trust me i feel ALOT!

I will direct all those bad emotions into a astral crystal ball until im fine. Then i should be feeling alright but this is just the preparation.

I Will Need to Cut our relationship link which i have no experience doing. Then will have to seal the holes left. *I need tips on this ^*

Alright the emotions are coming out because im thinking about her, FUCK! I have to hold them in! I almost feel depression within seconds.

My emotions are saying I CANT LEAVE HER, I CANT LIVE WITHOUT HER! You see how strong and hard this is?

I dont want to do this but i know its best.

Fuck im going crazy, fuck i dont know what to do but i just cant live with her but i cant live without her...

FUCK!!! lol Life sucks right now. I cant believe this energy/connection is too strong for me to handle

Sorry for all the extra shit, i just got caught up on releasing the energy through this message and i want you to see that this shit is TOUGH, real TOUGH! and you cant feel how bad this is unless you experience it.

I have a strong side in me and i have a side of me that all for the love relationship.

Oh man i love her too much!

FFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO! FUCK IT! I CAN GET THROUGH THIS BITCH!!!
Sounds to me like a female vampire
Even when this is all over ; She will still be in your mind for a long time
I KNOW what that feels like

 

[allforenki]

LMAO ALRIGHT EVERYONE! jeez, i took care of it.

No more posting here thnx